CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 57 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 31-35)

DAY 57

 

Today I will review the following affirmations:

 

DAY 31

I am not at the mercy of a world I seem to see outside of me that appears to threaten me with danger, trying to inflict pain, suffering, and psychological and biological torture upon my True Self, Christ and Atman Self, which in reality cannot be harmed. All assaults and threats of harm come from my individual split ego mind. They originate from no outside place. The world I have made is not a perpetrator and punishing force. My individual mind is the cause of my subjectively experienced mental agony that I seem to experience in a physical body.  

 

I am not at the mercy of an outside world that can be remade and undone. Today, I will choose freedom over the shackles I have placed upon my self. I will repeat the idea for today throughout the day as well to take steps toward full releasement from bondage and self-inflicted hell and psychological-emotional fluctuations that seem to abuse me. I take back my projected dream film of attempted violence against my Christed Nature. I am not held hostage in this world. The stairway up and out of Eden’s Basement, the hell I made has a light shining upon it showing me the way out of my self-constructed dungeon. I come out of darkness and hiding, and break my chains of sickness, pain, aging, entropy, decay, and all forms of affliction, now, here in this moment. The light of truth is here to liberate me from my mistaken perceptions about where I think I am and why I think I am here.

 

DAY 32

The world I have come to know and recognize as being out there is my own projection. God Mind had nothing to do with it’s manifestation. I am beginning to grasp the Law of Karma, of cause and effect, that what I reap, I will sow. I can’t be at the mercy of the world that appears to be outside of me, because it is a manifestation of my own subconscious, subterranean thought vibrations that are dense and tamasic (darkening). I must want to escape in the world I perceive, to hide from the Father-Mother, to experience the delusion of duality, of opposites, or extremes, because I keep seeming to have experiences there instead of in Paradise Oneness where I still reside, though I am unaware of the True Presence of being there. The world is the effect of my ego-rebellion against the Father-Mother Awareness. It is an individual, self-created hell that seems to be filled with pain, suffering, dissatisfaction, destruction, sickness, and disappointment. These things, these struggles of what I call everyday life can be transcended through Divine Realization of my Christed Nature. To see that I am the Atman Self at One with the Infinite Manifestation of Spirit or Brahman, the Father-Mother Beingness.

 

I am responsible for what I see, hear, and experience out in this wilderness desert where mirages of the split mind come to play out dramas, comedies, tragedies, transient romances, and horror films in my head. All I have to do is to take ownership of the thoughts I project from my mind. If I made the wilderness desert, then I can leave it and dissolve it, because that is the only thing to do in a desert. To remake it into a garden of peace and healing. I Realize that I had a psychotic break from reality, where through an identity crisis, I convinced myself that I was no longer a Christed Son/Daughter of the Divine Lover whose embrace I long to feel again. How wrong I was. How enraged and deluded I let my mind become. As the one Christ Self, with all of the Divine’s creations, I am in a boundless state forever. The Child of the Father-Mother is changeless and perfect and is not the phantasm I have made him/her to be. That Child, who we all are is safe at Home in the Garden State of Being and is not where I decided to hold him/her hostage.  This Collective Child is liberated and unshackled.

 

DAY 33

I will now perceive the projected world dream, the maya motion picture of dancing illusions, in a radically different manner. I will gaze upon it with Love and with the Vision of the True Self-Christ and Atman Self and see only God behind the image of all things. Oh, Immortal God, oh Dao, oh Brahman Supreme, Father-Mother Allness help me see with spiritual sight.

 

When I look upon the outside dream, collective and personal, the dream of hell, as the Toltecs call it, I have the tendency to shut God out of the movie. I don’t see him with the body’s eyes. So, this day, I vow to look with Christ Vision and to see from a perspective coming from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God, the Holy Spirit, Fiery Desire Energy in my mind, adding new frames to the filmstrip being projected outward onto the screen of Infinite Light. There is another way to watch the movie as it unfolds and is projected onto the screen of time and space. I have been watching it half asleep and have viewed it through a drug-induced haze where my thoughts about it were not real. I have seen this movie as a slaughterhouse for the Collective and Christed Child of God. And so I Realize and Know now, that this outside dream movie is a setting where this Child escapes the hell it believed in. I detach myself from the dream movie, step back, pause, and see it not as a confining place of inevitable death, but somewhere the Christed Self of God discovers what has always been true, that he/she is liberated and is not bound in any way against his/her will.  

