A BURNING LOVE THAT IS BURIED

Deep beneath the surface of the conscious mind, lies buried, a burning love for the Divine’s embrace and the memory of His (& Hers) Love for us. I won’t get into the various theories about levels of the mind, but we need to penetrate that deep layer in our subconscious, which is at the collective level, beneath even, the archetypes (ruling idea energies identified by Swiss Psychiatrist Carl Jung) that we share in common. That level is the level of miracle-mindedness as is emphasized in the Complete and Annotated Edition of A Course in Miracles, early on.

Why would the deepest layer of the mind contain the real ‘gold’ of wholeness, oneness, and the memory of communion and union with the Divine? Because, we dissociated, or blocked out the memory of perfect oneness and union with Perfect, Infinite Love. Long ago, when we made the decision that if we could not receive special favor from the Father/Mother Source and be elevated above our fellow Sons and Daughters of our Supernal Parents, that we would reject the purity and holiness of non-discriminating love, we ‘rejected’ our Creator and tried to project outward into nothingness, a world where we thought we could try to be our own father. This is when the ego was created. Then through more projection and the illusion of fracturing what we had known as ‘reality’, a big bang of consciousness occurred. And thence started into motion, the making of worlds, not just our own. We thought we had accomplished a great feat by causing a rift in our minds, a split where we could ‘make’ (not create, for true creation only takes place in Heaven) a new reality. But we immediately felt guilt over trying to separate from the Divine out of a fear of being punished for this supposed crime of trying to become our own god. This guilt is what fueled the dissociation, where we tried to forget our true nature and the blissful reality of being in communion with the Divine.

That is just a brief description of what the act of separation (which never really happened) looked like and how we came to bury our memory of both our burning love for God and His for us. Out of His Love for us, at the moment when the ‘big bang’ occurred and the making of an alternate reality was set in motion, He had a plan, which A Course In Miracles calls the Atonement, or the correction process. It was then that He planted the memory of Him, His Love, and our oneness with Him in our minds. That memory, that Voice, that Advocate, that Comforter was the Holy Spirit, the answer to the dissociation and forgetting due to the massive block created by guilt in our split minds.

God never left us, and we in truth never left God. We just blocked out His memory in our minds. And this led to massive suffering and denial on our part. But still we yearned for a father figure to be in union with and to serve. We chose the ‘ego’ as our father, but the ego could never fill the space in our minds and hearts reserved only for the Divine Father. And so we search, we yearn, we strive, we go on the defensive, and we attack ourselves and others, trying to find what we think we lost. Our true Treasure. We compete out of hate for others, for what we in our split minds, think only we are entitled to. That special favor from God, the thought that started the whole process of separation in motion.

Now we need miracles to correct the thought process that induced our massive denial of that intense and burning love we really long for (and fear) and that is the true motive behind all our actions, many times, however, masked by attack, blame, and hate. Why would we do this to ourselves? It’s a mystery. But it only took one ‘tiny tick of time’. And so we seem to be in exile, trying to journey back to the place we never left, our Home in Heaven. That journey can be sped up by accepting the Atonement, the correction for our misperceptions and errors, by practicing forgiveness, releasing guilt, and choosing love over fear.

Sometimes all we need to do, is to still our minds, pause, and take a step back to receive the guidance we need to change how we see things. If we took the time to go to peace, and to truly listen for God’s Voice (The Holy Spirit in our minds), we would begin to break through the barriers that stand in the way to the remembrance of that Primal Love which we buried in our subconscious, the very love that we are afraid of. It is time to knock down the walls and remove the masks to this precious gift.

 

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CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 55 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 21-25)

DAY 55
Today I will review the following affirmations, spending two minutes reflecting on each one.

