Today I will review the following affirmations:
I am not at the mercy of a world I seem to see outside of me that appears to threaten me with danger, trying to inflict pain, suffering, and psychological and biological torture upon my True Self, Christ and Atman Self, which in reality cannot be harmed. All assaults and threats of harm come from my individual split ego mind. They originate from no outside place. The world I have made is not a perpetrator and punishing force. My individual mind is the cause of my subjectively experienced mental agony that I seem to experience in a physical body.
I am not at the mercy of an outside world that can be remade and undone. Today, I will choose freedom over the shackles I have placed upon my self. I will repeat the idea for today throughout the day as well to take steps toward full releasement from bondage and self-inflicted hell and psychological-emotional fluctuations that seem to abuse me. I take back my projected dream film of attempted violence against my Christed Nature. I am not held hostage in this world. The stairway up and out of Eden’s Basement, the hell I made has a light shining upon it showing me the way out of my self-constructed dungeon. I come out of darkness and hiding, and break my chains of sickness, pain, aging, entropy, decay, and all forms of affliction, now, here in this moment. The light of truth is here to liberate me from my mistaken perceptions about where I think I am and why I think I am here.
The world I have come to know and recognize as being out there is my own projection. God Mind had nothing to do with it’s manifestation. I am beginning to grasp the Law of Karma, of cause and effect, that what I reap, I will sow. I can’t be at the mercy of the world that appears to be outside of me, because it is a manifestation of my own subconscious, subterranean thought vibrations that are dense and tamasic (darkening). I must want to escape in the world I perceive, to hide from the Father-Mother, to experience the delusion of duality, of opposites, or extremes, because I keep seeming to have experiences there instead of in Paradise Oneness where I still reside, though I am unaware of the True Presence of being there. The world is the effect of my ego-rebellion against the Father-Mother Awareness. It is an individual, self-created hell that seems to be filled with pain, suffering, dissatisfaction, destruction, sickness, and disappointment. These things, these struggles of what I call everyday life can be transcended through Divine Realization of my Christed Nature. To see that I am the Atman Self at One with the Infinite Manifestation of Spirit or Brahman, the Father-Mother Beingness.
I am responsible for what I see, hear, and experience out in this wilderness desert where mirages of the split mind come to play out dramas, comedies, tragedies, transient romances, and horror films in my head. All I have to do is to take ownership of the thoughts I project from my mind. If I made the wilderness desert, then I can leave it and dissolve it, because that is the only thing to do in a desert. To remake it into a garden of peace and healing. I Realize that I had a psychotic break from reality, where through an identity crisis, I convinced myself that I was no longer a Christed Son/Daughter of the Divine Lover whose embrace I long to feel again. How wrong I was. How enraged and deluded I let my mind become. As the one Christ Self, with all of the Divine’s creations, I am in a boundless state forever. The Child of the Father-Mother is changeless and perfect and is not the phantasm I have made him/her to be. That Child, who we all are is safe at Home in the Garden State of Being and is not where I decided to hold him/her hostage. This Collective Child is liberated and unshackled.
I will now perceive the projected world dream, the maya motion picture of dancing illusions, in a radically different manner. I will gaze upon it with Love and with the Vision of the True Self-Christ and Atman Self and see only God behind the image of all things. Oh, Immortal God, oh Dao, oh Brahman Supreme, Father-Mother Allness help me see with spiritual sight.
When I look upon the outside dream, collective and personal, the dream of hell, as the Toltecs call it, I have the tendency to shut God out of the movie. I don’t see him with the body’s eyes. So, this day, I vow to look with Christ Vision and to see from a perspective coming from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God, the Holy Spirit, Fiery Desire Energy in my mind, adding new frames to the filmstrip being projected outward onto the screen of Infinite Light. There is another way to watch the movie as it unfolds and is projected onto the screen of time and space. I have been watching it half asleep and have viewed it through a drug-induced haze where my thoughts about it were not real. I have seen this movie as a slaughterhouse for the Collective and Christed Child of God. And so I Realize and Know now, that this outside dream movie is a setting where this Child escapes the hell it believed in. I detach myself from the dream movie, step back, pause, and see it not as a confining place of inevitable death, but somewhere the Christed Self of God discovers what has always been true, that he/she is liberated and is not bound in any way against his/her will.
