Forgiveness – A Gift That is Always Justified

Going through the text of the Completed and Annotated Edition of A Course in Miracles with the year-long reading program from the Circle of Atonement in their Course Companions program, I just read the retitled section “Forgiveness is Always Justified” which was called “The Justification For Forgiveness” in the Foundation for Inner Peace Editions. I like the new title, but they both connote the same thing.

I don’t think I have mentioned this before, but it took me more than fifteen years to read through the Text of ACIM in the FIP edition. I finished that, two January’s ago. Last June, I started the CE Edition which Circle of Atonement founder Robert Perry was the lead editor of along with other teachers from the Circle. I started that Text which has a lot of new material that was taken down in Helen Shuchman’s notes originally before they were edited out of what became the FIP Edition. Most of that material is in the first seven chapters.

I wanted to comment on Text Chapter 30 (“The New Beginning”), Section Six, “Forgiveness is Always Justified”, as I mentioned above. In this material is the classic rollout of ACIM-based forgiveness where we are called to pardon our brothers and sisters no matter what the circumstances so as to offer them a miracle and thus heal them of any guilt they might have felt over seeming to attack us. The section starts out by saying that “Anger is never justified. Anger has no foundation (1.1-2).” If what the author of the Course is saying is to be taken as true, then we have some major shifts to undergo in our interpersonal dealings with others.

When we feel attacked, we feel as if the other person should pay or that we should imprison them. But, we as spiritual people, tell ourselves “We need to forgive. We need to love so I can ascend or become more holy, even though you did something wrong and I am letting you off the hook for it.” This, the author of the Course says is not real forgiveness. Its as if, as Robert Perry said in his commentary on this section, we forgive through “gritted-teeth”, and with questionable willingness. Our motives under these conditions are not really about releasing the other person from something we thought they did to us, but trying to make an “error” we think they did to us “real” and try to pardon it. But what the author of the Course is trying to do in getting us to shift our perception about what ‘true forgiveness’ is, is to look at the supposed ‘sin’ they committed, then see that is wasn’t a ‘sin’ at all, and then even more, to look on a brother as innocent of any and all crimes we could have thought were perpetrated against us.

In the Course’s teachings on forgiveness, we are not just letting a person off the hook for something we thought they really did because we think it is the right thing to do. We are looking through “True Perception” and seeing that we could not be attacked and that we are called to pardon, what in actuality, never happened at all to us. How can this be so? Because according to the author, we were never harmed in the process of what may have looked like attack, therefore, anger is, as we mentioned earlier, never justified. Our only true response is to look upon the one we thought hurt us (tried to), and see that they are still innocent and there was no attack. I’ve heard people in Course circles call this “Quantum Forgiveness”.

What we are really doing under these pretenses, is healing the person who appeared to have attacked us of their guilt over the choice they made to try and hurt us. We all carry primal guilt over the first error, of trying to attack God when He didn’t respond to our request to seek special favor from him (to be elevated above others who He created). The guilt we feel when we attack another (though it may be repressed), is really the guilt we feel from having repeatedly rejected the Divine. Hence, when we judge, attack, or blame, we are in effect, really hurting ourselves, not the other person. So, we as the attacker, therefore need a miracle to be healed and released from guilt. This is where our brother or sister in spirit becomes our “savior”.

When we feel attacked, we are told by the author to say: “I thank you, Father, for Your perfect Son, and in his glory will I see my own.” By pardoning or forgiving, and seeing the glory and perfection of our brother or sister in spirit, we are seeing the Father’s glory in us. This is a remedy for sickness and distress, pain and guilt we carry around with us. It’s a hard thing to employ, but when we do, we both heal and are healed.

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CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 56 (REVIEW # 1 : DAYS 26-30)

DAY 56

Today I will review the following affirmations:

DAY 26
The thoughts of assault, attack, and intent to harm and cause pain and suffering are assaulting and attacking my state of shimmering bliss-peace, Santosha-Contentment, and sense of security. If I can be assaulted, attacked, in pain, and harmed then I am not in a state of security and am prone to danger and fear. It is my individual mind, the egoic-ahamkar, small and false-self that believes I can be assaulted, attacked, harmed, or even killed, due to the fact that this mind believes I have attacked and harmed my small self. In reality this cannot happen, because my True Christed Self cannot be harmed or be subject to dangerous forms of behavior and thinking and the Christed Self is all that is Real in the Divine Allness’ Primal Creation. This concept that I believe I can be attacked and harmed and that I am inflicting emotional and psychological, and even the possibility of physical pain upon myself is a Law of Mind that I need to understand and turn the tables on it. To see that cause and effect are this law and that what I think causes what I will appear and seem to experience while in this world drama that unfolds daily, and moment by moment as I choose separation instead of Yoga-Union or Communion with The Father-Mother.

 
I am beginning to realize and grow in the awareness that I always threaten to harm myself first. Again, holding thoughts of harm and intent to inflict pain of any kind towards myself and others in all instances entails that I believe I am in fact capable of being harmed or subject to pain and suffering, and that thoughts that stem from this belief are meant to weaken me. If I believe I am capable of being harmed and subject to pain and suffering, I am inducing a form of harm upon my false self, that is the only self that could experience such devastation. I am the Christ. The Son of God. I really cannot be harmed. I only think I can be and am in turn an individual body and brain that is suffering. When I do this or believe this in any way, a falsely imagined picture of myself tries to take the place of my Christed Nature that is in Samadhi-Oneness with God forever.

 

I must realize that it is the thoughts that I have in my split, separate mind that make me feel I can be subject to pain, the klesha-afflictions, and suffering of any kind. By changing and reversing my thoughts through contemplation and affirmation, I can prevent this from happening on a more regular basis and hopefully, always.