 

DAY 21
With alignment to Infinite Willpower given to me by God Mind, I am determined to see objectively, from my Inner Witnessing Presence Awareness in a different, more clear perspective, seeing through the One Reality of Love in Radical Right Perception and Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind Vision. I want to be liberated in this life through moksha. To break free from the cycle of birth and death. To let go of my grievances, my anger, to see not through my klesha-afflictions, but through the One Love that unites us all.

 

All that I seem to see are images of disease, disaster, and death, Jeshua (Jesus) says. God Presence did not intend this for His/Her Sons and Daughters. The fact that I see these things proves that I misunderstand the Divine Source and therefore don’t correctly realize who His Son is. That of which I see indicates to me, I do not realize who I really am. I have the volition through Infinite Willpower to see only the truth of my being, not avidya-illusions.

 

DAY 22
The images and thoughts of which I interpret to mean something with a negatively charged vibration are really an assault on the little self I call ‘me’. When I identify with an individual, separate, different from others self, I perceive and interpret the world to be an attack on my egoic false-self. I am not an individual self. I am part of One Whole Unified Field of Love and Light. When I believe I am an individual self instead of the Son/Daughter of God, the True Self Christ and Atman, I am assaulting myself with unconscious fragments and slivers of false thought. When I deny assault in my individual mind, I use the egoic film projector to create and interpret that very assault as coming from an outside world, disowning it. My response is to enshroud myself in a bubble of protection from that world and attack and assault it, my brothers and sisters in spirit, and all of which I seem to perceive. I get caught in the vicious cycle of the egoic-ahamkar manifestation of drama comprised of conflict, where I seem to see assault and attack and then feel the intense need to counter attack. This will continue to happen until I liberate my mind through Jnana Yogic discrimination. Using the buddhi-intellect, I deny the manas-sense-mind from taking control of what I interpret to be a hostile reality, that in truth is an illusion. I must and can escape from my ingrained perceptual hoax, the carnal, savage movie I out-picture as a world filmstrip, with attached sound, tainted light beams, moving images, a script, sets, props, tragedies and comedies at the expense of truth, and actors and actresses, who I think are making independent choices, when in reality I am making them up from the one ahamkar-ego that is appearing as a multiplicity of egos.

 

The world I perceive is not a representation of vibratory loving thoughts. As Jeshua Jesus says, “It is a picture of attack on everything by everything. It is anything but a reflection of the Love of God and the Love of His Son.” I must affirm that it is my own thoughts of threat that paint this picture of life as I know it in this world. I must know that my loving and peaceful thought waves that will liberate me from such a perception of the world, and give me the bliss-peace-shimmering-light Divine Presence wants me to have.
Today I will change my thoughts to change the world I see.

 

DAY 23
I can dream a new dream, see a new world order by surrendering my assaulting thoughts that my individual egoic-ahamkar mind projects outward into the sea of nothingness-void, by letting the Radical Right Minded Projector shine Light and Love rather than the despair of fear. Free breeds anger. Anger produces assault and attack thoughts. The only release from fear comes by transforming my chitta-mind stuff, the vritti-fluctuations of the mind. By making my mind still and empty. By changing what I project. By extending only Loving thoughts. By welcoming in the neutral mind and caring for the aura and radiant bodies that are at my core, from the existence of the nine other bodies outside the physical. I must go beyond the physical sheath, the anna maya kosha out to the intellectual sheath or the buddhi mind, the mano maya kosha, and out even further to the Bliss sheath, the ananda maya kosha. Bliss will eradicate the fear that produces assault and attack thoughts. Perceiving with the physical ego-body’s eyes will always breed assault and defensiveness stemming from fear of danger.

