CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 65

DAY 65

The Divine Father-Mother created me through the extension of Love. When I rebelled against God and decided to make this world along with the collective ego-ahamkar, I was given a correction for the separation I participated in. I was given one purpose in this mayaic dream world, to forgive others by being the Love, the Light, the Christ, and Liberation of it.

 

I commit to Liberation by embracing today’s affirmation. Contemplating it reinforces to me that I have no other purpose but to Love and Liberate through forgiveness. Today I make a total covenant with the Father-Mother to embrace my purpose. I want the moksha Liberation of others from pain and guilt to be my only purpose, so I therefore release my attachment to other purposes I have admired.

 

There are two aspects to my full embracing of moksha Liberation being the impetus behind my true purpose to forgive. The first is to recognize moksha Liberation as my ultimate focus, and the second is to let go of all other pursuits I have contrived in this motion picturedream life. This is how I take on the mantle as one among many messiahs of this world among other worlds made by individual egoic-ahamkar minds. Accepting that role is the one and only way to proclaim and mean that “I was given one purpose in this mayaic dream world, to forgive others by being the Love, the Light, the Christ, and Liberation of it.” By doing this I will find santosha-contentment and shanti peace for and in my mind. The thought waves and fluctuations in my brain will then be magnetically charged with positivity by the Higher Mind in me.

 

Today and in several days to follow, I will reserve ten to fifteen minutes during the course of the day for extended meditation on the true meaning of today’s idea. I want to be free by releasing burdens, projected blame, and any feelings related to shame stemming from attack thoughts I may hold in my mind. Being the Liberation of the world, becoming a joint messiah gives me the fulfillment I have been hoping to find since the beginning of the illusion of time.

 

I will engage with the affirms at the same time each day, that is for the extended practice time. Determining it now, before hand will help to cement in and make me commit to remaining faithful to the time spent in meditation. I need to do this to have a fixed time set aside for communing in yoga-union with God and also having time for the mundane and changing tasks of each day. Jeshua says that this is part of disciplining the mind for the scope of long term growth all so that the Holy Spirit Mother can use this carved out time for communion and ananda-bliss.

 

To practice in a given sitting, I will contemplate today’s affirmation. Then I will close my eyes, repeat what I have said either mentally or out loud, and observe the mind with discrimination to see what thoughts may enter its field of awareness. When I am in the early phase of practice, it is okay to let unrelated thoughts come into my mind. The goal is to dig up all that surfaces to interfere with my contemplation. I will take notice of each thought that fluxuates in my brain-mind field giving it them little significance. I will remain detached and will refute each one by saying:

 

This thought I do not want. It represents a hindrance to attaining my only purpose.

 

What I will discover is that intrusive thoughts will diminish. But, I will attempt to forego the effects of any possible thoughts coming into the brain-mind field for a minute or so longer so as to catch any trivial ones that my have found their way in past my filtering faculty. I will not apply this additional effort with force. Instead I will affirm:

 

On this tabula rasa, this blank slate, is written my true purpose and calling.

 

To finish the practice, I will recite today’s affirmation idea once again and spend the rest of the practice time meditating on its value and significance. I will also be grateful for the healing aid acceptance of it brings for its ability to put an end to discord within, and satisfying the full measure to which I want Liberation regardless of the ignorant attempts I may engage in to block all its positive effects from being magnetically attracted to me through vibrational form.

I will also utilize shorter practice periods, every possible hour I can on the hour and say:

 

The Divine Father-Mother created me through the extension of love. When I rebelled against God and decided to make this world along with the collective ego-ahamkar, I was given a correction for the separation I participated in. I was given one purpose in this mayaic dream world, to forgive others by being the Love, the Light, the Christ, and Liberation of it.I want no other calling and this is all I am meant to do.

 

At times during my practice I will close my eyes, while at others I will scan the apparent outside environment around me. What I envision now will take on a whole different meaning when I do this.

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CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 55 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 21-25)

DAY 55
Today I will review the following affirmations, spending two minutes reflecting on each one.

