CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA DAY # 60: (Review # 1: Days 46-50)

DAY 60

Today, I will review the following affirmations:

 

DAY 46

God Presence is Pure, Radiant Love and it is through and in this Love in which I forgive myself, others, and all things that appear to happen in this projected earth exile dream movie, dissolving all karma, fear, mental affliction, and guilt.

 

It is almost a difficult feat to overcome, to accept the belief that Divine Presence does not condemn and thereby has no need to expiate any wrong doings or unloving thoughtsI may choose to think or act on. The sick part of my mind wants to be tortured by the past and to pay for what I think are haneous crimes against God Presence and His/Her creations. I don’t cast aspertions because I have embraced the innocent lamb nature in me. I need do no penance, but I shall atone andcorrect errors in thinking. To forgive others for what I think they may have done or said allows me to see through Christ Vision, my untainted, unblemished True Christ Self. Forgiveness is an emanation and mirror image of Divinity Source’s Absolute Love in this unfolding world drama on the stage called earth. Releasing others from condemnation and judgment beckons me close to the Paradise state from which I began and will never end in, and the God’s sattvic-enlightening compassion can bridge the gap of separation and elevate me to the awareness of the Heavenly realm, my home.

 

DAY 47                

In this moment, and in every moment of the Holy Instant of Now, I will give my complete trust to the Power, Glory, and Almighty strength of God Mind Presence, the Father-Mother, my Supernal Parent.

 

I extend mercy, forgiveness, and release to other through a power greater than me. God Presence as the Divine Father-Mother Syzygy provides the grace through which I know and recall the beauty of forgiving. I am starting to use my Christed sight and I thereby recognize Divinity radiating from heaven to this earthly dwelling place. I release all things from the burden of grievances and attack since I feel Divine Love pulsating through my mind-body complex. Today, I remember only Love, something I had dissociated from, but which never left me at the core of my being. I am life. I am love. And it is because of this that I can forgive and pardon.

 

DAY 48

I am fearless. I fear no one, no thing, no thought, or any outside force. I am safe. I am free. I cannot be threatened or harmed by anything, nor any avidya-illusion created by mayaic-delusion and duality coming from the split, individual ego-ahamkar mind.

 

Through the gift of sight, I see the harmlessness of the world. Through Christ Vision the world appears transfigured in the light of endless Love. What I have seen in it up to this point is but a fragment of the whole and complete picture of eternity reflected through Divine goodness seeing through my Christ Eye. All people I share this dream with along with everything that I see in its actuality and pure wholeness will me magnetically drawn towards me, giving me its Shakti and inspiration to rise up within me. Everyone is a mighty companion on this journey home. There is nothing at all to fear in this dream movie that was over long ago, but which I am viewing seemingly for the first time, since I have helped release and soften karma in it, and others have helped to release and soften karma in me.

 

DAY 49

If I but listen, and I be but still, quiet, and in a state of conscious mental rest, I will hear God Presence’s Voice and guidance which speaks to me throughout my entire day, every day, all the time as a manifestation of the One Reality of Cosmic Yoga-Union.

 

In every moment I am redeemed, though I was never condemned to suffer from any kind of wrath or eternal torment. Divinity Power in my Supernal Parents invites me to forgive, daily and in every moment. Responding to this, I am liberated from affliction and karma. In every minute of the days that pass by like scenes in a movie that appear and disappear, my Father-Mother inspires my thoughts to be holy and pure, while informing the choices I make through my behavior. I vow to travel on the path of Satya-truth. This is the only path for me to walk on because my Source’s Voice is the one and only guiding light that has been planted within my Sacred Heart, burning steadily and helping me to awaken.

 

DAY 50

Divine Love, God’s Infinite, Unending, Undying, Everlasting Life and Love, is my spiritual umbilical cord, reaching from the One True Paradise Within, the Kingdom/Queendom of Heaven. This gold and silver cord carries my life force energy that supplies me with all the strength I need to give, extend, and return Love to my Source and all of manifest creation. My aura and astral energy body are empowered by the Infinite causal mind and body of thought and ideation, and from the astral mind and body comes the life essence that sustains my temporary body vehicle and its sense-mind interpreters of materialized form, trying to make sense out of an existence of multiplicity made by subjectivity and mayaic-delusion.

