The End of Doubt

It has been a long time since I put a post on here. Maybe it is because I felt that I did not or could not give a voice to what I have been experiencing in my interior and exterior life. Without getting too personal, I have spent time facing my darkest fears. And I have shined light on many dark and hidden places. But the good news, is that I have emerged a more peaceful, aware, and accepting person. Isn’t that what we are all called to, after all?

We all, if we were honest, get attached to self-definitions, to self-concepts and ideas we have constructed in our dualistic minds, about who we think we are. In a world, where like never before in this universe’s history, where we are all concerned about the possibility of “identity theft”, many of us, if we would really admit it, are confused at the deepest level of our unconscious minds, unsure of who we are and what we are supposed to be doing – knowing our calling, rather.

We all look for answers in times of uncertainty and doubt. I think back to more than twenty years ago and remember believing “I had it all figured out”, knowing exactly where I was headed. Well, with total certainty, I can say that that 22-year-old had no clue about living in this world and what it meant to be “living his purpose”.

In twenty years of evolving, soul-searching, changing, struggling, and going back a ways, facing despair and a spiritual emergency at one point, the whole journey has been about “finding” myself. Who am I?

A child of the Divine. Safe at home. In the embrace of the Almighty Lover, the only Source (and that can be seen as taking on so many different images – though we can never create an image of the very thing that is beyond comprehension). All the fear, the insecurity, the escape from responsibility, and pushing people who mattered out of my inner circle, so to speak – it was all done in an effort to be, what I already was (and had)! I feel like I have arrived. Been through what I call the “rebirthing matrix”.

No title, nor degree, or certification, or credentials could name me. I, like you am a beloved of the Divine. Today, I can say with confidence and assurance, that I accept that. And it feels so serene and calm. I survived life’s storms (though there are sure to be more). I have found my rock, on which I have built the temple of my soul, so I can share more fully, love more compassionately, and dream a collective, new, more beautiful world into being – just by doing my part. By being self-aware. Forget all the mystical experiences and abilities I have acquired. Those were only important in getting me to this moment. The NOW!

Now I have a responsibility. To continue to walk the path, not just through what many people mistakenly call, “faith” (when they really mean belief), but rather as a great biblical scholar and guardian of the Pre-Christian Teachings of Yeshua (Jesus) has pointed out in his written and oral ministry, I need to be “faithful” and to “persevere”. I would add, I need to be true to the calling I have heard in my heart. To become a mystic activist, getting involved in helping to bring liberation and peace to this world. Some believe there is only one ‘messiah’. Some are still waiting for that person to come. I am boldly going to echo what many of my mentors have told me – you, me, and all of us, are the chosen of God, called to LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY and to forgive always, seeing the dignity and worth of every incarnate soul. So, I am challenging you – to put an end to your doubts about who you think or thought you are or were…. WE ALL NEED TO STAND UP TO RECEIVE THE DISPENSATION, to be ANOINTED, as Light-Bearers, whether you want to call it the Christ, the Krishna, the Buddha, the True Self, the Atman. . . there is no right word to describe what we all must have the courage to become. Know, you are called, as am I, to help liberate and though I hate using this word – to ‘save’, NO, to “LOVE” (not convert to any belief system either) this world and all of creation, by awakening to the truth that we can live here and make a difference. So, let us put self-interest aside, and restore HOPE where there is none. PEACE where there is chaos. JOY to those who are disheartened.

In Love, out of Love. Thank you for your time.

 

How Will You Use the Power of Your Mind – To Extend Love, or to Project Anger?

Our minds are inherently powerful. That is because our minds are One with Divinity’s One Mind. We either extend or project what is within outwards. It is so easy to ‘hurl’ out onto other people or into the world we think we are seeing what we don’t like about ourselves, what we feel guilty about (especially this), or what angers us. Our egos, the puppet masters behind the primal guilt we all carry around within us, think they can free the split mind from torment and the perceived threat of punishment from the Divine Source, we think we ‘threw away’ in the act of separating from that Source, by projecting out the ugliness we are ashamed of.

 

Our True Nature is to extend Love. Projection is the opposite of that. Through the human condition, we crucify ourselves, fear attack from the Divine for what we thought we did to offend that Source, and thereby seek to be free of guilt and that fear, by projecting onto others what we feel guilty about. Primal guilt has everything to do with projection. We want to be free of what causes us to suffer, so in an attempt to get rid of the cause of our suffering, we make others pay and the world too. We project because we think we lack something and need to take it back from others. What we really feel we lack is the Love of the Divine. So, we compensate.

 

When we compensate, we do so neurotically, and it always leads to seeing what we want to disown ‘out there’, as I said, whether in others or in the world as a whole. It is important to keep in mind that the ego mind has a malevolent nature to it. It is out for its own good and has an authority problem. It thinks you are the ego and it thinks it created you, instead of you being created by the Divine. That is part of the root of the underlying problem which causes the ego mind (individual false-self) to mis-create.

 

The mind always expresses outwardly what is within. So, it will either project or extend. Extension is an act of creating from or seeing through the eyes of Love. If we feel Love at the core of who we are, we are going to Love others and see the inherent, eternal good in them. We see their innocence when we perceive ourselves to be innocent as opposed to feeling guilty deep down in our psyche. If projection is throwing away something we don’t want, extension is sharing something we do want and what we really are, Love.

 

Projection always leads to anger and is a form of attack. Extension comes from contentment, trust, and inner peace. Extension comes from knowing who we are. The offspring of the Divine. If extension is the sharing of our True Nature, then projection is the attempt to be free once and for all from our false nature and thereby all threats of punishment we think we deserve for having ‘attempted’ to usurp the power of the Divine and be special, or our own creator. This desire to be our own maker, once again is called the authority problem in A Course in Miracles. 

 

What ultimately will create the good, the holy, and the beautiful? The act of extension. Or anything that comes from Love and abundance (which we naturally want to share with others). Anything that comes from fear will ultimately lead to projection because we are acting out of lack or a feeling of scarcity. When we feel empty, we attack and try to get what we think we lost or need in order to be happy.  When we feel whole, we see only wholeness in others, because ultimately we are all one. Knowing this brings union and communion with others, a much more preferred state to be in. True Love doesn’t cause us to suffer, but fear will always lead to physical and emotional suffering of some kind that becomes too much to bear, so we will always try to get rid of it by projecting. We need to take responsibility for our ego, the part of our split mind that likes to project error, and give our miscreations over to our Higher Self to be undone. As A Course in Miracles says, “our ego can be forgotten at any time.”

 

As the author of A Course in Miracles says in Chapter 6 Section 1, The Message of the Crucifixion, “teach only love, for that is what you are.” Knowing that is the key to doing that. If you can Love, even when you are being persecuted, extension naturally follows and all temptations to attack out of anger are dissolved and released. This is True Power. Know it. Be it. Share it. This is the key to happiness and lasting joy.