 

DAY 34

It is my choice whether I see shanti (peace) in a state of calmness or through chaos, distress, restlessness, or any form of perceived mental or physical agony, and so I choose shanti-peace instead.

 

When I see through the eyes of love, and am in shanti-peace, seeing the projected dream world not as a place where I am doomed to suffer, get sick, and die, but as an environment in space and time in which to be liberated, I Realize that, like a mirror, it reflects Divine Right Order instead of chaos and catastrophe. I Know in my heart and mind that shanti-peace, not a gore-infested battlefield, dwells in the dream movie. Through Radical Right Perception, Christ Vision, I will see that shanti-peace dwells in the heart-mind matrixes of all those who share this collective dream world with me.

 

DAY 35

My mind is a part in the one holographic whole Mind of the Father-Mother, Brahman, the Dao, The Supreme Immortal, Undying, Unified Field of Divine Allness. My mind is whole and in Oneness with this Divine Mind.

 

Shanti-peace must be born within my inner-most being. Understanding and Realizing this, I am now able to extend the shanti-peace I fee to my brothers and sisters in spirit, while I further awaken in this dream movie. The dream movie I am watching and am seeming to participate in has now been illuminated by the radiant nature of my forgiveness, and is shining my mercy back at me. Through an illumined perspective, I am starting to see how my delusional perceptions about who I thought I was, kept me confined hidden in the dark cornerstone of my egoic-ahamkar false-self temple, that was destroyed to be rebuilt. This temple is my altar to the Divine Mind, where I meet and accept the invitation to Union and Communion with my Source. I now can affirm and place credence in the reality of a shared wholeness among all living beings, forgetting not to include myself. We are all one, undivided, and are part of the holographic Mind of the First Cause of all that exists in truth and reality.    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Shadow Figures: Seeing the Past in the Present/Taking Back Projections

Do you ever catch yourself responding to someone in your life in a way that you responded to someone from your past that you feel and think hurt you or deprived you of love and appreciation in some way? We all do, right? Why is that?

 

We tend to bury our pain and feelings of rejection experienced in the past or in childhood (this tends to receive a lot of flack). Then, we make people in the present pay for those buried emotions and even the grievances that form as a result of them. Shadow figures are talked about in Chapter 13 of A Course in Miracles, but not so openly in Course “Circles” or outside of psychological contexts. But this topic should be a more prominent source of discussion in my opinion.

 

I know that, in hindsight, I have seen myself being punitive or reactive towards people in my life in the present in situations where I really am responding to someone or something that person from the past said or did that I interpreted as harmful or hurtful. Again, we do this sort of thing all the time and are mostly unconscious of this behavior.

 

We may respond to our spouse or partner in a reactive way when we are really “telling off” a past lover, friend, or even parent. We need to become more conscious of when and how we project these images onto people in our life now. Much could be said about this topic, for it is a common problem. But really, how do we avoid making our friends, acquaintances, and loved ones “pay” for what we perceived as hurts or having been wronged in some way in the past?

 

We need to see everyone as guiltless. And we need to release the past. That includes recognizing grievances and pain we have stored in our minds and bodies. If we see everyone as innocent and as a Son or Daughter of the Divine, we see past “errors” or “attacks” we perceived had the ability to hurt us in some way. What we need to do is adopt a way of seeing and believing that we are invulnerable and cannot be hurt, not by people or occurrences from the past, not now, and not in the future either. The solution is simple, but seems often an insurmountable feat to try to accomplish.

 

We need to forgive. Everything. Always. That starts with recognition of how we keep allow ourselves to be imprisoned by people from our past, and see just how much we let that carry over into the present. It certainly isn’t going to be easy. And it doesn’t happen overnight. Sometimes we are going to blow up on someone we love, here and now, and it may take doing that to realize we are still chained to the past. Love and forgiveness. Practice it. Do it. Keep doing it. Free yourself and others. Do it now. And ask the honest questions before you feel like saying something volatile. Such as, what am I really feeling and am I extending love or acting out of fear of reliving the past in some way? Recognize. Release. Realize. Let go. Surrender to the now. And extend love consistently. You can’t go wrong. And finally, take back your projections you have superimposed onto people in the present, whether you know them well, or just have a casual encounter with them on the street or at work. It’s worth it to become more aware of how we respond to others. It is just one key to unlock the door to contentment and happiness as well as peace and acceptance too.