 

DAY 21
With alignment to Infinite Willpower given to me by God Mind, I am determined to see objectively, from my Inner Witnessing Presence Awareness in a different, more clear perspective, seeing through the One Reality of Love in Radical Right Perception and Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind Vision. I want to be liberated in this life through moksha. To break free from the cycle of birth and death. To let go of my grievances, my anger, to see not through my klesha-afflictions, but through the One Love that unites us all.

 

All that I seem to see are images of disease, disaster, and death, Jeshua (Jesus) says. God Presence did not intend this for His/Her Sons and Daughters. The fact that I see these things proves that I misunderstand the Divine Source and therefore don’t correctly realize who His Son is. That of which I see indicates to me, I do not realize who I really am. I have the volition through Infinite Willpower to see only the truth of my being, not avidya-illusions.

 

DAY 22
The images and thoughts of which I interpret to mean something with a negatively charged vibration are really an assault on the little self I call ‘me’. When I identify with an individual, separate, different from others self, I perceive and interpret the world to be an attack on my egoic false-self. I am not an individual self. I am part of One Whole Unified Field of Love and Light. When I believe I am an individual self instead of the Son/Daughter of God, the True Self Christ and Atman, I am assaulting myself with unconscious fragments and slivers of false thought. When I deny assault in my individual mind, I use the egoic film projector to create and interpret that very assault as coming from an outside world, disowning it. My response is to enshroud myself in a bubble of protection from that world and attack and assault it, my brothers and sisters in spirit, and all of which I seem to perceive. I get caught in the vicious cycle of the egoic-ahamkar manifestation of drama comprised of conflict, where I seem to see assault and attack and then feel the intense need to counter attack. This will continue to happen until I liberate my mind through Jnana Yogic discrimination. Using the buddhi-intellect, I deny the manas-sense-mind from taking control of what I interpret to be a hostile reality, that in truth is an illusion. I must and can escape from my ingrained perceptual hoax, the carnal, savage movie I out-picture as a world filmstrip, with attached sound, tainted light beams, moving images, a script, sets, props, tragedies and comedies at the expense of truth, and actors and actresses, who I think are making independent choices, when in reality I am making them up from the one ahamkar-ego that is appearing as a multiplicity of egos.

 

The world I perceive is not a representation of vibratory loving thoughts. As Jeshua Jesus says, “It is a picture of attack on everything by everything. It is anything but a reflection of the Love of God and the Love of His Son.” I must affirm that it is my own thoughts of threat that paint this picture of life as I know it in this world. I must know that my loving and peaceful thought waves that will liberate me from such a perception of the world, and give me the bliss-peace-shimmering-light Divine Presence wants me to have.
Today I will change my thoughts to change the world I see.

 

DAY 23
I can dream a new dream, see a new world order by surrendering my assaulting thoughts that my individual egoic-ahamkar mind projects outward into the sea of nothingness-void, by letting the Radical Right Minded Projector shine Light and Love rather than the despair of fear. Free breeds anger. Anger produces assault and attack thoughts. The only release from fear comes by transforming my chitta-mind stuff, the vritti-fluctuations of the mind. By making my mind still and empty. By changing what I project. By extending only Loving thoughts. By welcoming in the neutral mind and caring for the aura and radiant bodies that are at my core, from the existence of the nine other bodies outside the physical. I must go beyond the physical sheath, the anna maya kosha out to the intellectual sheath or the buddhi mind, the mano maya kosha, and out even further to the Bliss sheath, the ananda maya kosha. Bliss will eradicate the fear that produces assault and attack thoughts. Perceiving with the physical ego-body’s eyes will always breed assault and defensiveness stemming from fear of danger.