 

I listen to my Source’s guidance within and am connected by the frequency of Love activated in my mind through spirit. As my Christed Third Eye opens, Divinity’s Love illumines the mayaic dream movie for me to see in its innocent nature. I forgive and release today through that Love Divine as I recall that every Child of God Presence remains untainted from the folly and avidya-illusion of sin. I look upon the dream world with Christ Vision, being transmitted to me from my Source’s circuity and causal, ideational thought waves, and I thereby stand in remembrance that I am also a Divine Child, an emanation of radiant light.

 

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CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 59 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 41-45)

DAY 59

Today I will review the following:

 

DAY 41

The Father-Mother, Divine Guiding Light, Universal Spirit leads me and accompanies me on this journey, this exile, through the wilderness of the world, every step of the way, as I seek the Inner Promised Land of sweetness, milk and honey wholeness.

 

I can never be alone nor uncertain or without perfect faith in the Father and Holy Spirit Mother Kundalini-Sophia. I cannot be disturbed because the Father and Mother abide in me, bringing me peace. I cannot suffer or be in despair because Love and Joy Divine envelop me through the Supernal Parents. I will not cherish the limited false self. I enjoy the gift of perfection because God Presence accompanies me on this journey every step of the way.

  

DAY 42

My deep abiding faith, belief, and power to Love comes from the Presence of God within. Christ Vision is the Father-Mother’s gift to my True Self and brings blessings of Joy and Peace.

 

My manas-sense mind and the physical body’s eyes are limited. I will not rely on them for sight today. I trade my poor attempts at seeing, believing in avidya-illusions for Christ Vision that is given by the Father-Mother. I invoke this gift today, so that my mind may seek to comprehend the Everlasting Goodness of Eternity.                                                          

 

DAY 43

I am an extension of the Primal Cause, God Presence, Divine Mind, Immortal Brahman Spirit, the Indestructible Father-Mother Source. I am a creation of this Loving Source and I see only in alignment with this Presence and Mind.

 

God Presence, Divine Mind wants me to see certain things and not others. I will see what the Supernal Parents want me to see. There is nothing else to see. There is God Mind’s will and then there are my avidya-illusions. I tend to choose these avidya-illusions when I believe I can see apart from my Source. When I choose to use the limited individual manas-sense mind and the body’s eyes, I see only what is unreal. The calming reality is that Christ Vision has been freely given to me to take the place of avidya-illusions and all related delusions. I affirm this day, that I will see through Christ Vision instead of the physical body’s eyes.

 

DAY 44

Through Gnosis-Knowing and Divine Realization, contact with the Light of Father-Mother God, the Immortal Indwelling, is possible. This contact and awareness is the powerful Light Source that allows me to see the True Reality of Love right now.

 

Darkness and ignorance impede Gnosis-Knowing and Divine Realization. The Father-Mother is the One and only light. In that case, if I am to see, it will only be in and through my Supernal Parents. I have been mistaken about what I thought sight was. I am grateful that it has been given to me now to grasp that through awareness I Realize God Presence is the Light Source that allows me to see the Truth and the Reality of Love in this Holy Instant.

 

DAY 45

The causal, ideational thoughts of God Presence are my real thoughts. From the Mind of this Divine Source comes all Truth, Love, Light, Blessings, Magnetism, Peace, Joy, Ananda-Bliss, and Santosha-Contentment.

 

My real thoughts are the thoughts that God Presence thinks through me. In reality, there is no separation and in truth, all real thoughts that pass through my mind are there because God Presence put them there. The Mind of this Divine Source is one with my mind. Therefore, my thoughts are my Supernal Parents’ and the thoughts that come from them are mine.

 

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 57 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 31-35)

DAY 57

 

Today I will review the following affirmations:

 

DAY 31

I am not at the mercy of a world I seem to see outside of me that appears to threaten me with danger, trying to inflict pain, suffering, and psychological and biological torture upon my True Self, Christ and Atman Self, which in reality cannot be harmed. All assaults and threats of harm come from my individual split ego mind. They originate from no outside place. The world I have made is not a perpetrator and punishing force. My individual mind is the cause of my subjectively experienced mental agony that I seem to experience in a physical body.  