A BURNING LOVE THAT IS BURIED

Deep beneath the surface of the conscious mind, lies buried, a burning love for the Divine’s embrace and the memory of His (& Hers) Love for us. I won’t get into the various theories about levels of the mind, but we need to penetrate that deep layer in our subconscious, which is at the collective level, beneath even, the archetypes (ruling idea energies identified by Swiss Psychiatrist Carl Jung) that we share in common. That level is the level of miracle-mindedness as is emphasized in the Complete and Annotated Edition of A Course in Miracles, early on.

Why would the deepest layer of the mind contain the real ‘gold’ of wholeness, oneness, and the memory of communion and union with the Divine? Because, we dissociated, or blocked out the memory of perfect oneness and union with Perfect, Infinite Love. Long ago, when we made the decision that if we could not receive special favor from the Father/Mother Source and be elevated above our fellow Sons and Daughters of our Supernal Parents, that we would reject the purity and holiness of non-discriminating love, we ‘rejected’ our Creator and tried to project outward into nothingness, a world where we thought we could try to be our own father. This is when the ego was created. Then through more projection and the illusion of fracturing what we had known as ‘reality’, a big bang of consciousness occurred. And thence started into motion, the making of worlds, not just our own. We thought we had accomplished a great feat by causing a rift in our minds, a split where we could ‘make’ (not create, for true creation only takes place in Heaven) a new reality. But we immediately felt guilt over trying to separate from the Divine out of a fear of being punished for this supposed crime of trying to become our own god. This guilt is what fueled the dissociation, where we tried to forget our true nature and the blissful reality of being in communion with the Divine.

That is just a brief description of what the act of separation (which never really happened) looked like and how we came to bury our memory of both our burning love for God and His for us. Out of His Love for us, at the moment when the ‘big bang’ occurred and the making of an alternate reality was set in motion, He had a plan, which A Course In Miracles calls the Atonement, or the correction process. It was then that He planted the memory of Him, His Love, and our oneness with Him in our minds. That memory, that Voice, that Advocate, that Comforter was the Holy Spirit, the answer to the dissociation and forgetting due to the massive block created by guilt in our split minds.

God never left us, and we in truth never left God. We just blocked out His memory in our minds. And this led to massive suffering and denial on our part. But still we yearned for a father figure to be in union with and to serve. We chose the ‘ego’ as our father, but the ego could never fill the space in our minds and hearts reserved only for the Divine Father. And so we search, we yearn, we strive, we go on the defensive, and we attack ourselves and others, trying to find what we think we lost. Our true Treasure. We compete out of hate for others, for what we in our split minds, think only we are entitled to. That special favor from God, the thought that started the whole process of separation in motion.

Now we need miracles to correct the thought process that induced our massive denial of that intense and burning love we really long for (and fear) and that is the true motive behind all our actions, many times, however, masked by attack, blame, and hate. Why would we do this to ourselves? It’s a mystery. But it only took one ‘tiny tick of time’. And so we seem to be in exile, trying to journey back to the place we never left, our Home in Heaven. That journey can be sped up by accepting the Atonement, the correction for our misperceptions and errors, by practicing forgiveness, releasing guilt, and choosing love over fear.

Sometimes all we need to do, is to still our minds, pause, and take a step back to receive the guidance we need to change how we see things. If we took the time to go to peace, and to truly listen for God’s Voice (The Holy Spirit in our minds), we would begin to break through the barriers that stand in the way to the remembrance of that Primal Love which we buried in our subconscious, the very love that we are afraid of. It is time to knock down the walls and remove the masks to this precious gift.

 

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 55 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 21-25)

DAY 55
Today I will review the following affirmations, spending two minutes reflecting on each one.