 

Though I can be a change agent in the world, there is no real point in trying to manipulate outer appearances of form. At the level of causation and ideational thought, I must create in alignment with God Mind, a different experience while in the illusory world. Changing at the level of cause will change the effect on the movie screen of the matrix ego-womb mind. The world I seem to perceive is an assault on myself. But the illusory external unreality cannot really harm me in all honesty. The movie dream my split mind projects is not True Seeing. This is not sight, but hallucination. Image making is not the same as resting in Pure Being or Samadhi Oneness with Divine God Mind. My false-self superimposes images of assault and they seem to assault me back. Radical Right Perception must be welcomed by my Higher Mind, the Christ Mind-Atman Self. Mirages do not last and cannot have Infinite effects. Communion and Yoga-Union with God will be the Everlasting Will that extends rather than projects.

 

Aligning with Radical Right Perception and even going beyond perception at all levels to Gnosis-Knowledge or Divine Realization and Divine Contact will bring about true liberation from karma or the law of cause and effect that seems to bind me to all the physical bodies I have inhabited in life time after life time. I am tired of dying and coming back to the world I hallucinate in conjunction with the one fractured collective ego. Some people call the liberation I seek, salvation, but liberation has a different connotation.

 

Under the spell of maya-hypnosis, I do not see that I am the filmmaker, seeming to direct this motion-picture film drama of apparent happenings. My Christ Mind can change what is playing in the theater of shadows and replace the disturbing, violent, horror film, the product of fear and hate and must replace it with a different film which was made by Divinity Allness, Supreme Spirit, Brahman-Father-Mother, the moment the separation seemed to occur (although it did not), when the Memory of my Divine Origin was placed in my mind, Kundalini Desire Energy or the Rising Potential of Holy Spirit.

 

By surrendering assaulting thoughts, I am liberated. Without thoughts having the intent to harm, I would not perceive a world filled with assault and threats of danger. Today, I allow forgiveness to bring love back into my mind field, so as to only see a world of peace and safety and joy. I choose these things instead of what I now perceive.

 

DAY 24
My individual, egoic-ahamkar misuses the faculties of perception to receive messages that do not reflect what is of optimum wellness and truly right and good for me. Self and Christ-Realization is the only goal I should have. Due to strongly identifying with an individual, isolated self appearing to be in this world exile experience in the unpredictable wilderness, I seem to be under a spell of delusion that prevents me from perceiving outcomes to expectations that will bring me Supreme Santosha-Contentment. Alone and apart from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of Divinity Origin, the Holy Desire-Energy-Spirit in my mind, I have no real guide to making the best choices that would bring about Supreme Santosha-Contentment and my overall good. What I have perceived with my individual egoic-ahamkar have been misconstrued and untrue and therefore what I have chosen to do in almost all circumstances has depended upon my interpretations and perceptions. So, I must embrace acceptance that I apart from God Mind do not recognize what is Radically Right for me to do. To do what is Radically Right and good should be my only expectation at all times, because I am prone to hypnotic confusion about what is the best outcome for my True Self, Christ and Atman Self. Recognizing that on my own, I will be unclear about what is of optimum wellness for me, opens me to being taught by the Inner Guru, Inner Wisdom, Universal Inspiration, and the Intuitive Guide Within. Asleep at the wheel of this earth-bound experience will only block learning. Today, I take a step towards expanding my mind about what is Radically Right for me to do while in this body vehicle, seeming to interact with outer objects, people, and experiences.

 

How can I recognize what is of true, optimum wellness for me when I do not know who I am? What I think is truly right and good for me really keep me in bondage to delusions. I affirm and commit to listening to the guide Divine Presence gave to me in my mind the second separation seemed to occur. I realize I cannot perceive optimum wellness and what is truly right and good for me on my own.

 

Today, I must be brutally honest with myself so as not to fall victim to contradictory outcomes, by accepting that my individual, isolated self knows nothing on its own. This is an important step in the process of unraveling the mind from the web of maya I am stuck in. I want to awaken in this lifetime.