 

I am not at the mercy of an outside world that can be remade and undone. Today, I will choose freedom over the shackles I have placed upon my self. I will repeat the idea for today throughout the day as well to take steps toward full releasement from bondage and self-inflicted hell and psychological-emotional fluctuations that seem to abuse me. I take back my projected dream film of attempted violence against my Christed Nature. I am not held hostage in this world. The stairway up and out of Eden’s Basement, the hell I made has a light shining upon it showing me the way out of my self-constructed dungeon. I come out of darkness and hiding, and break my chains of sickness, pain, aging, entropy, decay, and all forms of affliction, now, here in this moment. The light of truth is here to liberate me from my mistaken perceptions about where I think I am and why I think I am here.

 

DAY 32

The world I have come to know and recognize as being out there is my own projection. God Mind had nothing to do with it’s manifestation. I am beginning to grasp the Law of Karma, of cause and effect, that what I reap, I will sow. I can’t be at the mercy of the world that appears to be outside of me, because it is a manifestation of my own subconscious, subterranean thought vibrations that are dense and tamasic (darkening). I must want to escape in the world I perceive, to hide from the Father-Mother, to experience the delusion of duality, of opposites, or extremes, because I keep seeming to have experiences there instead of in Paradise Oneness where I still reside, though I am unaware of the True Presence of being there. The world is the effect of my ego-rebellion against the Father-Mother Awareness. It is an individual, self-created hell that seems to be filled with pain, suffering, dissatisfaction, destruction, sickness, and disappointment. These things, these struggles of what I call everyday life can be transcended through Divine Realization of my Christed Nature. To see that I am the Atman Self at One with the Infinite Manifestation of Spirit or Brahman, the Father-Mother Beingness.

 

I am responsible for what I see, hear, and experience out in this wilderness desert where mirages of the split mind come to play out dramas, comedies, tragedies, transient romances, and horror films in my head. All I have to do is to take ownership of the thoughts I project from my mind. If I made the wilderness desert, then I can leave it and dissolve it, because that is the only thing to do in a desert. To remake it into a garden of peace and healing. I Realize that I had a psychotic break from reality, where through an identity crisis, I convinced myself that I was no longer a Christed Son/Daughter of the Divine Lover whose embrace I long to feel again. How wrong I was. How enraged and deluded I let my mind become. As the one Christ Self, with all of the Divine’s creations, I am in a boundless state forever. The Child of the Father-Mother is changeless and perfect and is not the phantasm I have made him/her to be. That Child, who we all are is safe at Home in the Garden State of Being and is not where I decided to hold him/her hostage.  This Collective Child is liberated and unshackled.

 

DAY 33

I will now perceive the projected world dream, the maya motion picture of dancing illusions, in a radically different manner. I will gaze upon it with Love and with the Vision of the True Self-Christ and Atman Self and see only God behind the image of all things. Oh, Immortal God, oh Dao, oh Brahman Supreme, Father-Mother Allness help me see with spiritual sight.

 

When I look upon the outside dream, collective and personal, the dream of hell, as the Toltecs call it, I have the tendency to shut God out of the movie. I don’t see him with the body’s eyes. So, this day, I vow to look with Christ Vision and to see from a perspective coming from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God, the Holy Spirit, Fiery Desire Energy in my mind, adding new frames to the filmstrip being projected outward onto the screen of Infinite Light. There is another way to watch the movie as it unfolds and is projected onto the screen of time and space. I have been watching it half asleep and have viewed it through a drug-induced haze where my thoughts about it were not real. I have seen this movie as a slaughterhouse for the Collective and Christed Child of God. And so I Realize and Know now, that this outside dream movie is a setting where this Child escapes the hell it believed in. I detach myself from the dream movie, step back, pause, and see it not as a confining place of inevitable death, but somewhere the Christed Self of God discovers what has always been true, that he/she is liberated and is not bound in any way against his/her will.  

 

DAY 34

It is my choice whether I see shanti (peace) in a state of calmness or through chaos, distress, restlessness, or any form of perceived mental or physical agony, and so I choose shanti-peace instead.