 

I can’t know who I am if I perceive myself as under a constant threat of intent to be harmed. As Jeshua Jesus says I should own the idea that “pain, illness, loss, age and death seem to threaten me” and that “all my hopes and wishes and plans appear to be at the mercy of a world I cannot control.” I interpret this to mean that I am safe, secure, and through my Divine inborn nature, I am totally provided for and am valued and treasured to the highest possible degree. Therefore, no self-created avidya illusions that I may seem to manifest can imprison me or strip me of my perfect protection from any perceived forms of danger or threat of any kind. He further instructs that I have attempted to surrender and give up the Divine inborn nature that is my treasure because I try to own and possess the world I my manas-sense-mind sees. I need not worry for God Presence has kept my inborn treasure protected and preserved for me. It is my truthful, authentic vritti-thought fluctuations in the mind that will show me what this valuable gift is.

 

DAY 27
My highest priority and prime goal is to see with Christed Vision, that of the Atman Self at one with Brahman-Father-Mother, the Indestructable God Mind Sight. I want to see beyond the densification of matter and individual bodies that are the product of multiplicity, beyond subjectivity and relativity and all the images of projected mayaic delusion, to the one light beam of Love coming from the Divine Source who makes all seeing possible. This is what I truly want – peace and Bliss Eternal. Santosha-Contentment is what I desire. Wholeness is my pursuit. I will clean the lens of the Witnessing Christed Third Eye of Intuition with objectivity to see innocence in all my brothers and thereby in myself. I will create instead of make. I will awake from sleep. Dissolve the power that hypnosis has had over my body’s attempt to see.

 

The Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God in my mind, the Holy Spirit Aum Vibration brings many blessings. It allows me to perceive with Radical Right Perception in the truest, most clear possible way. Today, I will tame and undo the ego-beast of animality and selfishness to see with the eye of Wisdom. I will dream a new dream. See a new world. Perceive the Primordial Creation of the One Divine Oversoul-Spirit or God Mind. Write a new script. Allow Divinity to Direct a different motion picture that isn’t driven by conflict, drama, and pain.

 

It is time to stop hiding behind the ego-body’s blindness that limits me from seeing the Divine everywhere, in my brothers and sisters and behind the veil of physicality. The Worlds of Light, coming from the causal-ideational and astral-energetic planes are there to be perceived. Through Witnessing Presence, I will bear in mind that the world my egoic-ahamkar mind has made will perish and is only temporary. It will disappear when I forgive and align with the Love of Supreme Spirit. The illusions of superimposed image forms will fall away when I turn off the film projector of the fragmented individual mind.

 

Christ Vision is the key to unlock the prison door that encloses me in a body. It is the other way I have been seeking throughout this exile in a material world. I turn within and remember what I truly want to see. I will extend only Love as I begin to see and witness and notice. I will observe through objectivity rather than be swayed to and fro by the whirlpool fluctuations of thought and emotions that seem to rise and fall, clouding my True Awareness of Oneness. Vision makes no real demands. It can only bless with Bliss.

 

I acknowledge and affirm that what my manas-sense mind’s eyes see is a mirror image of the identity I have assumed for myself. Through Realization, Christ Vision is the only thing that I truly need to embrace. I know now, through gnosis that the projected world I see with my ego-body’s eyes is a witness to the fear based self-image that I have manufactured and that keeps me in the dungeon of hell . I need to release this concept of who I think I am, and be willing to Realize who I truly am – the Christed Son/Daughter of the Divine Allness. Christ Vision and Radical Right Perception will be birthed in my mind as my separative egoic self-image is transformed by the grace of pure, untainted truth. Through such clarity of sight, I will gaze out upon the world, while looking inward to my True Self with love and the desire to share only love with my transformed perception.

 

DAY 28
My highest priority and prime goal is to see with Christed Vision, that of the Atman Self at one with Brahman-Father-Mother, the Indestructable God Mind Sight of Radical Right Perception. I want to see beyond the densification of matter and individual bodies that are the product of multiplicity, beyond subjectivity and relativity and all the images of projected mayaic delusion, to the one light beam of Love coming from the Divine Source who makes all seeing possible. Today, I will let go of all meaning I have assigned from the past about any given object or person, releasing preconceived notions and stories I have assumed in the caverns of my split mind that labels and categorizes all that I perceive, seeing with a Beginner’s Mind. Today I commit to seeing, observing, noticing, and witnessing in a wholly different way. Programmed reactivity and judgments must fall away when something comes into my field of vision. True and Radical Right Perception in the Holy Instant of Now is my pursuit. I want to be free of all slanted, jaded, and biased viewpoints that blind me from seeing clearly and truly. I will allow my buddhi-intellect mind to dissolve the world of the manas-sense mind conditioning so I can truly discriminate truth from falsehood. The real from the unreal.

 

Though I resist seeing in an alternative way, I now desire and vow from this moment and day forward to seeking freedom from past mental tape recordings of my individual, separate mind that distort my ability to objectively see truly. I allow Inner Wisdom, the Inner Guide, the Inner Guru, the Cosmic Vibratory Holy Spirit Memory of Divinity to give me illumined vision so that I can see the flickering light of Truth and Love everywhere. By doing this, peace will come and joy will follow. Love is All, Divine Mind is All. Divine Mind allows me to create through Christ Vision instead of make images through biased perception. The Radical, the Right, the True, and the Holy are forever Real and there to bee seen with crystal clarity. I release all limited perceptions of what I glance at, and see not through the definitions I have formed in the past, but through a Beginner’s Mind. Christ Mind in Divine God Mind. This opens me up to brand new, Radically Right Sight.