 

 

DAY 25
I am not aware in this moment in time and space, what anything I seem to see with the body’s eyes are for. Purpose and meaning are the same. But my individual mind has confused and tried to replace the purpose of Christ Mind and the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God with a delusory thought system. I have many mistaken ideas when I choose to associate with the ego thought system. Since I do not know what any given thing I perceive is for, it by default has no meaning for me. It is time to let go of the meaning the egoic-ahamkar thought system has assigned to everything I seem to encounter in this world dream. Everything in this world is supposed to be for my own best interests, according to the ego. But this is not the case. By design these things are supposed to fulfill me. That is what all things are supposed to be for under the thought system of the egoic-ahamkar. That is the purpose they are supposed to serve. The individual mind tells me that. Under this premise, my goals are in turn supposed to be unified. But this simply doesn’t happen when under the spell of illusion, subjectivity, and relativity. Everything becomes a blur and a distortion made to keep me asleep.
When I perceive with the individual, separative, subjective mind, I am unaware of what things are for and this mind gives meaning with its interpretation system. The aspirations and goals that originate in the individual mind that is separate from God Mind, are not in my own best interests, because I am in Reality not the individual egoic-ahamkar mind. My false association with the ego’s dream causes me to be incapable of knowing what anything means and what anything is for. Once I accept and acknowledge this, I will stop reinforcing my individual mind’s aspirations for the world dream I seem to experience and pull back from the projected images of these unconscious wishes. When I turn off the ego film projector by aligning with God and Christ Mind there will be a blank screen filled with golden-white light that the darkness of the images and wishes were hiding. Since I am only part of One Unified Mind, the wishes and desires of the individual mind really are concerned with nothing at all. By holding these wishes and desires as special, my individual mind has no goals, in the scope of what is True and Real, and therefore, I can’t know what anything is for.

 

When thinking in terms of superficiality, my egoic-ahamkar mind understands purpose, but True Purpose cannot be comprehended with superficial vibrations. The magnetism of thought at this level is weak and foggy at best. Today, I realize that the purpose of everything and everyone I think of and see is to convince me that my avidya-illusions about myself are in effect real and true. I have a false belief that the world is for telling me these things that are not really true. The purpose I have given the film dream movie of a world led to a terror-inducing picture of it. Today, I commit to opening and expanding my mind to the world’s real purpose which is to teach me to wake up and be only Love for All in All.

 

In order to awaken, to grow in understanding, and to evolve, I must surrender and let go of the individual goals that come from the ego mind. Individual goals mean nothing. As mentioned in the previous day’s contemplation, Self and Christ-Realization, Divine Realization of who I really am is the only goal and will I really should and do have. Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 52 (REVIEW # 1: 6-10)

DAY 52

REVIEW OF DAYS 6-10
Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation. If any one of the five affirmations appeals to you more than another, you may spend more time centering on that one.

The following ideas will be reviewed today:

 

DAY 6
What upsets and seems to threaten the state of Perfect Primordial Calmness, is not really present. It is not there, here, or anywhere. What I see then is a distorted subconscious, subjective mind fragment that is intruding upon Radical Right Perception of True Reality consisting of Eternal Spirit, Energy, and Cosmic Causal Thought. What I see is just a mirage in the desert my private mind made, a massive hallucination and egoic mind projection out onto the movie screen, the world of multiplicity, called prakriti. The emotionally charged distortions are part of a reactive process, a programmed response to what my ego thinks is going to cause pain, suffering, and annihilation of it.

 

What is truly Real cannot cause me to have nightmares. Nor can it have any power over me to cause me to be in turmoil or suffering of any kind. The Truly Real brings only Shanti-Peace. In the moments of absent-mindedness, when I am in some kind of self-made turmoil or suffering, it is because I have substituted Reality with avidya-illusions that I concocted. Those avidya-illusions have caused me suffering and anxiety because I have tried to make them real, and thus regard True Reality as illusory and without the essence of Ananda-Bliss which belongs to it. Not a single thing in the fullness of Father-Mother’s creation is affected by this delusion I have made. I need to accept and be in Divine-Realization that I come to be upset by something that doesn’t exist.