 

When I see through the eyes of love, and am in shanti-peace, seeing the projected dream world not as a place where I am doomed to suffer, get sick, and die, but as an environment in space and time in which to be liberated, I Realize that, like a mirror, it reflects Divine Right Order instead of chaos and catastrophe. I Know in my heart and mind that shanti-peace, not a gore-infested battlefield, dwells in the dream movie. Through Radical Right Perception, Christ Vision, I will see that shanti-peace dwells in the heart-mind matrixes of all those who share this collective dream world with me.

 

DAY 35

My mind is a part in the one holographic whole Mind of the Father-Mother, Brahman, the Dao, The Supreme Immortal, Undying, Unified Field of Divine Allness. My mind is whole and in Oneness with this Divine Mind.

 

Shanti-peace must be born within my inner-most being. Understanding and Realizing this, I am now able to extend the shanti-peace I fee to my brothers and sisters in spirit, while I further awaken in this dream movie. The dream movie I am watching and am seeming to participate in has now been illuminated by the radiant nature of my forgiveness, and is shining my mercy back at me. Through an illumined perspective, I am starting to see how my delusional perceptions about who I thought I was, kept me confined hidden in the dark cornerstone of my egoic-ahamkar false-self temple, that was destroyed to be rebuilt. This temple is my altar to the Divine Mind, where I meet and accept the invitation to Union and Communion with my Source. I now can affirm and place credence in the reality of a shared wholeness among all living beings, forgetting not to include myself. We are all one, undivided, and are part of the holographic Mind of the First Cause of all that exists in truth and reality.    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 56 (REVIEW # 1 : DAYS 26-30)

DAY 56

Today I will review the following affirmations:

DAY 26
The thoughts of assault, attack, and intent to harm and cause pain and suffering are assaulting and attacking my state of shimmering bliss-peace, Santosha-Contentment, and sense of security. If I can be assaulted, attacked, in pain, and harmed then I am not in a state of security and am prone to danger and fear. It is my individual mind, the egoic-ahamkar, small and false-self that believes I can be assaulted, attacked, harmed, or even killed, due to the fact that this mind believes I have attacked and harmed my small self. In reality this cannot happen, because my True Christed Self cannot be harmed or be subject to dangerous forms of behavior and thinking and the Christed Self is all that is Real in the Divine Allness’ Primal Creation. This concept that I believe I can be attacked and harmed and that I am inflicting emotional and psychological, and even the possibility of physical pain upon myself is a Law of Mind that I need to understand and turn the tables on it. To see that cause and effect are this law and that what I think causes what I will appear and seem to experience while in this world drama that unfolds daily, and moment by moment as I choose separation instead of Yoga-Union or Communion with The Father-Mother.

 
I am beginning to realize and grow in the awareness that I always threaten to harm myself first. Again, holding thoughts of harm and intent to inflict pain of any kind towards myself and others in all instances entails that I believe I am in fact capable of being harmed or subject to pain and suffering, and that thoughts that stem from this belief are meant to weaken me. If I believe I am capable of being harmed and subject to pain and suffering, I am inducing a form of harm upon my false self, that is the only self that could experience such devastation. I am the Christ. The Son of God. I really cannot be harmed. I only think I can be and am in turn an individual body and brain that is suffering. When I do this or believe this in any way, a falsely imagined picture of myself tries to take the place of my Christed Nature that is in Samadhi-Oneness with God forever.

 

I must realize that it is the thoughts that I have in my split, separate mind that make me feel I can be subject to pain, the klesha-afflictions, and suffering of any kind. By changing and reversing my thoughts through contemplation and affirmation, I can prevent this from happening on a more regular basis and hopefully, always.

 

I can’t know who I am if I perceive myself as under a constant threat of intent to be harmed. As Jeshua Jesus says I should own the idea that “pain, illness, loss, age and death seem to threaten me” and that “all my hopes and wishes and plans appear to be at the mercy of a world I cannot control.” I interpret this to mean that I am safe, secure, and through my Divine inborn nature, I am totally provided for and am valued and treasured to the highest possible degree. Therefore, no self-created avidya illusions that I may seem to manifest can imprison me or strip me of my perfect protection from any perceived forms of danger or threat of any kind. He further instructs that I have attempted to surrender and give up the Divine inborn nature that is my treasure because I try to own and possess the world I my manas-sense-mind sees. I need not worry for God Presence has kept my inborn treasure protected and preserved for me. It is my truthful, authentic vritti-thought fluctuations in the mind that will show me what this valuable gift is.