 

Though I can be a change agent in the world, there is no real point in trying to manipulate outer appearances of form. At the level of causation and ideational thought, I must create in alignment with God Mind, a different experience while in the illusory world. Changing at the level of cause will change the effect on the movie screen of the matrix ego-womb mind. The world I seem to perceive is an assault on myself. But the illusory external unreality cannot really harm me in all honesty. The movie dream my split mind projects is not True Seeing. This is not sight, but hallucination. Image making is not the same as resting in Pure Being or Samadhi Oneness with Divine God Mind. My false-self superimposes images of assault and they seem to assault me back. Radical Right Perception must be welcomed by my Higher Mind, the Christ Mind-Atman Self. Mirages do not last and cannot have Infinite effects. Communion and Yoga-Union with God will be the Everlasting Will that extends rather than projects.

 

Aligning with Radical Right Perception and even going beyond perception at all levels to Gnosis-Knowledge or Divine Realization and Divine Contact will bring about true liberation from karma or the law of cause and effect that seems to bind me to all the physical bodies I have inhabited in life time after life time. I am tired of dying and coming back to the world I hallucinate in conjunction with the one fractured collective ego. Some people call the liberation I seek, salvation, but liberation has a different connotation.

 

Under the spell of maya-hypnosis, I do not see that I am the filmmaker, seeming to direct this motion-picture film drama of apparent happenings. My Christ Mind can change what is playing in the theater of shadows and replace the disturbing, violent, horror film, the product of fear and hate and must replace it with a different film which was made by Divinity Allness, Supreme Spirit, Brahman-Father-Mother, the moment the separation seemed to occur (although it did not), when the Memory of my Divine Origin was placed in my mind, Kundalini Desire Energy or the Rising Potential of Holy Spirit.

 

By surrendering assaulting thoughts, I am liberated. Without thoughts having the intent to harm, I would not perceive a world filled with assault and threats of danger. Today, I allow forgiveness to bring love back into my mind field, so as to only see a world of peace and safety and joy. I choose these things instead of what I now perceive.

 

DAY 24
My individual, egoic-ahamkar misuses the faculties of perception to receive messages that do not reflect what is of optimum wellness and truly right and good for me. Self and Christ-Realization is the only goal I should have. Due to strongly identifying with an individual, isolated self appearing to be in this world exile experience in the unpredictable wilderness, I seem to be under a spell of delusion that prevents me from perceiving outcomes to expectations that will bring me Supreme Santosha-Contentment. Alone and apart from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of Divinity Origin, the Holy Desire-Energy-Spirit in my mind, I have no real guide to making the best choices that would bring about Supreme Santosha-Contentment and my overall good. What I have perceived with my individual egoic-ahamkar have been misconstrued and untrue and therefore what I have chosen to do in almost all circumstances has depended upon my interpretations and perceptions. So, I must embrace acceptance that I apart from God Mind do not recognize what is Radically Right for me to do. To do what is Radically Right and good should be my only expectation at all times, because I am prone to hypnotic confusion about what is the best outcome for my True Self, Christ and Atman Self. Recognizing that on my own, I will be unclear about what is of optimum wellness for me, opens me to being taught by the Inner Guru, Inner Wisdom, Universal Inspiration, and the Intuitive Guide Within. Asleep at the wheel of this earth-bound experience will only block learning. Today, I take a step towards expanding my mind about what is Radically Right for me to do while in this body vehicle, seeming to interact with outer objects, people, and experiences.

 

How can I recognize what is of true, optimum wellness for me when I do not know who I am? What I think is truly right and good for me really keep me in bondage to delusions. I affirm and commit to listening to the guide Divine Presence gave to me in my mind the second separation seemed to occur. I realize I cannot perceive optimum wellness and what is truly right and good for me on my own.

 

Today, I must be brutally honest with myself so as not to fall victim to contradictory outcomes, by accepting that my individual, isolated self knows nothing on its own. This is an important step in the process of unraveling the mind from the web of maya I am stuck in. I want to awaken in this lifetime.