 

DAY 21
With alignment to Infinite Willpower given to me by God Mind, I am determined to see objectively, from my Inner Witnessing Presence Awareness in a different, more clear perspective, seeing through the One Reality of Love in Radical Right Perception and Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind Vision. I want to be liberated in this life through moksha. To break free from the cycle of birth and death. To let go of my grievances, my anger, to see not through my klesha-afflictions, but through the One Love that unites us all.

 

All that I seem to see are images of disease, disaster, and death, Jeshua (Jesus) says. God Presence did not intend this for His/Her Sons and Daughters. The fact that I see these things proves that I misunderstand the Divine Source and therefore don’t correctly realize who His Son is. That of which I see indicates to me, I do not realize who I really am. I have the volition through Infinite Willpower to see only the truth of my being, not avidya-illusions.

 

DAY 22
The images and thoughts of which I interpret to mean something with a negatively charged vibration are really an assault on the little self I call ‘me’. When I identify with an individual, separate, different from others self, I perceive and interpret the world to be an attack on my egoic false-self. I am not an individual self. I am part of One Whole Unified Field of Love and Light. When I believe I am an individual self instead of the Son/Daughter of God, the True Self Christ and Atman, I am assaulting myself with unconscious fragments and slivers of false thought. When I deny assault in my individual mind, I use the egoic film projector to create and interpret that very assault as coming from an outside world, disowning it. My response is to enshroud myself in a bubble of protection from that world and attack and assault it, my brothers and sisters in spirit, and all of which I seem to perceive. I get caught in the vicious cycle of the egoic-ahamkar manifestation of drama comprised of conflict, where I seem to see assault and attack and then feel the intense need to counter attack. This will continue to happen until I liberate my mind through Jnana Yogic discrimination. Using the buddhi-intellect, I deny the manas-sense-mind from taking control of what I interpret to be a hostile reality, that in truth is an illusion. I must and can escape from my ingrained perceptual hoax, the carnal, savage movie I out-picture as a world filmstrip, with attached sound, tainted light beams, moving images, a script, sets, props, tragedies and comedies at the expense of truth, and actors and actresses, who I think are making independent choices, when in reality I am making them up from the one ahamkar-ego that is appearing as a multiplicity of egos.

 

The world I perceive is not a representation of vibratory loving thoughts. As Jeshua Jesus says, “It is a picture of attack on everything by everything. It is anything but a reflection of the Love of God and the Love of His Son.” I must affirm that it is my own thoughts of threat that paint this picture of life as I know it in this world. I must know that my loving and peaceful thought waves that will liberate me from such a perception of the world, and give me the bliss-peace-shimmering-light Divine Presence wants me to have.
Today I will change my thoughts to change the world I see.

 

DAY 23
I can dream a new dream, see a new world order by surrendering my assaulting thoughts that my individual egoic-ahamkar mind projects outward into the sea of nothingness-void, by letting the Radical Right Minded Projector shine Light and Love rather than the despair of fear. Free breeds anger. Anger produces assault and attack thoughts. The only release from fear comes by transforming my chitta-mind stuff, the vritti-fluctuations of the mind. By making my mind still and empty. By changing what I project. By extending only Loving thoughts. By welcoming in the neutral mind and caring for the aura and radiant bodies that are at my core, from the existence of the nine other bodies outside the physical. I must go beyond the physical sheath, the anna maya kosha out to the intellectual sheath or the buddhi mind, the mano maya kosha, and out even further to the Bliss sheath, the ananda maya kosha. Bliss will eradicate the fear that produces assault and attack thoughts. Perceiving with the physical ego-body’s eyes will always breed assault and defensiveness stemming from fear of danger.

 

Though I can be a change agent in the world, there is no real point in trying to manipulate outer appearances of form. At the level of causation and ideational thought, I must create in alignment with God Mind, a different experience while in the illusory world. Changing at the level of cause will change the effect on the movie screen of the matrix ego-womb mind. The world I seem to perceive is an assault on myself. But the illusory external unreality cannot really harm me in all honesty. The movie dream my split mind projects is not True Seeing. This is not sight, but hallucination. Image making is not the same as resting in Pure Being or Samadhi Oneness with Divine God Mind. My false-self superimposes images of assault and they seem to assault me back. Radical Right Perception must be welcomed by my Higher Mind, the Christ Mind-Atman Self. Mirages do not last and cannot have Infinite effects. Communion and Yoga-Union with God will be the Everlasting Will that extends rather than projects.