 

I open my mind that was once closed. I am no longer bound by the shackles of past labeling. I quiet my mind from the whirls and eddies of sound vibrations that try toHoly assert pre-programmed judgments about things I encounter in this world dream. All stories I have written about things I have encountered in the past will from this point forward be re-written through objective noticing, and simply observing, free from assigning meaning from the egoic-ahamkar mind that compartmentalizes everything.
I attain Radical Right perception today by wiping clean the individual mind’s preconceived notions of what everything means and see instead the purpose of whatever I gaze upon with Christ and Atman Mind. I allow the Good, the Holy, and the Beautiful to shine forth and illumine my mind this day.

I affirm:

 

The superimposed hallucination, which I call the world, acts as a veil covering the full recognition of the vastness and fullness of true reality, and contains within it the fear-based self-concept I have put belief in. My individual ego-ahamkar false self tries to cement it there and it allows this distorted image of myself to continue to manifest. My perception of the “mind film” projected world in this moment prevents Satya-truth from being in my conscious, witnessing awareness. I pray that the doorway that remains hidden behind the projection of this world reveals itself and I bring the key with me to unlock it. My True Christ and Atman Self can look past the manifested world I think is authentic, to the truly real world that emanates only the essence and presence of the magnetic Love waves of the Divine.

 

DAY 29
The Supreme, Transcendent and Immanent, Indestructible, Brahman God Mind is omnipresent and in everything that I see with my Spiritual Christ Sight. The vision afforded me by the reflected Son and Daughter nature of the Divine, Cosmic Father-Mother Source allows me to see beyond images appearing as form that I superimpose through avidya-illusion and shadow-dance projecting, to the One Light and Love that uplifts me into Higher Awareness.

 

The True Self, the Christ, the Atman, the Awakened One, fed by the nectar of shakti life-essence sees Brahman God Mind everywhere, while the body’s physical eyes see only shadows of the Light that lies beyond them. What I want to see, I will see. When I want to perceive through fear, I will see avidya-illusions of terror. Fear everywhere, fearing everything, and fearing everyone. When I want to see only Love, I will see Brahman God Mind everywhere blessing all things through the vision of Love. I want only Transmissions of Light, Bliss, and Peace and I will see and experience these when I open my anahata heart and ajna chakras to receive the magnetism and shakti that awakens the fiery desire energy of kundalini within my astral, metaphysical body and spine. Kundalini, the evolutionary energy within me, travels upward, Godward, within, in my True Self Nature, illuminating the highways of travel through this lifetime. It shines a light upon the darkness and hypnotic maya that the egoic-ahamkar mind has tried to create as a rebellion against Brahman God Mind. Forms appear as dense. But through Radical Right Perception, I can see beyond them to Love that made me. The Love that is omnipresent and omnipotent.

 

Surely Brahman God Mind is not in a tree, but the life force that animates the form of the tree came from a creative source in me and in everyone who perceives a given tree. That life force that animates form came from Brahman God Mind because we are co-creators with that very Divine and Primal Origin. God Mind does not create trees, but the life-essence within me, being of God Mind, is the same as that Spiritual Desire Energy. Since my essence is in God Mind and God Mind’s essence is in me, that of which I have created has some of that very life-essence that makes a given form possible. Shakti emanates from the One Creative Center from which all Real Energy and Spirit Life came from. All emanations of Brahman Father-Mother are radiated outward from the Primal Center, in the circumference of everywhere as One Unified Quantum Field of Potential and Spirit.

 

My creations are not God’s creations when made with a separate will by my individual separate mind. But the love that animates mass, known as the adamantine particles, comes from the common origin of Ultimate Love. The Wholeness of God Mind is a Hologram. And all parts are contained within the whole and the whole is contained in all parts.

 

I affirm:

I remove the veils from true seeing, so that the individual “mind film” projected movie I have manifested from the limited, small self I think I am. Behind these veils, Satya-truth exists untainted and undistorted. On the other side of each curtain I have closed across the window of my true Christed Sight, concealing the transfigured magnetism of love, that very love power illuminates my path of awakening with its radiant, great rays. I Realize now that the ahamkar- ego based psychosis and its agenda cannot keep me from being in Samadhi-Oneness with the Will of the Divine Father-Mother Syzgy. The Father-Mother is and will always be omnipresent and within all things throughout the expansiveness of eternity. My brothers, sisters, and I who are One with the Supernal Parents, in this holy instant of now, see beyond all projected macabre images of the individual, separative mind and acknowledge the Satya-truth that transcends all of those phantasms.

 

DAY 30
Divinity Mind is in all things I see because Divinity Mind is in my mind. Though I seem to have experiences generated from a split, separate, ego mind, the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God, the Holy Spirit Creative Aum Vibration was placed in my mind the moment the separation from Divinity Allness seemed to occur (though in reality it did not), giving me the Illumination, Inspiration, Realization, and Revelation that I am still in at-one-ment with my Source. Therefore, I have a light to guide my seeing. To bring me Radical Right Perception or Clairvoyant-Clear Seeing.

 

Today, I can and will focus upon what is Real, the Truth that brings Bliss Unending and Santosha-Contentment. I will look upon a world forgiven and upon every person I see, meet, and greet, with the Eyes of Christ. Of True Self. The Atman. At one with Infinite Brahman Spirit, God Mind, that illuminates my mind. This Divine Source, is something my individual egoic-ahamkar mind tends to ignore and so I see the dance of shadows play out before my body’s eyes. This is only a veil. But it is glorious to know that I do get glimpses of the light that shines behind this curtain as there are holes in it and it is transparent in places. The light that comes through are the flashes of insight or satori that I get directly from the Mind of Divinity that goes by many names.