 

 

DAY 25
I am not aware in this moment in time and space, what anything I seem to see with the body’s eyes are for. Purpose and meaning are the same. But my individual mind has confused and tried to replace the purpose of Christ Mind and the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God with a delusory thought system. I have many mistaken ideas when I choose to associate with the ego thought system. Since I do not know what any given thing I perceive is for, it by default has no meaning for me. It is time to let go of the meaning the egoic-ahamkar thought system has assigned to everything I seem to encounter in this world dream. Everything in this world is supposed to be for my own best interests, according to the ego. But this is not the case. By design these things are supposed to fulfill me. That is what all things are supposed to be for under the thought system of the egoic-ahamkar. That is the purpose they are supposed to serve. The individual mind tells me that. Under this premise, my goals are in turn supposed to be unified. But this simply doesn’t happen when under the spell of illusion, subjectivity, and relativity. Everything becomes a blur and a distortion made to keep me asleep.
When I perceive with the individual, separative, subjective mind, I am unaware of what things are for and this mind gives meaning with its interpretation system. The aspirations and goals that originate in the individual mind that is separate from God Mind, are not in my own best interests, because I am in Reality not the individual egoic-ahamkar mind. My false association with the ego’s dream causes me to be incapable of knowing what anything means and what anything is for. Once I accept and acknowledge this, I will stop reinforcing my individual mind’s aspirations for the world dream I seem to experience and pull back from the projected images of these unconscious wishes. When I turn off the ego film projector by aligning with God and Christ Mind there will be a blank screen filled with golden-white light that the darkness of the images and wishes were hiding. Since I am only part of One Unified Mind, the wishes and desires of the individual mind really are concerned with nothing at all. By holding these wishes and desires as special, my individual mind has no goals, in the scope of what is True and Real, and therefore, I can’t know what anything is for.

 

When thinking in terms of superficiality, my egoic-ahamkar mind understands purpose, but True Purpose cannot be comprehended with superficial vibrations. The magnetism of thought at this level is weak and foggy at best. Today, I realize that the purpose of everything and everyone I think of and see is to convince me that my avidya-illusions about myself are in effect real and true. I have a false belief that the world is for telling me these things that are not really true. The purpose I have given the film dream movie of a world led to a terror-inducing picture of it. Today, I commit to opening and expanding my mind to the world’s real purpose which is to teach me to wake up and be only Love for All in All.

 

In order to awaken, to grow in understanding, and to evolve, I must surrender and let go of the individual goals that come from the ego mind. Individual goals mean nothing. As mentioned in the previous day’s contemplation, Self and Christ-Realization, Divine Realization of who I really am is the only goal and will I really should and do have. Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 53 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 11-15)

DAY 53
The following key ideas will be reviewed today. Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation.

 
DAY 11
The time to initiate the mind de-fragmentation or correction process begins. The fluctuations of energy and information constructing a thought must be put under the microscope of discrimination. The magnified view from perfect Christ Presence illumination reveals your Christed Mind, the reality that may at first appear to devastate, but then unlocks the door hiding the truth that liberates.

 

The mayaic delusory dance of images are not the cause nor inspiration for thought current. The separation induced psychosis that distorts, determines the projected brain drama that you see superimposed on top of the screen of the world-wilderness, originating from the matrix womb of creation. The Christ Mind is forever in resonance with bliss and oneness while the separative impulse fails to realize that what the eyes see and brain interprets are/is meaningless and completely neutral. My personal ego gives or assigns what I appear to give meaning, taking a positionality, making judgments while grossly misinterpreting what I think is real.

 

Both the thought fluctuations that I am observing moving through my mind and the outside world are devoid of meaning. This dream world has been projected from a sick filmmaker, the collective ego-ahamkar, which was made in a moment of delusion and a desire for something more than the Allness of the Father-Mother’s Love. Therefore, the dream world must produce twisted and distorted manifestations. Edenic Oneness, the Truly Real, is not and never will be totally insane, and I own the fact that my mind has both Truly Real thoughts as well as full blown insane ones. The good news is that I can, through Christ Vision see a Truly Real World, if I am using my True and Whole thoughts as my inner guide for obtaining Realization and thereby, sight.