 

Aligning with Radical Right Perception and even going beyond perception at all levels to Gnosis-Knowledge or Divine Realization and Divine Contact will bring about true liberation from karma or the law of cause and effect that seems to bind me to all the physical bodies I have inhabited in life time after life time. I am tired of dying and coming back to the world I hallucinate in conjunction with the one fractured collective ego. Some people call the liberation I seek, salvation, but liberation has a different connotation.

 

Under the spell of maya-hypnosis, I do not see that I am the filmmaker, seeming to direct this motion-picture film drama of apparent happenings. My Christ Mind can change what is playing in the theater of shadows and replace the disturbing, violent, horror film, the product of fear and hate and must replace it with a different film which was made by Divinity Allness, Supreme Spirit, Brahman-Father-Mother, the moment the separation seemed to occur (although it did not), when the Memory of my Divine Origin was placed in my mind, Kundalini Desire Energy or the Rising Potential of Holy Spirit.

 

By surrendering assaulting thoughts, I am liberated. Without thoughts having the intent to harm, I would not perceive a world filled with assault and threats of danger. Today, I allow forgiveness to bring love back into my mind field, so as to only see a world of peace and safety and joy. I choose these things instead of what I now perceive.

 

DAY 24
My individual, egoic-ahamkar misuses the faculties of perception to receive messages that do not reflect what is of optimum wellness and truly right and good for me. Self and Christ-Realization is the only goal I should have. Due to strongly identifying with an individual, isolated self appearing to be in this world exile experience in the unpredictable wilderness, I seem to be under a spell of delusion that prevents me from perceiving outcomes to expectations that will bring me Supreme Santosha-Contentment. Alone and apart from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of Divinity Origin, the Holy Desire-Energy-Spirit in my mind, I have no real guide to making the best choices that would bring about Supreme Santosha-Contentment and my overall good. What I have perceived with my individual egoic-ahamkar have been misconstrued and untrue and therefore what I have chosen to do in almost all circumstances has depended upon my interpretations and perceptions. So, I must embrace acceptance that I apart from God Mind do not recognize what is Radically Right for me to do. To do what is Radically Right and good should be my only expectation at all times, because I am prone to hypnotic confusion about what is the best outcome for my True Self, Christ and Atman Self. Recognizing that on my own, I will be unclear about what is of optimum wellness for me, opens me to being taught by the Inner Guru, Inner Wisdom, Universal Inspiration, and the Intuitive Guide Within. Asleep at the wheel of this earth-bound experience will only block learning. Today, I take a step towards expanding my mind about what is Radically Right for me to do while in this body vehicle, seeming to interact with outer objects, people, and experiences.

 

How can I recognize what is of true, optimum wellness for me when I do not know who I am? What I think is truly right and good for me really keep me in bondage to delusions. I affirm and commit to listening to the guide Divine Presence gave to me in my mind the second separation seemed to occur. I realize I cannot perceive optimum wellness and what is truly right and good for me on my own.

 

Today, I must be brutally honest with myself so as not to fall victim to contradictory outcomes, by accepting that my individual, isolated self knows nothing on its own. This is an important step in the process of unraveling the mind from the web of maya I am stuck in. I want to awaken in this lifetime.

 

 