 

DAY 7
Out of all the possible things to perceive, I see only a privatized, fragmented past. I have flashbacks that scramble and confuse my orientation to True Reality.

 

Mental visions and interpretations of the past in the form of memories, flash backs, emotional and visceral highly charged associations/experiences cloud Radical Right Perception and Divine Realization from revealing True Reality of Communion with God Mind through Christ Mind to me. In seeing only the past projected out onto the screen of my life, I experience the split-mind. It is because of these factors that the immediacy of the present moment in the form of God Revealed Holy Instants outside of space-time, dissolves the past from having any major importance in my attempts to see True Reality. However the past experienced mind-fragments, dissociations, forgetfulness, time spent out of alignment with God Mind severely impacts the quality of seeing and the ability to see that I have always been in perfect Primordial First Right Relationship or in Christ Mind Yoga-Union with the Divine Dreamer.

 

Nothing that I see means anything because I superimpose past mental structures and thought out onto other people, onto the Unified God Allness, and onto events and happenings.

 

In seeing projections, mind fluctuations, and thoughts of the past almost everywhere I look, I alone have given/ascribed all the meaning that my subjective mind has determined any given encounter should have.

 

I don’t comprehend what I think I am seeing now, because of the interference of past programmed thinking, that I have projected onto all things. What I see and encounter now in most instances isn’t True Witnessed Reality undistorted. My thoughts about the world and my place in it do not mean anything because events in the psychologically constructed time function are neutral and devoid of any meaning. Because of this I am never truly disturbed.

 

All emotional uprisings the inner tidal waves of reactivity that surface within my body-mind-vehicle-chariot housing my unscathed soul, stem from the idea that the phantasms I project impede clear-seeing, creating inner havoc instead of inner peace.

No matter where in this dream world I look, what I think I see, I try to sabotage, judge, or punish with my private thoughts and I have the audacity to claim that this is what true seeing is. I use the past to persecute almost everyone through my thoughts and the use of words or actions that stem from those thoughts, thus making them into my rivals and foes. If I could but forgive first myself and honestly embrace the remembrance of my True Christed Self, I would be a vessel of healing, sending out magnetic vibrations consisting of blessings, consecrating everyone and everything my eyes gaze upon. If this could be so, there would be absolutely no remembered hurts, pain stored in the body-mind, or resentments that my egoic-ahamkar tries convincing me happened in the past. And so I choose again. Looking out with a loving heart-mind matrix on everything that I was blinded from previous to this Holy Instant of Now, where a miracle healed my perception and gave me clear-seeing clairvoyance.

 

DAY 8
What I habitually see or perceive is something that is not really present right now. It is a mirage in the desert wilderness of the storehouse or matrix from which I was begotten to create in. I chose this misperception about the invention of time as something that is real instead of taking part in the Divine Dreaming-Cosmic-Play of Creation-forces like I was meant to throughout eternity.

 

What I see are mind fragments and emotions attached to memories experienced biologically in the limbic system of the ego created body’s brain, that I chose to project outwards into the space-time continuum matrix, where manifested forms begin to appear through quantum phenomena of consciousness.

 

The apparitions or ghosts I project onto the Reality Light-Continuum called the Unified Field of God Essence, are not real. They are hallucinations of my ego mind, that aspect I experience when I forget Edenic Bliss as a constant Reality, the only Reality. When I fall into hypnotic trances of maya, relativity, subjectivity, I get tangled in a web of lies that I believe are true. Past points of reference cloud my seeing, because I am obsessed by them. Mental restlessness is the result of my preoccupation with the past. The resulting mental fluctuations called ‘vrittis’, or whirlpools of energetic pulsations in the form of feeling are the agents of massive perceptual distortion.