 

DAY 12
To correct perceptual distortion, the one in which I believe that my real Self is capable of being upset due to the fact that what I think I see is a world so terrifying, so depraved, so barbaric, and a living cold asylum when in reality the world has no meaning. It is neutral.

 
Grossly psychotic thoughts are disturbing, and they manifest the illusion of a dream world where there is total chaos and horror. Only extreme disorder has dominion over such a world which witnesses to the abyss of chaotic thought processes. I know now, as Jeshua (Jesus) says that “chaos has no laws”. How could I dwell in a manifested world based on insanity and honestly say I could be in shanti-peace? I want only love and serenity through acceptance of the Real World and to be in bhakti-devotion to true creation found in the realm of Heaven. I have so much appreciation for the Realization that the insane world I think I am living in is only an hallucination of delusion. In actuality I do not have to look upon such a catastrophic world, not unless I choose to give it meaning and choose to cherish it. Therefore, this day and every day, I will not choose to identify with or cherish what is completely and utterly the product of psychosis and which is devoid of meaning altogether.

 

DAY 13
The sick-minded ego is deluded, making me think that I am in competition with God, which I can’t be, because God is All in All and incapable of opposition or war mongering of any kind. That being said, it is anxiety-provoking for me to consider that the world could be without meaning, as for those ensnared in separative mayaic duality, and in those who appear to be separated, those entranced in relativity and subjectivity, it is fear provoking to think that the Divine Transcendent could possibly in reality be at war with a devil. It is ultimately God and the demiurgic-devil-ego that seem to be at war within me, wanting me to assign meaning to the world based on the cases they plead. The egoic-ahamkar wants to establish its own story and dramas as important and meaningful with respect to the world, when all that exists is Heaven and a vastness in the Primordial Matrix-Womb out of which real life is created. Fear is insane and I now start to see the relationship of cause and effect.

 

What is completely unstable and rooted in fragmentation promotes the negative emotion of fear for the reason that it is unreliable and cannot be trusted. That of which is insane cannot invoke confidence in it, by a sane mind. The fragmented cannot offer security and definitely not peace, nor fulfill any yearning. A fragmented projected world is illusory and is formed by shadows and darkness. Often times I have put faith in it, honoring it as a true and whole manifestation and as a result have been tormented and tortured by its immanent perceived presence. Today, moving forward in conviction and clarity, I withdraw my investment in what is fragmented and distorted and instead invest my magnetic resonance with what is real and true. In doing this, I can and will be liberated from all the negative outcomes that come from believing in a world based on vibrations of toxic fear, and I affirm that it has no timeless essence.

 

DAY 14
A meaningless world is impossible. This is due to the fact that the world I see, God did not create. God created the infinite potentiality of thought, light, and energy. Our source is the First Cause.

 

A world devoid of substantial meaning cannot exist if it was not emanated from the Fullness of the Father-Mother Divine Source of all that is. All meaning comes from the Divine, from Brahman, Adonai, Yaweh, Elohim and everything that does exist in the Mind of that Allness. I must acknowledge that substantial meaning is in my mind as well, because the Allness emanated and extended it from the center of It’s Being with my knowing. I do not want to and should not have to be afflicted by the outcomes of my individual fragmented, mad thoughts, not when the Ineffable and Untainted nature of creation is my homestead. Today, I recall the gravity of my affirmation and acknowledge and Realize where it is I truly dwell, in an eternal, causal and ideational world of the Pleroma (Heaven) and its many mansions and abodes.