DAY 25
I am not aware in this moment in time and space, what anything I seem to see with the body’s eyes are for. Purpose and meaning are the same. But my individual mind has confused and tried to replace the purpose of Christ Mind and the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God with a delusory thought system. I have many mistaken ideas when I choose to associate with the ego thought system. Since I do not know what any given thing I perceive is for, it by default has no meaning for me. It is time to let go of the meaning the egoic-ahamkar thought system has assigned to everything I seem to encounter in this world dream. Everything in this world is supposed to be for my own best interests, according to the ego. But this is not the case. By design these things are supposed to fulfill me. That is what all things are supposed to be for under the thought system of the egoic-ahamkar. That is the purpose they are supposed to serve. The individual mind tells me that. Under this premise, my goals are in turn supposed to be unified. But this simply doesn’t happen when under the spell of illusion, subjectivity, and relativity. Everything becomes a blur and a distortion made to keep me asleep.
When I perceive with the individual, separative, subjective mind, I am unaware of what things are for and this mind gives meaning with its interpretation system. The aspirations and goals that originate in the individual mind that is separate from God Mind, are not in my own best interests, because I am in Reality not the individual egoic-ahamkar mind. My false association with the ego’s dream causes me to be incapable of knowing what anything means and what anything is for. Once I accept and acknowledge this, I will stop reinforcing my individual mind’s aspirations for the world dream I seem to experience and pull back from the projected images of these unconscious wishes. When I turn off the ego film projector by aligning with God and Christ Mind there will be a blank screen filled with golden-white light that the darkness of the images and wishes were hiding. Since I am only part of One Unified Mind, the wishes and desires of the individual mind really are concerned with nothing at all. By holding these wishes and desires as special, my individual mind has no goals, in the scope of what is True and Real, and therefore, I can’t know what anything is for.

 

When thinking in terms of superficiality, my egoic-ahamkar mind understands purpose, but True Purpose cannot be comprehended with superficial vibrations. The magnetism of thought at this level is weak and foggy at best. Today, I realize that the purpose of everything and everyone I think of and see is to convince me that my avidya-illusions about myself are in effect real and true. I have a false belief that the world is for telling me these things that are not really true. The purpose I have given the film dream movie of a world led to a terror-inducing picture of it. Today, I commit to opening and expanding my mind to the world’s real purpose which is to teach me to wake up and be only Love for All in All.

 

In order to awaken, to grow in understanding, and to evolve, I must surrender and let go of the individual goals that come from the ego mind. Individual goals mean nothing. As mentioned in the previous day’s contemplation, Self and Christ-Realization, Divine Realization of who I really am is the only goal and will I really should and do have. Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 54 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 16-20)

DAY 54
These are the ideas for review today. Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation.

DAY 16
It is impossible to have thoughts without taking a position or a point of view. It also follows that my thoughts, regardless of whether they come from dark, light, or admixed energy vibrations will have an effect, either creating a world of separate, illusory forms or manifesting out of creative communication with the Divine, thoughts of Love from the One True Source of Love. Everything I see is the byproduct of thought. There is no thought too small or too big. Thoughts create experience. Experience creates beliefs. Beliefs create perceptions. Thoughts are either Radically Right or dreadfully out of alignment with truth. True thoughts extend from Love of Infinite Measure. False thoughts project and animate, paint, and out picture images and egoic-ahamkaric movies that aren’t true.

 

Thoughts are either true and whole or false and fragmented. They, unlike the meaning of things I see with my manas-sense-mind’s eyes and its visual cortex are not neutral. Thought waves have vibratory effects and consequences. They either create and extend love or they destroy through fear and assault. True and whole thoughts will show me the Real World while destructive, false, and fearful thoughts will be projected from the ego-ahamkar mind and show me a hell that really doesn’t exist. Thought distortions that destroy or seek to attack are errors that need to be corrected and reconciled in order for veils that prevent True Sight from occurring to vanish and disappear. I must stand guard and watch the fluctuations in my mind so I am in alignment with Heaven and not a self-made hell of torment and affliction. Thoughts must either be true and whole, or false and the cause of the kind of sleep that produces nightmares.

 

DAY 17
I do not perceive with neutrality because my thoughts are not without a positionality or some slanted form of judgment or fixed belief. This day I take another step to recognize cause and effect and that I seem to be experiencing an outer manifested world that my egoic-ahamkar calls real. Thoughts and beliefs come before perception even though it seems to occur the other way around. My egoic mind-womb wants me to believe that perception comes first, but in reality I bring all preconceived notions, beliefs, and ideas from the past to the present moment that my egoic-ahamkar corrupts and assails with the onslaught of these fixed delusions. What I perceive and think I see do not appear to be neutral. My private mind sees either Heaven or hell.