 

Today, I experience a shift in my awareness. A Divine Realization put there by the Memory of God in my mind. I am the One Creation of the Divine Father-Mother. The Christ. There is only Christ. True Self. The Atman. And I am that. As are all the people and life forms I seem to see on the stage of the world, the miniature model and set built by the collective ego scriptwriter. Though my set design seems to overshadow and hide the Original, Ever-Existing, All-Encompassing Divine design of True Paradise Creation, found in the potential of Energy, Thought, and Light outside the space-time continuum, I can remove this blinder set that I have built as a fence, by opening myself to Divine Realization and Self-Realization in Christ. I am Christ. In Paradise forever, with Paradise Everywhere. The dramas, tragedies, comedies, human romances, and horror shows that seem to play out on the stage my ego-ahamkar calls life, are really temporary delusions. And I can begin to see that they are only delusions by seeing through Spiritual Sight. Through the eyes of the Astral and Causal Bodies beyond the dense physical body eyes that I have used as a replacement for seeing only Oneness.

 

I never left the Mind of God and God never left my Mind. As mentioned above, the Memory of God was put in my mind to bring about a Remembrance of the One Truth that is True Always. I am One in God and therefore, seeing through Christ Vision, True Sight, I see that God Mind is everywhere in everything I look upon, because once again, behind the forms, are the energy potential and life essence that is Pure Beingness.

 

I will apply today’s idea often, ignoring concepts of ‘near’ and ‘far’ for these are avidya-illusions in the grand illusion, and see through the One Lens of the Christed Third Eye, the Presence of the Witnessing Observer. I will notice and gaze upon the One Light, that surrounds all form. I let the One God experienced in many ways, to Reveal Him and Her Self in all things, but not as all things, for my God Transcends all things that appear to be outside of me. I let Paradise Return. Oneness come. Bliss come. As I concentrate through dharana and meditate through dyana, I will see the One Singularity Everywhere.

 

I affirm:

Through sanity and even-mindedness, through Gnosis-Knowledge, I Realize that I am not fragmented and cut off from the Entirety of the Allness that exists in everything that has “Life”. I never lost the Gnosis-Knowledge, the Divine Realization of my unchangeable identity even though I have dissociated from it. The Divine Mind has preserved that true essence of Who I am in Its Emanation of Unending Thoughts. I am contained within the Macrocosmic Wholeness of those Thoughts and energetic pulsations and will always be, forever, in Yoga-Union with the Divine Mind of the Father-Mother.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 55 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 21-25)

DAY 55
Today I will review the following affirmations, spending two minutes reflecting on each one.

 

DAY 21
With alignment to Infinite Willpower given to me by God Mind, I am determined to see objectively, from my Inner Witnessing Presence Awareness in a different, more clear perspective, seeing through the One Reality of Love in Radical Right Perception and Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind Vision. I want to be liberated in this life through moksha. To break free from the cycle of birth and death. To let go of my grievances, my anger, to see not through my klesha-afflictions, but through the One Love that unites us all.

 

All that I seem to see are images of disease, disaster, and death, Jeshua (Jesus) says. God Presence did not intend this for His/Her Sons and Daughters. The fact that I see these things proves that I misunderstand the Divine Source and therefore don’t correctly realize who His Son is. That of which I see indicates to me, I do not realize who I really am. I have the volition through Infinite Willpower to see only the truth of my being, not avidya-illusions.

 

DAY 22
The images and thoughts of which I interpret to mean something with a negatively charged vibration are really an assault on the little self I call ‘me’. When I identify with an individual, separate, different from others self, I perceive and interpret the world to be an attack on my egoic false-self. I am not an individual self. I am part of One Whole Unified Field of Love and Light. When I believe I am an individual self instead of the Son/Daughter of God, the True Self Christ and Atman, I am assaulting myself with unconscious fragments and slivers of false thought. When I deny assault in my individual mind, I use the egoic film projector to create and interpret that very assault as coming from an outside world, disowning it. My response is to enshroud myself in a bubble of protection from that world and attack and assault it, my brothers and sisters in spirit, and all of which I seem to perceive. I get caught in the vicious cycle of the egoic-ahamkar manifestation of drama comprised of conflict, where I seem to see assault and attack and then feel the intense need to counter attack. This will continue to happen until I liberate my mind through Jnana Yogic discrimination. Using the buddhi-intellect, I deny the manas-sense-mind from taking control of what I interpret to be a hostile reality, that in truth is an illusion. I must and can escape from my ingrained perceptual hoax, the carnal, savage movie I out-picture as a world filmstrip, with attached sound, tainted light beams, moving images, a script, sets, props, tragedies and comedies at the expense of truth, and actors and actresses, who I think are making independent choices, when in reality I am making them up from the one ahamkar-ego that is appearing as a multiplicity of egos.

 

The world I perceive is not a representation of vibratory loving thoughts. As Jeshua Jesus says, “It is a picture of attack on everything by everything. It is anything but a reflection of the Love of God and the Love of His Son.” I must affirm that it is my own thoughts of threat that paint this picture of life as I know it in this world. I must know that my loving and peaceful thought waves that will liberate me from such a perception of the world, and give me the bliss-peace-shimmering-light Divine Presence wants me to have.
Today I will change my thoughts to change the world I see.