It is my choice whether I see shanti (peace) in a state of calmness or through chaos, distress, restlessness, or any form of perceived mental or physical agony, and so I choose shanti-peace instead.
When I see through the eyes of love, and am in shanti-peace, seeing the projected dream world not as a place where I am doomed to suffer, get sick, and die, but as an environment in space and time in which to be liberated, I Realize that, like a mirror, it reflects Divine Right Order instead of chaos and catastrophe. I Know in my heart and mind that shanti-peace, not a gore-infested battlefield, dwells in the dream movie. Through Radical Right Perception, Christ Vision, I will see that shanti-peace dwells in the heart-mind matrixes of all those who share this collective dream world with me.
My mind is a part in the one holographic whole Mind of the Father-Mother, Brahman, the Dao, The Supreme Immortal, Undying, Unified Field of Divine Allness. My mind is whole and in Oneness with this Divine Mind.
Shanti-peace must be born within my inner-most being. Understanding and Realizing this, I am now able to extend the shanti-peace I fee to my brothers and sisters in spirit, while I further awaken in this dream movie. The dream movie I am watching and am seeming to participate in has now been illuminated by the radiant nature of my forgiveness, and is shining my mercy back at me. Through an illumined perspective, I am starting to see how my delusional perceptions about who I thought I was, kept me confined hidden in the dark cornerstone of my egoic-ahamkar false-self temple, that was destroyed to be rebuilt. This temple is my altar to the Divine Mind, where I meet and accept the invitation to Union and Communion with my Source. I now can affirm and place credence in the reality of a shared wholeness among all living beings, forgetting not to include myself. We are all one, undivided, and are part of the holographic Mind of the First Cause of all that exists in truth and reality.
Deep beneath the surface of the conscious mind, lies buried, a burning love for the Divine’s embrace and the memory of His (& Hers) Love for us. I won’t get into the various theories about levels of the mind, but we need to penetrate that deep layer in our subconscious, which is at the collective level, beneath even, the archetypes (ruling idea energies identified by Swiss Psychiatrist Carl Jung) that we share in common. That level is the level of miracle-mindedness as is emphasized in the Complete and Annotated Edition of A Course in Miracles, early on.
Why would the deepest layer of the mind contain the real ‘gold’ of wholeness, oneness, and the memory of communion and union with the Divine? Because, we dissociated, or blocked out the memory of perfect oneness and union with Perfect, Infinite Love. Long ago, when we made the decision that if we could not receive special favor from the Father/Mother Source and be elevated above our fellow Sons and Daughters of our Supernal Parents, that we would reject the purity and holiness of non-discriminating love, we ‘rejected’ our Creator and tried to project outward into nothingness, a world where we thought we could try to be our own father. This is when the ego was created. Then through more projection and the illusion of fracturing what we had known as ‘reality’, a big bang of consciousness occurred. And thence started into motion, the making of worlds, not just our own. We thought we had accomplished a great feat by causing a rift in our minds, a split where we could ‘make’ (not create, for true creation only takes place in Heaven) a new reality. But we immediately felt guilt over trying to separate from the Divine out of a fear of being punished for this supposed crime of trying to become our own god. This guilt is what fueled the dissociation, where we tried to forget our true nature and the blissful reality of being in communion with the Divine.
That is just a brief description of what the act of separation (which never really happened) looked like and how we came to bury our memory of both our burning love for God and His for us. Out of His Love for us, at the moment when the ‘big bang’ occurred and the making of an alternate reality was set in motion, He had a plan, which A Course In Miracles calls the Atonement, or the correction process. It was then that He planted the memory of Him, His Love, and our oneness with Him in our minds. That memory, that Voice, that Advocate, that Comforter was the Holy Spirit, the answer to the dissociation and forgetting due to the massive block created by guilt in our split minds.