 

DAY 15
My thoughts are energy and information that when given belief appear to take form. The film strip running through the projector of the split-egoic-ahamkar mind is projected out onto the screen of what appears to be a world of dancing macabre images. This is far from Radical Right Perception. When I make images, I am seeing a dream movie of subjective, relative thought with actor and actress ego consciousness that become bodies and seem to incarnate. My ego tries to direct the movie of image making out of its fractured matrix film projector and manipulate what it calls ‘real’. Only Radical Right Perception is Real. When I begin to see light surrounding objects, Radical Right Perception is at work, and my shared Christ Mind beam of light from the film projector of God Mind that creates rather than makes is being accessed. At this stage in the yogic discrimination process between the ego-director and God-Mind at one with Christ Mind Director/Producer, I am still dismantling the dream world, the dance of illusion images that appear “out there” in the wilderness desert. These are important, but small steps that my True Self is taking.

 
All that I see is a direct mirror image of my mental thought forms. My thoughts in the form of vibrations and frequencies, measurable pulsations give credence to where I reside as well as what my true identity is. I see a depraved, tormented world filled with devastation and pain. That maxim tells me I am perceiving solely the manifestation of my twisted, distorted ego thought splinters. I Realize that I am preventing my true and whole thought waves to reflect their magnificent, radiant light ray potential on what I look upon. However, when I rest in the Divine Allness, I know through gnosis-knowledge that my Source’s will is absolute. The haunting ghost projections never will defeat the Father-Mother, because in truth my will is one with my Supernal Parents’, and I don’t want to go against them. The will power I possess is my Heavenly Source’s, and I refuse to genuflect before false gods of substitution instead of Him-Her.

DESIRE: UNDERSTANDING THE NATURE OF PRAYER

Desire is the basic life energy that motivates everything we think, do, and feel. Regardless of how you view desire, either as something meant to bring you what you want or as the source of all striving which leads ultimately to suffering, we can’t ignore its power and significance.

Desire energy is what created us as Pure Spirit in the Fullness of Heaven. The Divine is Holy Desire. The desire to extend Love. Real and True Love. If we were begotten by Love, which came from desire, that too must be a part of our make up and inherent nature.

I am of the belief that we must harness desire, no matter what metaphysics or ontology you might subscribe to. I say that because it is such a powerful source. In the view of A Course In Miracles, a non-dualistic teaching said to have come from Jeshua (Jesus) himself, the Collective Son/Daughter of God, the Sonship desired to experience something “special”, something more than God, whether you view the Divine as Father or not, it doesn’t really matter (although I believe The Course ultimately points towards a personal God instead of just some energy or essence). The text of that now widely disseminated teaching, says we attempted to usurp the power of God. We, in one insane moment, as a collective whole thought we could experience something better than Oneness with the Father (the term The Course uses to denote God). As a result, a separate state (seemed) to emerge, thus causing a split, in the One Mind we shared with God, leaving us with not only a collective, but personal ego.

Getting back to desire, it is, I believe, at the root of everything as I mentioned above. For the purpose of this short article, I want to now turn to desire as the driving force behind prayer.

All prayer is desire in motion. Even animals pray, expressing a desire to find food or a place to sleep. They are driven by desire. They can’t escape the drive of desire. Neither can we. Though I am not going to take sides on what we should or shouldn’t pray for in our lives, we need to understand that in some way, every prayer we offer up is an expression of the desire energy that, again, is at the core of who we are. Though desire and love are related, desire can be expressed as fear and all the emotions that stem from fear as well. When we turn to a “Higher Power” to seek guidance, and even when we pray to receive “things”, we are doing it directly out of the Desire Energy that courses through us.

Prayer in my belief, the way I have come to understand it through various mystical teachings, should first be an expression of Love, Devotion, or Communion with our  Source. We need to “return” to our Source of Oneness (though in reality I believe that we never truly separated from the Father, we just appear to be in exile here on earth) when we offer up what is in our hearts. If we just pray for things, what the supplement The Song of Prayer that was channeled and received after the publishing of A Course in Miracles, calls “idols”, we are at a low rung on the “ladder of prayer” that leads us back to a state of communion and union with God. If we seek communion and union first, to express the “Song” that is sung between us and God, all things ‘shall be added unto us’. Jeshua once taught in his sermon on the Mount that if we seek first the Kingdom of Heaven, all things shall be added unto us. The things we really need to get along in this world (not just the things we want) will come in the form of “echoes”, a secondary reply to prayer we offer up.