 

DAY 23
I can dream a new dream, see a new world order by surrendering my assaulting thoughts that my individual egoic-ahamkar mind projects outward into the sea of nothingness-void, by letting the Radical Right Minded Projector shine Light and Love rather than the despair of fear. Free breeds anger. Anger produces assault and attack thoughts. The only release from fear comes by transforming my chitta-mind stuff, the vritti-fluctuations of the mind. By making my mind still and empty. By changing what I project. By extending only Loving thoughts. By welcoming in the neutral mind and caring for the aura and radiant bodies that are at my core, from the existence of the nine other bodies outside the physical. I must go beyond the physical sheath, the anna maya kosha out to the intellectual sheath or the buddhi mind, the mano maya kosha, and out even further to the Bliss sheath, the ananda maya kosha. Bliss will eradicate the fear that produces assault and attack thoughts. Perceiving with the physical ego-body’s eyes will always breed assault and defensiveness stemming from fear of danger.

 

Though I can be a change agent in the world, there is no real point in trying to manipulate outer appearances of form. At the level of causation and ideational thought, I must create in alignment with God Mind, a different experience while in the illusory world. Changing at the level of cause will change the effect on the movie screen of the matrix ego-womb mind. The world I seem to perceive is an assault on myself. But the illusory external unreality cannot really harm me in all honesty. The movie dream my split mind projects is not True Seeing. This is not sight, but hallucination. Image making is not the same as resting in Pure Being or Samadhi Oneness with Divine God Mind. My false-self superimposes images of assault and they seem to assault me back. Radical Right Perception must be welcomed by my Higher Mind, the Christ Mind-Atman Self. Mirages do not last and cannot have Infinite effects. Communion and Yoga-Union with God will be the Everlasting Will that extends rather than projects.

 

Aligning with Radical Right Perception and even going beyond perception at all levels to Gnosis-Knowledge or Divine Realization and Divine Contact will bring about true liberation from karma or the law of cause and effect that seems to bind me to all the physical bodies I have inhabited in life time after life time. I am tired of dying and coming back to the world I hallucinate in conjunction with the one fractured collective ego. Some people call the liberation I seek, salvation, but liberation has a different connotation.

 

Under the spell of maya-hypnosis, I do not see that I am the filmmaker, seeming to direct this motion-picture film drama of apparent happenings. My Christ Mind can change what is playing in the theater of shadows and replace the disturbing, violent, horror film, the product of fear and hate and must replace it with a different film which was made by Divinity Allness, Supreme Spirit, Brahman-Father-Mother, the moment the separation seemed to occur (although it did not), when the Memory of my Divine Origin was placed in my mind, Kundalini Desire Energy or the Rising Potential of Holy Spirit.

 

By surrendering assaulting thoughts, I am liberated. Without thoughts having the intent to harm, I would not perceive a world filled with assault and threats of danger. Today, I allow forgiveness to bring love back into my mind field, so as to only see a world of peace and safety and joy. I choose these things instead of what I now perceive.

 

DAY 24
My individual, egoic-ahamkar misuses the faculties of perception to receive messages that do not reflect what is of optimum wellness and truly right and good for me. Self and Christ-Realization is the only goal I should have. Due to strongly identifying with an individual, isolated self appearing to be in this world exile experience in the unpredictable wilderness, I seem to be under a spell of delusion that prevents me from perceiving outcomes to expectations that will bring me Supreme Santosha-Contentment. Alone and apart from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of Divinity Origin, the Holy Desire-Energy-Spirit in my mind, I have no real guide to making the best choices that would bring about Supreme Santosha-Contentment and my overall good. What I have perceived with my individual egoic-ahamkar have been misconstrued and untrue and therefore what I have chosen to do in almost all circumstances has depended upon my interpretations and perceptions. So, I must embrace acceptance that I apart from God Mind do not recognize what is Radically Right for me to do. To do what is Radically Right and good should be my only expectation at all times, because I am prone to hypnotic confusion about what is the best outcome for my True Self, Christ and Atman Self. Recognizing that on my own, I will be unclear about what is of optimum wellness for me, opens me to being taught by the Inner Guru, Inner Wisdom, Universal Inspiration, and the Intuitive Guide Within. Asleep at the wheel of this earth-bound experience will only block learning. Today, I take a step towards expanding my mind about what is Radically Right for me to do while in this body vehicle, seeming to interact with outer objects, people, and experiences.

 

How can I recognize what is of true, optimum wellness for me when I do not know who I am? What I think is truly right and good for me really keep me in bondage to delusions. I affirm and commit to listening to the guide Divine Presence gave to me in my mind the second separation seemed to occur. I realize I cannot perceive optimum wellness and what is truly right and good for me on my own.

 

Today, I must be brutally honest with myself so as not to fall victim to contradictory outcomes, by accepting that my individual, isolated self knows nothing on its own. This is an important step in the process of unraveling the mind from the web of maya I am stuck in. I want to awaken in this lifetime.

 

 

DAY 25
I am not aware in this moment in time and space, what anything I seem to see with the body’s eyes are for. Purpose and meaning are the same. But my individual mind has confused and tried to replace the purpose of Christ Mind and the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God with a delusory thought system. I have many mistaken ideas when I choose to associate with the ego thought system. Since I do not know what any given thing I perceive is for, it by default has no meaning for me. It is time to let go of the meaning the egoic-ahamkar thought system has assigned to everything I seem to encounter in this world dream. Everything in this world is supposed to be for my own best interests, according to the ego. But this is not the case. By design these things are supposed to fulfill me. That is what all things are supposed to be for under the thought system of the egoic-ahamkar. That is the purpose they are supposed to serve. The individual mind tells me that. Under this premise, my goals are in turn supposed to be unified. But this simply doesn’t happen when under the spell of illusion, subjectivity, and relativity. Everything becomes a blur and a distortion made to keep me asleep.
When I perceive with the individual, separative, subjective mind, I am unaware of what things are for and this mind gives meaning with its interpretation system. The aspirations and goals that originate in the individual mind that is separate from God Mind, are not in my own best interests, because I am in Reality not the individual egoic-ahamkar mind. My false association with the ego’s dream causes me to be incapable of knowing what anything means and what anything is for. Once I accept and acknowledge this, I will stop reinforcing my individual mind’s aspirations for the world dream I seem to experience and pull back from the projected images of these unconscious wishes. When I turn off the ego film projector by aligning with God and Christ Mind there will be a blank screen filled with golden-white light that the darkness of the images and wishes were hiding. Since I am only part of One Unified Mind, the wishes and desires of the individual mind really are concerned with nothing at all. By holding these wishes and desires as special, my individual mind has no goals, in the scope of what is True and Real, and therefore, I can’t know what anything is for.