 

Why do I insist on seeing only my individual, false-self’s thoughts? Why do I want to see what I think happened in a distant past, but really did not in truth and actuality. No wonder I cannot interpret what I think I see as it really is, untainted. I take this moment to remind myself that I attach myself to what I call the haunting memories of the past to block the Ananda-Bliss and Shanti-Peace of the Now from rising up as a new dawn in my mind. I need to accept that my false-self has been trying to use the construct of time as a weapon against the Divine Source of All-That-Is. Beginning now, I surrender what I have called the past for all these years, and let it be healed, then dissolved into dust then nothingness. I now realize, that in doing this, I am not losing anything, rather I am liberated from the karmic burden I have been carrying for far too long.

 

DAY 9
I have created many obstacles and blocks to clear seeing in this moment through the wrong use of brain faculties and the self-constructed personality that fails to see the True Reality in its naked beauty, wonder, fullness of Radiant Perfection, the Allness made Manifest. The lens and window to Inner Seeing is obstructed by haunting thought imprints that I haven’t surrendered, released, nor been self-delivered from the subconsciously entrenched phantoms of past neurotic-skeletons-in-the-closet guilt. Guilt, bias, and pre-conceived judgment-notions along with patterns of reactivity stemming from ingrained neural grooves, cloud my ability to be present Here and Now.

 

If I fail to see True Reality in its naked beauty, wonder, fullness of Radiant Perfection, the Allness made Manifest in the formlessness of Light, Endless Love, Ananda-Bliss, Shanti-Peace, and Pure Potentiality, I must admit that I do not see anything at all. My only function is to see what is right Now. I accept that there is not a choice to interpret what I thought occurred in moments past or in that of the present, but rather, the only choice there is, is whether to see Truth or to see what is false, or avidya-illusions. That of which I have chosen to interpret in my brain-mind faculties has “sacrificed” Christed Vision. And so right now, in this Holy Instant, in conscious Yoga-Union and Communion with God Mind, I choose differently, so that I can see only the good, the holy, and the beautiful.

 

DAY 10
The pulsations of quantum energy and information, the building blocks of thought, heard in the brain-mind field, that take on many degrees of intensity and whirl at all kinds of speeds, colors, affects, moods, and qualities of dark, light, and admixed energies are devoid of meaning due to the fact that they are neutral. My mind is a blank slate that experiences fluctuations of chitta-mind stuff or vritti-feeling, but it still is a fact that I have a mind aligned with stillness, with the zero point of total neutrality in the Holy Instant of now. I am awareness not identified with thought nor with what arises in the mind, pretending to be significant, dramatic, spectacular, and intensely distracting and disturbing. Thoughts do not control me, nor the substance behind them. Within the perfect stillness I am immune to misery making and liberated from suffering. Affirming this reality and mind science I form the basis for Radical Right Awareness, attention to the Primordial State of Oneness, and open to the flow of Bliss-Peace nectar of Heaven within perfect silence.

 

I am only aware of privatized, individual thoughts though I have no privatized, isolated thoughts. My only Real Thoughts are ones I have in alignment with my Source. Perfect Peace and Oneness allows me to think only with the Blissful Thoughts of Divine Mind and the identity I share with all brothers and sisters in the Christ Mind. My individual thought forms and their vibrational frequencies mean nothing because they are not real in comparison to the Causal-Ideational Thoughts I think with my Supernal Parents. Subjective whirlpools of thought current and fluctuations within my individual, private, split mind are not real because they do not come from the Primordial Formless Light of Divinity.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 51 (REVIEW # 1 : DAYS 1-5)

DAY 51

REVIEW DAY 1-5

 

Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation. If any one of the five affirmations appeals to you more than another, you may spend more time centering on that one.

 

DAY 1

’None of the things that my eyes and visual cortex see means what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), has told me it does. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort the fact that everything is neutral and has no meaning just because it is in an apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections and their impressions from the objects around me. This is my first step in allowing things to be as they are, thought and energy that has materialized.’

 

I don’t truly see anything that comes into my field of viewing, thus there is an absence of vision. Nothing is out there. The absence of all things material can and do not mean anything. I must embrace this in order to obtain True Perception, Christ Vision, so I can see. All of which I believe I see inhibits true sight from occurring. I will release all blocks to seeing by accepting that what I think I see is devoid of meaning. I do this so that I will be able to see truth, only truth, and be present to that of which is instead of seeking meaning in illusions and figments of my projected fantasies coming from the small ego-ahamkar mind that try to convince me of their reality, when in truth they are made up and come from oblivion.