It is all about alignment. If we are in alignment with the Father (Or Mother, if you prefer), we will be taken care of and all our ‘true desires’, those that are expressions of love, not fear of being either abandoned or rejected, by the Divine Lover, will be heard, and we will receive just what we are asking for whether it is something real or something illusory. If we pray or desire something illusory we are desiring nothing and will receive exactly that – and thereby experience emptiness, that we will long to fill with more “things” or “idols”.  I just wanted to provoke thought by writing this, not cause the reader to feel guilt or remorse. It is my belief, that we should aim high, ‘go for the gold’, seek our treasure which is eternal, and align ourselves with the Divine Presence if we are to be truly happy. This will satisfy our deepest yearning and “true desires”.

Just know that thoughts do manifest in some form. And we do get what we ask for in some way. That is the nature of desire at work. We were created in the image and likeness of God and have the ability to turn our thoughts into form. We need to respect the power of desire, and like I said earlier, harness it, direct it wisely, and for Love. That is the only way we will find lasting peace and joy. Prayer is not just about offering praise and adoration, for God does not have an ego. It is about joining. Returning to the Heart of the Divine Presence. Our Source of endless love and our ‘true sustenance’.  Therefore, use your desire to join, first with the Divine, then with others, out of love, and everything you truly need will be provided for Love does not abandon or deny Itself.

 

 

 

 

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 51 (REVIEW # 1 : DAYS 1-5)

DAY 51

REVIEW DAY 1-5

 

Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation. If any one of the five affirmations appeals to you more than another, you may spend more time centering on that one.

 

DAY 1

’None of the things that my eyes and visual cortex see means what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), has told me it does. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort the fact that everything is neutral and has no meaning just because it is in an apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections and their impressions from the objects around me. This is my first step in allowing things to be as they are, thought and energy that has materialized.’

 

I don’t truly see anything that comes into my field of viewing, thus there is an absence of vision. Nothing is out there. The absence of all things material can and do not mean anything. I must embrace this in order to obtain True Perception, Christ Vision, so I can see. All of which I believe I see inhibits true sight from occurring. I will release all blocks to seeing by accepting that what I think I see is devoid of meaning. I do this so that I will be able to see truth, only truth, and be present to that of which is instead of seeking meaning in illusions and figments of my projected fantasies coming from the small ego-ahamkar mind that try to convince me of their reality, when in truth they are made up and come from oblivion.

 

DAY 2
‘I have projected all subjective-relative (mayic filtered) perceived meaning onto everything that my eyes and visual cortex see. The physical world in itself doesn’t mean anything, certainly not what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), have told me it does. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort the fact that everything is neutral and has no meaning just because it is in an apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections and their impressions from the objects around me that come from the blind sense mind (manas) and individualized ego (ahamkar). This is my second conscious step in allowing things to be as they are, thought and energy that has materialized due to my quantum interaction with that of which I observe. Finally, I begin the distortion correction process through detachment from all assigned meaning to things in the world I see. ’

 

Why do I judge what I think I see? I judge and interpret and call this seeing when it is not. Nor is it the Christed Vision coming from the Identity which I share with all of the Divine’s Sons and Daughters. If it is not True Vision, it must be a phantasm, an avidya-illusion, a false reality. This is due to the fact that my judgmental assertions and interpretations come from fear, lack, misperception, and blindness that distorts True Sight with regards to what is actually real. Today, I commit to seeing the distortions that come from judging, because in all actuality, I want to see things as they are, as the Divine Father-Mother intended them to be. I have tried to attack myself by judging and labeling and have only caused harm by doing so. In no way, whatsoever, do I want to look out trough the eyes of judgment on what is totally neutral and inherently pure, holy, and innocent.