 

When thinking in terms of superficiality, my egoic-ahamkar mind understands purpose, but True Purpose cannot be comprehended with superficial vibrations. The magnetism of thought at this level is weak and foggy at best. Today, I realize that the purpose of everything and everyone I think of and see is to convince me that my avidya-illusions about myself are in effect real and true. I have a false belief that the world is for telling me these things that are not really true. The purpose I have given the film dream movie of a world led to a terror-inducing picture of it. Today, I commit to opening and expanding my mind to the world’s real purpose which is to teach me to wake up and be only Love for All in All.

 

In order to awaken, to grow in understanding, and to evolve, I must surrender and let go of the individual goals that come from the ego mind. Individual goals mean nothing. As mentioned in the previous day’s contemplation, Self and Christ-Realization, Divine Realization of who I really am is the only goal and will I really should and do have. Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 54 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 16-20)

DAY 54
These are the ideas for review today. Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation.

DAY 16
It is impossible to have thoughts without taking a position or a point of view. It also follows that my thoughts, regardless of whether they come from dark, light, or admixed energy vibrations will have an effect, either creating a world of separate, illusory forms or manifesting out of creative communication with the Divine, thoughts of Love from the One True Source of Love. Everything I see is the byproduct of thought. There is no thought too small or too big. Thoughts create experience. Experience creates beliefs. Beliefs create perceptions. Thoughts are either Radically Right or dreadfully out of alignment with truth. True thoughts extend from Love of Infinite Measure. False thoughts project and animate, paint, and out picture images and egoic-ahamkaric movies that aren’t true.

 

Thoughts are either true and whole or false and fragmented. They, unlike the meaning of things I see with my manas-sense-mind’s eyes and its visual cortex are not neutral. Thought waves have vibratory effects and consequences. They either create and extend love or they destroy through fear and assault. True and whole thoughts will show me the Real World while destructive, false, and fearful thoughts will be projected from the ego-ahamkar mind and show me a hell that really doesn’t exist. Thought distortions that destroy or seek to attack are errors that need to be corrected and reconciled in order for veils that prevent True Sight from occurring to vanish and disappear. I must stand guard and watch the fluctuations in my mind so I am in alignment with Heaven and not a self-made hell of torment and affliction. Thoughts must either be true and whole, or false and the cause of the kind of sleep that produces nightmares.

 

DAY 17
I do not perceive with neutrality because my thoughts are not without a positionality or some slanted form of judgment or fixed belief. This day I take another step to recognize cause and effect and that I seem to be experiencing an outer manifested world that my egoic-ahamkar calls real. Thoughts and beliefs come before perception even though it seems to occur the other way around. My egoic mind-womb wants me to believe that perception comes first, but in reality I bring all preconceived notions, beliefs, and ideas from the past to the present moment that my egoic-ahamkar corrupts and assails with the onslaught of these fixed delusions. What I perceive and think I see do not appear to be neutral. My private mind sees either Heaven or hell.

 

What my mind sees and then interprets is a testament to the quality and nature of what fluctuations of thought that arise in it. In no way can I see nothingness, because to think must lead me to see something as form. Thinking, despite many thoughts to the contrary is the basis of my existence and being. Everything comes from a thought. Whether from a Divine Source or from mayaic-delusion. I must choose to gaze upon the world I visually interpret as a film projection coming from and being played out by the causative-ideational nature of my mind that was a gift from the Divine Allness. I can always transform my mental atmosphere, so therefore the idea must follow, that the kind of world I photograph with my eyes can be made into something new that comes from eternal light instead of darkness.

 

DAY 18
I am not alienated in experiencing the effects of my perceptual faculties because all minds are joined and unified, only appearing to be separate, seeing through what seem to be individual eyes of different physical bodies and their their visual cortexes. Am I seeing with the personal egoic-ahamkar and its body sense of sight, of which there really is only one mass, collective ego, or from Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind-Vision? In all cases it is always one or the other from which I see or seem to perceive.

 

Though I have thoughts that seem to come from a private mind, I have no private thought forms. Therefore, if my mind can’t produce private thoughts that are not shared, I cannot look out upon a world solely of my own making. The insane moment of separation was a joint, collective happening that occurred and now is on seeming display for one mind appearing as individual minds to visually interpret and see. That collective sharing though, was really a sharing of absolute nothingness. I now call upon my true and whole thoughts because they, in actuality are shared with everyone who seems to inhabit this earth dream with me. In the manner that my thought forms of division speak to the divisive thought vibrations in other people, it can also be said that my true and whole thoughts ignite an awakening, flashes of insight and Realization in them as well. The kind of world that my true and whole thoughts reflect back to me will also be born within the minds of others.