 

DAY 2
‘I have projected all subjective-relative (mayic filtered) perceived meaning onto everything that my eyes and visual cortex see. The physical world in itself doesn’t mean anything, certainly not what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), have told me it does. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort the fact that everything is neutral and has no meaning just because it is in an apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections and their impressions from the objects around me that come from the blind sense mind (manas) and individualized ego (ahamkar). This is my second conscious step in allowing things to be as they are, thought and energy that has materialized due to my quantum interaction with that of which I observe. Finally, I begin the distortion correction process through detachment from all assigned meaning to things in the world I see. ’

 

Why do I judge what I think I see? I judge and interpret and call this seeing when it is not. Nor is it the Christed Vision coming from the Identity which I share with all of the Divine’s Sons and Daughters. If it is not True Vision, it must be a phantasm, an avidya-illusion, a false reality. This is due to the fact that my judgmental assertions and interpretations come from fear, lack, misperception, and blindness that distorts True Sight with regards to what is actually real. Today, I commit to seeing the distortions that come from judging, because in all actuality, I want to see things as they are, as the Divine Father-Mother intended them to be. I have tried to attack myself by judging and labeling and have only caused harm by doing so. In no way, whatsoever, do I want to look out trough the eyes of judgment on what is totally neutral and inherently pure, holy, and innocent.

 

DAY 3
I do not comprehend any of the things that my eyes and visual cortex see nor what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), has told me these things are. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort my understanding and full knowledge of what surrounds me in their apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections, their impressions, and the strong obsessive fixations that drive me to project meaning onto these things, where there is none. This delusive need leads me into a web of confusion about what I think I see and its relevance to my life motion picture that I am creating at a given moment, either through my God-like Universal Intelligence or instinctual demonic egoic-subconscious beast mind polarity.

 

There is no way I can understand what my eyes think they see, when I have projected the shadow and dense cloud of judgment onto everything they perceive. When I do this, I am using my eyes and ego-ahamkar to project miscreations of thought waves, coming from vritti-fluctuations in my brain. There is no way I can understand what is filtered through my eyes to the visual cortex in my brain, due to the fact that it can’t be comprehended, for what I look upon is not real. I will not waste my time trying to comprehend it. Through volition and the conscious use of will power, I release my judgments and unchain my mind from them so I can look upon what has been made manifest, know what it is, and thereby love it. Willingness is the key to unlock the prison of my split mind so only love emanates from me. Seeing without veils cast in front of my eyes, I clear the cob webs in the cellar of my mind and make a better choice. One for Love and Realization of Truth.

 

DAY 4
The thoughts I think with my separative, split, and fearful mind do not mean what the ego (ahamkar) tells me they do. Neither do the objects that surround me that I see with my eyes and visual cortex.

When I attempt to think and miscreate without being in communion with the Father-Mother, my thoughts that become forms are devoid of meaning. The thoughts with which I identify and call “mine” are phantasms and hallucinations. My True and Untainted Thoughts are those that are being extended with and from the Divine, Causal-Ideational Mind. The reason that I am not currently in a state of Realization, knowing that this is true is because my privatized thought waves have attempted to replace the mutually extended Thoughts I share with my Supernal Parents, the Primal Cause of everything Real and True. I use my will power once again, and the spirit of openness to truly see that my privatized thoughts mean nothing at all, and so I release and dissolve them, removing any perceived power I thought they had over me or anyone else. Holy Spirit Mother, I seek discernment and guidance now. I surrender my private thoughts and ask you to undo them, for I no longer want them to replace our mutual Thoughts. My privatized thoughts have no meaning at all, but using Thought for the purpose of creation or the act of extension happens with ease through my communion and awareness of my oneness with Divinity. This is my only goal today and everyday.