God never left us, and we in truth never left God. We just blocked out His memory in our minds. And this led to massive suffering and denial on our part. But still we yearned for a father figure to be in union with and to serve. We chose the ‘ego’ as our father, but the ego could never fill the space in our minds and hearts reserved only for the Divine Father. And so we search, we yearn, we strive, we go on the defensive, and we attack ourselves and others, trying to find what we think we lost. Our true Treasure. We compete out of hate for others, for what we in our split minds, think only we are entitled to. That special favor from God, the thought that started the whole process of separation in motion.
Now we need miracles to correct the thought process that induced our massive denial of that intense and burning love we really long for (and fear) and that is the true motive behind all our actions, many times, however, masked by attack, blame, and hate. Why would we do this to ourselves? It’s a mystery. But it only took one ‘tiny tick of time’. And so we seem to be in exile, trying to journey back to the place we never left, our Home in Heaven. That journey can be sped up by accepting the Atonement, the correction for our misperceptions and errors, by practicing forgiveness, releasing guilt, and choosing love over fear.
Sometimes all we need to do, is to still our minds, pause, and take a step back to receive the guidance we need to change how we see things. If we took the time to go to peace, and to truly listen for God’s Voice (The Holy Spirit in our minds), we would begin to break through the barriers that stand in the way to the remembrance of that Primal Love which we buried in our subconscious, the very love that we are afraid of. It is time to knock down the walls and remove the masks to this precious gift.
We all strive. We all search. We all yearn. We hunger for meaning in our lives. This search can take many forms and can be expressed in many different ways, all seemingly unique to each person and their body-mind complex. What is it that we want? What is it that we think we need? After many decades of searching myself for those things I just listed, I believe it is purpose.
We want to know who we truly are and what our purpose is here in the world. Our purpose is to love, to forgive, and to offer miracles of healing and transformation. As A Course In Miracles teaches, we chose to come here to reject God and try to become our own creator. We had a major authority problem, and didn’t like that there was a will for us in our creation in the realm of Heaven, for that is where all true “creation” takes place. Everything here in this world or in other worlds is just a substitute, and takes place through the act of “making”, which can’t be equated with True Creation as it occurs in Heaven, whether through the Divine which ‘The Course’ calls “Father” or by His Sonship (consisting of the entirety of extended beings of formless light who share one common identity, known as Christ).
Christ means something very different in A Course In Miracles than it does in traditional Christianity. Though it has been translated to mean the “Anointed One”, it is in ‘The Course’s’ view, a collective identity which we all share. We all, in it’s teachings are that one Son (sorry to use masculine terminology, but that is what A Course in Miracles does – and it certainly doesn’t make it absolute, but it uses “Son” to connote something beyond gender and individuality. And the “Christ” was never meant to be a title that was reserved only for the man Jeshua (Jesus), either, it says, though he too was that same “Christ”.
If our True Identity is “Christ”, the one Self that we all share, what does that mean for our purpose? ‘The Course’ doesn’t use the specific word purpose, rather it says we all have a ‘special function’ or calling we were designed to carry out in God’s plan for liberation (salvation) from guilt and suffering in ourselves and also in helping to free others. Finding out what that function is takes discernment, but it usually involves what we are good at, what we are passionate about, and what can serve the highest good for our “brothers” (and sisters). Searching for our special function, discerning what it is, is a process and can be aided through prayer, spiritual practice, meditation, and through holy relationships and joining with others in a common goal.
Discernment is something we do not want to rush. We need to seek guidance. That means gathering information, asking the Divine to illumine our minds, and having an active prayer life. It helps to work with someone who has been on the spiritual path longer than we have who can be a holy listener and a sounding board for what we are attempting to process and filter through our human brains. But there are ways that we can actively seek guidance on our own and to receive answers. It is all about how we frame the questions. That will be an ongoing topic covered on these posts.
Today, I just wanted to introduce the ideas of what our identity is and what it means to discern our special function. But guidance can come in many forms and it is usually happens differently for everyone. Some receive inner guidance through an inner voice, while others may receive it in the form of imagery, or an inner ‘knowing’ or ‘feeling state’. Again though, we will talk more about how to ask and receive guidance in the future.
For now, just know who you really are. Jeshua (Jesus) was not the only begotten Son of God and we, like him are the Sons and Daughters of the Divine, an identity which we all share. Take comfort in knowing that (or at least considering the possibility). Peace and joy to you.