 

DAY 19
Cause and effect are intertwined. Perception and what I appear to see are interrelated. Therefore, in relation to the idea from yesterday, I am not in solitary confinement in experiencing the effects of my vibratory, magnetic thoughts. As each has a calibration in consciousness, so does the thought waves of other people affect me as mine do to them. Once again, it is worth emphasizing that my mind matrix is not limited to an alienated personal mind. Though I resist the idea, and think that this means I have enormous resulting responsibilities, I must not be fooled into believing I am powerless or that I cannot effect the outcome of what I seem to perceive. I am a creator at One with the Mind of God and at One with the entire Sonship of brothers and sisters in spirit. However, I chose to make, project outward, and distort reality with my disturbed and disordered thinking. I am not alienated from other personal minds, because there is only one mind, and only one ego mind appearing to be many. I must accept that I have no thoughts apart from other seeming individual minds, which again are fragments of the One Mind. Private thoughts are non-existent.

 

What I experience is never done in solitary. Every thought form, every word I choose to speak, and every action I engage in has a universal effect on the entirety of the manifested cosmos within space-time. A Christed Son or Daughter does none of these things with only their own interests in mind. There is no experience of alienation. I have the Divine begotten ability to bring about thought form reversal in all minds including my own individual mind. This is due to the inherited grandeur of the Father-Mother, when used for Divine Right use of mind.

 

DAY 20
In alignment with Infinite Willpower given to me by God Mind, I am determined to see objectively, from my Inner Witnessing Presence Awareness, the One Reality of Love through Radical Right Perception and Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind Vision. My mind needs discipline. Due to mayaic-delusory subjectivity, I haven’t been able to distinguish between True Joy and sorrow, Bliss and sadness, True lasting pleasure and the hell of pain. It is time to start telling them apart for maximum freedom in Real Awareness. There is an objective Reality of Heavenly Oneness from which all Radical Right Perception proceeds. This is my goal today. To truly see. To be liberated in this life through moksha. I am making the pre-decision to perceive differently to attain Radical Right Perception in the Holy Instant of Now. Determination will bring about the desired result.

 

Today, I acknowledge whole-heartedly, in my mind-body complex, that all fluctuations of thought transcend subjectivity and are collectively experienced, and I am driven to obtain True Christed Sight. I now gaze upon all those who give testament to the reality that the global vibrational thought field has been transformed by Light and Love. I trust in the evidence that what has changed due to me being used as a vehicle for mass transcendence of the ego, shows me that Endless Love has made fear obsolete, and metamorphosed sadness into joy, and the feast of plenty has come to replace devastation and despair. Through my convicted willpower, I can see the real and true world, and thereby let it impart upon me, the wisdom and grace of knowing that my willpower is one with that same current in the Divine.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 52 (REVIEW # 1: 6-10)

DAY 52

REVIEW OF DAYS 6-10
Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation. If any one of the five affirmations appeals to you more than another, you may spend more time centering on that one.

The following ideas will be reviewed today:

 

DAY 6
What upsets and seems to threaten the state of Perfect Primordial Calmness, is not really present. It is not there, here, or anywhere. What I see then is a distorted subconscious, subjective mind fragment that is intruding upon Radical Right Perception of True Reality consisting of Eternal Spirit, Energy, and Cosmic Causal Thought. What I see is just a mirage in the desert my private mind made, a massive hallucination and egoic mind projection out onto the movie screen, the world of multiplicity, called prakriti. The emotionally charged distortions are part of a reactive process, a programmed response to what my ego thinks is going to cause pain, suffering, and annihilation of it.

 

What is truly Real cannot cause me to have nightmares. Nor can it have any power over me to cause me to be in turmoil or suffering of any kind. The Truly Real brings only Shanti-Peace. In the moments of absent-mindedness, when I am in some kind of self-made turmoil or suffering, it is because I have substituted Reality with avidya-illusions that I concocted. Those avidya-illusions have caused me suffering and anxiety because I have tried to make them real, and thus regard True Reality as illusory and without the essence of Ananda-Bliss which belongs to it. Not a single thing in the fullness of Father-Mother’s creation is affected by this delusion I have made. I need to accept and be in Divine-Realization that I come to be upset by something that doesn’t exist.

 

DAY 7
Out of all the possible things to perceive, I see only a privatized, fragmented past. I have flashbacks that scramble and confuse my orientation to True Reality.

 

Mental visions and interpretations of the past in the form of memories, flash backs, emotional and visceral highly charged associations/experiences cloud Radical Right Perception and Divine Realization from revealing True Reality of Communion with God Mind through Christ Mind to me. In seeing only the past projected out onto the screen of my life, I experience the split-mind. It is because of these factors that the immediacy of the present moment in the form of God Revealed Holy Instants outside of space-time, dissolves the past from having any major importance in my attempts to see True Reality. However the past experienced mind-fragments, dissociations, forgetfulness, time spent out of alignment with God Mind severely impacts the quality of seeing and the ability to see that I have always been in perfect Primordial First Right Relationship or in Christ Mind Yoga-Union with the Divine Dreamer.

 

Nothing that I see means anything because I superimpose past mental structures and thought out onto other people, onto the Unified God Allness, and onto events and happenings.

 

In seeing projections, mind fluctuations, and thoughts of the past almost everywhere I look, I alone have given/ascribed all the meaning that my subjective mind has determined any given encounter should have.

 

I don’t comprehend what I think I am seeing now, because of the interference of past programmed thinking, that I have projected onto all things. What I see and encounter now in most instances isn’t True Witnessed Reality undistorted. My thoughts about the world and my place in it do not mean anything because events in the psychologically constructed time function are neutral and devoid of any meaning. Because of this I am never truly disturbed.