 

DAY 3
I do not comprehend any of the things that my eyes and visual cortex see nor what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), has told me these things are. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort my understanding and full knowledge of what surrounds me in their apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections, their impressions, and the strong obsessive fixations that drive me to project meaning onto these things, where there is none. This delusive need leads me into a web of confusion about what I think I see and its relevance to my life motion picture that I am creating at a given moment, either through my God-like Universal Intelligence or instinctual demonic egoic-subconscious beast mind polarity.

 

There is no way I can understand what my eyes think they see, when I have projected the shadow and dense cloud of judgment onto everything they perceive. When I do this, I am using my eyes and ego-ahamkar to project miscreations of thought waves, coming from vritti-fluctuations in my brain. There is no way I can understand what is filtered through my eyes to the visual cortex in my brain, due to the fact that it can’t be comprehended, for what I look upon is not real. I will not waste my time trying to comprehend it. Through volition and the conscious use of will power, I release my judgments and unchain my mind from them so I can look upon what has been made manifest, know what it is, and thereby love it. Willingness is the key to unlock the prison of my split mind so only love emanates from me. Seeing without veils cast in front of my eyes, I clear the cob webs in the cellar of my mind and make a better choice. One for Love and Realization of Truth.

 

DAY 4
The thoughts I think with my separative, split, and fearful mind do not mean what the ego (ahamkar) tells me they do. Neither do the objects that surround me that I see with my eyes and visual cortex.

When I attempt to think and miscreate without being in communion with the Father-Mother, my thoughts that become forms are devoid of meaning. The thoughts with which I identify and call “mine” are phantasms and hallucinations. My True and Untainted Thoughts are those that are being extended with and from the Divine, Causal-Ideational Mind. The reason that I am not currently in a state of Realization, knowing that this is true is because my privatized thought waves have attempted to replace the mutually extended Thoughts I share with my Supernal Parents, the Primal Cause of everything Real and True. I use my will power once again, and the spirit of openness to truly see that my privatized thoughts mean nothing at all, and so I release and dissolve them, removing any perceived power I thought they had over me or anyone else. Holy Spirit Mother, I seek discernment and guidance now. I surrender my private thoughts and ask you to undo them, for I no longer want them to replace our mutual Thoughts. My privatized thoughts have no meaning at all, but using Thought for the purpose of creation or the act of extension happens with ease through my communion and awareness of my oneness with Divinity. This is my only goal today and everyday.

 

 

DAY 5
When I am upset, it is because my subconscious, subjective mind fragments misinterpret reality and are intruding upon Radical Right Perception, thus creating rifts and whirlpools of brain activity leading to massive hallucinations and projections out onto the world. The emotionally charged distortions are part of the reactive process gone haywire in the flow of my astral, spinal currents, spiraling down into misery of my own making.

 

I am never upset, nor agitated, anxious, or angry for the perceived reasons I think I should and can be disturbed because I am constantly applying effort to defend and protect my privatized thought waves. Why do I try so hard to give them justification through what my ego-ahamkar calls truth? When I take a step back, I can see that I demonize all things so I can try to validate my rage and thereby defend my use of mental, emotional, or physical violence. I pray for Realization, so that I can see the degree to which I have distorted the purpose of everything I have perceived through my ego-ahamkar by defining what I think those things are for. The only reason I have put so much time and energy into defending my distorted, dark emotions that stem from fear is because I ultimately wanted to keep my private false-self in bondage and chained to hallucinations. I consciously release my reactivity and all the misery I have miscreated from the depths of my subconscious mind-field. Mother Kundalini, Holy Spirit Fire, rise up, so that I may ascend out of the dungeon of psychological, emotional, neurological, and biological disturbance into the Bliss of acceptance, found in Pure Spirit and Light.

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)