 

 

DAY 5
When I am upset, it is because my subconscious, subjective mind fragments misinterpret reality and are intruding upon Radical Right Perception, thus creating rifts and whirlpools of brain activity leading to massive hallucinations and projections out onto the world. The emotionally charged distortions are part of the reactive process gone haywire in the flow of my astral, spinal currents, spiraling down into misery of my own making.

 

I am never upset, nor agitated, anxious, or angry for the perceived reasons I think I should and can be disturbed because I am constantly applying effort to defend and protect my privatized thought waves. Why do I try so hard to give them justification through what my ego-ahamkar calls truth? When I take a step back, I can see that I demonize all things so I can try to validate my rage and thereby defend my use of mental, emotional, or physical violence. I pray for Realization, so that I can see the degree to which I have distorted the purpose of everything I have perceived through my ego-ahamkar by defining what I think those things are for. The only reason I have put so much time and energy into defending my distorted, dark emotions that stem from fear is because I ultimately wanted to keep my private false-self in bondage and chained to hallucinations. I consciously release my reactivity and all the misery I have miscreated from the depths of my subconscious mind-field. Mother Kundalini, Holy Spirit Fire, rise up, so that I may ascend out of the dungeon of psychological, emotional, neurological, and biological disturbance into the Bliss of acceptance, found in Pure Spirit and Light.

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 22

DAY 22

The images and thoughts of which I interpret to mean something with a negatively charged vibration are really an assault on the little self I call ‘me’. When I identify with an individual, separate, different from others self, I perceive and interpret the world to be an attack on my egoic (ahamkar) false-self. I am not an individual self. I am part of One Whole Unified Field of Love and Light.

 

When I believe I am an individual personality self instead of the Son/Daughter of God, the True Self Christ and Atman, I am assaulting myself with unconscious fragments and slivers of false thought. When I deny assault in my individual mind, I use the egoic film projector to create and interpret that very assault as coming from an outside world, disowning it. My response is to enshroud myself in a bubble of protection from that world and attack and assault it, my brothers and sisters in spirit, and all of which I seem to perceive. I get caught in the vicious cycle of the egoic-ahamkar manifestation of drama comprised of conflict, where I seem to see assault and attack and then feel the intense need to counter attack. This will continue to happen until I liberate my mind through Jnana Yogic discrimination. Using the buddhi-intellect, I deny the manas-sense-mind from taking control of what I interpret to be a hostile reality, that in truth is an illusion. I must and can escape from my ingrained perceptual hoax, the carnal, savage movie I out-picture as a world filmstrip, with attached sound, tainted light beams, moving images, a script, sets, props, tragedies and comedies at the expense of truth, and actors and actresses, who I think are making independent choices, when in reality I am making them up from the one ahamkar-ego that is appearing as a multiplicity of egos.

 

The dance of illusions known as maya, the hypnosis, is something I seemed to make, trying to hide from and rebel against the very God Mind I thought was out to seek vengeance on me, trying to convince myself that I am unlovable and the Divine, Supreme, Indestructible Spirit Mind, Brahman, Father-Mother is out to punish me for something I thought I did, which never happened. What I fear I want to assault and kill. What I fear is a call for Love. What I fear does not exist. Only Love makes up the fabric of what is Truly Real. I am unaware of what I do at many times while on this earth stage living out a script that has an ending, when in Reality, the True Self, Christ Self, could never end. It is eternal and immortal. I cannot perish. Not ever.

 

Today I will change my thoughts to change the world I see. For a minimum of five times this day, I will gaze at the world I have surrounded myself with for a minute. Moving my eyes from one object to other ones, or from one physical, dense body to another, I will verbally say:

 

“What I see has an ending and will perish, so it has no reality. I am just perceiving a form of thought assault on myself.”

 

Following each practice period, I should contemplate whether or not this is what I want to perceive. I must be convicted in knowing the answer to this, that no, I would not.

 

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)