 

All emotional uprisings the inner tidal waves of reactivity that surface within my body-mind-vehicle-chariot housing my unscathed soul, stem from the idea that the phantasms I project impede clear-seeing, creating inner havoc instead of inner peace.

No matter where in this dream world I look, what I think I see, I try to sabotage, judge, or punish with my private thoughts and I have the audacity to claim that this is what true seeing is. I use the past to persecute almost everyone through my thoughts and the use of words or actions that stem from those thoughts, thus making them into my rivals and foes. If I could but forgive first myself and honestly embrace the remembrance of my True Christed Self, I would be a vessel of healing, sending out magnetic vibrations consisting of blessings, consecrating everyone and everything my eyes gaze upon. If this could be so, there would be absolutely no remembered hurts, pain stored in the body-mind, or resentments that my egoic-ahamkar tries convincing me happened in the past. And so I choose again. Looking out with a loving heart-mind matrix on everything that I was blinded from previous to this Holy Instant of Now, where a miracle healed my perception and gave me clear-seeing clairvoyance.

 

DAY 8
What I habitually see or perceive is something that is not really present right now. It is a mirage in the desert wilderness of the storehouse or matrix from which I was begotten to create in. I chose this misperception about the invention of time as something that is real instead of taking part in the Divine Dreaming-Cosmic-Play of Creation-forces like I was meant to throughout eternity.

 

What I see are mind fragments and emotions attached to memories experienced biologically in the limbic system of the ego created body’s brain, that I chose to project outwards into the space-time continuum matrix, where manifested forms begin to appear through quantum phenomena of consciousness.

 

The apparitions or ghosts I project onto the Reality Light-Continuum called the Unified Field of God Essence, are not real. They are hallucinations of my ego mind, that aspect I experience when I forget Edenic Bliss as a constant Reality, the only Reality. When I fall into hypnotic trances of maya, relativity, subjectivity, I get tangled in a web of lies that I believe are true. Past points of reference cloud my seeing, because I am obsessed by them. Mental restlessness is the result of my preoccupation with the past. The resulting mental fluctuations called ‘vrittis’, or whirlpools of energetic pulsations in the form of feeling are the agents of massive perceptual distortion.

 

Why do I insist on seeing only my individual, false-self’s thoughts? Why do I want to see what I think happened in a distant past, but really did not in truth and actuality. No wonder I cannot interpret what I think I see as it really is, untainted. I take this moment to remind myself that I attach myself to what I call the haunting memories of the past to block the Ananda-Bliss and Shanti-Peace of the Now from rising up as a new dawn in my mind. I need to accept that my false-self has been trying to use the construct of time as a weapon against the Divine Source of All-That-Is. Beginning now, I surrender what I have called the past for all these years, and let it be healed, then dissolved into dust then nothingness. I now realize, that in doing this, I am not losing anything, rather I am liberated from the karmic burden I have been carrying for far too long.

 

DAY 9
I have created many obstacles and blocks to clear seeing in this moment through the wrong use of brain faculties and the self-constructed personality that fails to see the True Reality in its naked beauty, wonder, fullness of Radiant Perfection, the Allness made Manifest. The lens and window to Inner Seeing is obstructed by haunting thought imprints that I haven’t surrendered, released, nor been self-delivered from the subconsciously entrenched phantoms of past neurotic-skeletons-in-the-closet guilt. Guilt, bias, and pre-conceived judgment-notions along with patterns of reactivity stemming from ingrained neural grooves, cloud my ability to be present Here and Now.

 

If I fail to see True Reality in its naked beauty, wonder, fullness of Radiant Perfection, the Allness made Manifest in the formlessness of Light, Endless Love, Ananda-Bliss, Shanti-Peace, and Pure Potentiality, I must admit that I do not see anything at all. My only function is to see what is right Now. I accept that there is not a choice to interpret what I thought occurred in moments past or in that of the present, but rather, the only choice there is, is whether to see Truth or to see what is false, or avidya-illusions. That of which I have chosen to interpret in my brain-mind faculties has “sacrificed” Christed Vision. And so right now, in this Holy Instant, in conscious Yoga-Union and Communion with God Mind, I choose differently, so that I can see only the good, the holy, and the beautiful.

 

DAY 10
The pulsations of quantum energy and information, the building blocks of thought, heard in the brain-mind field, that take on many degrees of intensity and whirl at all kinds of speeds, colors, affects, moods, and qualities of dark, light, and admixed energies are devoid of meaning due to the fact that they are neutral. My mind is a blank slate that experiences fluctuations of chitta-mind stuff or vritti-feeling, but it still is a fact that I have a mind aligned with stillness, with the zero point of total neutrality in the Holy Instant of now. I am awareness not identified with thought nor with what arises in the mind, pretending to be significant, dramatic, spectacular, and intensely distracting and disturbing. Thoughts do not control me, nor the substance behind them. Within the perfect stillness I am immune to misery making and liberated from suffering. Affirming this reality and mind science I form the basis for Radical Right Awareness, attention to the Primordial State of Oneness, and open to the flow of Bliss-Peace nectar of Heaven within perfect silence.

 

I am only aware of privatized, individual thoughts though I have no privatized, isolated thoughts. My only Real Thoughts are ones I have in alignment with my Source. Perfect Peace and Oneness allows me to think only with the Blissful Thoughts of Divine Mind and the identity I share with all brothers and sisters in the Christ Mind. My individual thought forms and their vibrational frequencies mean nothing because they are not real in comparison to the Causal-Ideational Thoughts I think with my Supernal Parents. Subjective whirlpools of thought current and fluctuations within my individual, private, split mind are not real because they do not come from the Primordial Formless Light of Divinity.