 

What my mind sees and then interprets is a testament to the quality and nature of what fluctuations of thought that arise in it. In no way can I see nothingness, because to think must lead me to see something as form. Thinking, despite many thoughts to the contrary is the basis of my existence and being. Everything comes from a thought. Whether from a Divine Source or from mayaic-delusion. I must choose to gaze upon the world I visually interpret as a film projection coming from and being played out by the causative-ideational nature of my mind that was a gift from the Divine Allness. I can always transform my mental atmosphere, so therefore the idea must follow, that the kind of world I photograph with my eyes can be made into something new that comes from eternal light instead of darkness.

 

DAY 18
I am not alienated in experiencing the effects of my perceptual faculties because all minds are joined and unified, only appearing to be separate, seeing through what seem to be individual eyes of different physical bodies and their their visual cortexes. Am I seeing with the personal egoic-ahamkar and its body sense of sight, of which there really is only one mass, collective ego, or from Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind-Vision? In all cases it is always one or the other from which I see or seem to perceive.

 

Though I have thoughts that seem to come from a private mind, I have no private thought forms. Therefore, if my mind can’t produce private thoughts that are not shared, I cannot look out upon a world solely of my own making. The insane moment of separation was a joint, collective happening that occurred and now is on seeming display for one mind appearing as individual minds to visually interpret and see. That collective sharing though, was really a sharing of absolute nothingness. I now call upon my true and whole thoughts because they, in actuality are shared with everyone who seems to inhabit this earth dream with me. In the manner that my thought forms of division speak to the divisive thought vibrations in other people, it can also be said that my true and whole thoughts ignite an awakening, flashes of insight and Realization in them as well. The kind of world that my true and whole thoughts reflect back to me will also be born within the minds of others.

 

DAY 19
Cause and effect are intertwined. Perception and what I appear to see are interrelated. Therefore, in relation to the idea from yesterday, I am not in solitary confinement in experiencing the effects of my vibratory, magnetic thoughts. As each has a calibration in consciousness, so does the thought waves of other people affect me as mine do to them. Once again, it is worth emphasizing that my mind matrix is not limited to an alienated personal mind. Though I resist the idea, and think that this means I have enormous resulting responsibilities, I must not be fooled into believing I am powerless or that I cannot effect the outcome of what I seem to perceive. I am a creator at One with the Mind of God and at One with the entire Sonship of brothers and sisters in spirit. However, I chose to make, project outward, and distort reality with my disturbed and disordered thinking. I am not alienated from other personal minds, because there is only one mind, and only one ego mind appearing to be many. I must accept that I have no thoughts apart from other seeming individual minds, which again are fragments of the One Mind. Private thoughts are non-existent.

 

What I experience is never done in solitary. Every thought form, every word I choose to speak, and every action I engage in has a universal effect on the entirety of the manifested cosmos within space-time. A Christed Son or Daughter does none of these things with only their own interests in mind. There is no experience of alienation. I have the Divine begotten ability to bring about thought form reversal in all minds including my own individual mind. This is due to the inherited grandeur of the Father-Mother, when used for Divine Right use of mind.

 

DAY 20
In alignment with Infinite Willpower given to me by God Mind, I am determined to see objectively, from my Inner Witnessing Presence Awareness, the One Reality of Love through Radical Right Perception and Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind Vision. My mind needs discipline. Due to mayaic-delusory subjectivity, I haven’t been able to distinguish between True Joy and sorrow, Bliss and sadness, True lasting pleasure and the hell of pain. It is time to start telling them apart for maximum freedom in Real Awareness. There is an objective Reality of Heavenly Oneness from which all Radical Right Perception proceeds. This is my goal today. To truly see. To be liberated in this life through moksha. I am making the pre-decision to perceive differently to attain Radical Right Perception in the Holy Instant of Now. Determination will bring about the desired result.

 

Today, I acknowledge whole-heartedly, in my mind-body complex, that all fluctuations of thought transcend subjectivity and are collectively experienced, and I am driven to obtain True Christed Sight. I now gaze upon all those who give testament to the reality that the global vibrational thought field has been transformed by Light and Love. I trust in the evidence that what has changed due to me being used as a vehicle for mass transcendence of the ego, shows me that Endless Love has made fear obsolete, and metamorphosed sadness into joy, and the feast of plenty has come to replace devastation and despair. Through my convicted willpower, I can see the real and true world, and thereby let it impart upon me, the wisdom and grace of knowing that my willpower is one with that same current in the Divine.