 

DAY 27
My highest priority and prime goal is to see with Christed Vision, that of the Atman Self at one with Brahman-Father-Mother, the Indestructable God Mind Sight. I want to see beyond the densification of matter and individual bodies that are the product of multiplicity, beyond subjectivity and relativity and all the images of projected mayaic delusion, to the one light beam of Love coming from the Divine Source who makes all seeing possible. This is what I truly want – peace and Bliss Eternal. Santosha-Contentment is what I desire. Wholeness is my pursuit. I will clean the lens of the Witnessing Christed Third Eye of Intuition with objectivity to see innocence in all my brothers and thereby in myself. I will create instead of make. I will awake from sleep. Dissolve the power that hypnosis has had over my body’s attempt to see.

 

The Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God in my mind, the Holy Spirit Aum Vibration brings many blessings. It allows me to perceive with Radical Right Perception in the truest, most clear possible way. Today, I will tame and undo the ego-beast of animality and selfishness to see with the eye of Wisdom. I will dream a new dream. See a new world. Perceive the Primordial Creation of the One Divine Oversoul-Spirit or God Mind. Write a new script. Allow Divinity to Direct a different motion picture that isn’t driven by conflict, drama, and pain.

 

It is time to stop hiding behind the ego-body’s blindness that limits me from seeing the Divine everywhere, in my brothers and sisters and behind the veil of physicality. The Worlds of Light, coming from the causal-ideational and astral-energetic planes are there to be perceived. Through Witnessing Presence, I will bear in mind that the world my egoic-ahamkar mind has made will perish and is only temporary. It will disappear when I forgive and align with the Love of Supreme Spirit. The illusions of superimposed image forms will fall away when I turn off the film projector of the fragmented individual mind.

 

Christ Vision is the key to unlock the prison door that encloses me in a body. It is the other way I have been seeking throughout this exile in a material world. I turn within and remember what I truly want to see. I will extend only Love as I begin to see and witness and notice. I will observe through objectivity rather than be swayed to and fro by the whirlpool fluctuations of thought and emotions that seem to rise and fall, clouding my True Awareness of Oneness. Vision makes no real demands. It can only bless with Bliss.

 

I acknowledge and affirm that what my manas-sense mind’s eyes see is a mirror image of the identity I have assumed for myself. Through Realization, Christ Vision is the only thing that I truly need to embrace. I know now, through gnosis that the projected world I see with my ego-body’s eyes is a witness to the fear based self-image that I have manufactured and that keeps me in the dungeon of hell . I need to release this concept of who I think I am, and be willing to Realize who I truly am – the Christed Son/Daughter of the Divine Allness. Christ Vision and Radical Right Perception will be birthed in my mind as my separative egoic self-image is transformed by the grace of pure, untainted truth. Through such clarity of sight, I will gaze out upon the world, while looking inward to my True Self with love and the desire to share only love with my transformed perception.

 

DAY 28
My highest priority and prime goal is to see with Christed Vision, that of the Atman Self at one with Brahman-Father-Mother, the Indestructable God Mind Sight of Radical Right Perception. I want to see beyond the densification of matter and individual bodies that are the product of multiplicity, beyond subjectivity and relativity and all the images of projected mayaic delusion, to the one light beam of Love coming from the Divine Source who makes all seeing possible. Today, I will let go of all meaning I have assigned from the past about any given object or person, releasing preconceived notions and stories I have assumed in the caverns of my split mind that labels and categorizes all that I perceive, seeing with a Beginner’s Mind. Today I commit to seeing, observing, noticing, and witnessing in a wholly different way. Programmed reactivity and judgments must fall away when something comes into my field of vision. True and Radical Right Perception in the Holy Instant of Now is my pursuit. I want to be free of all slanted, jaded, and biased viewpoints that blind me from seeing clearly and truly. I will allow my buddhi-intellect mind to dissolve the world of the manas-sense mind conditioning so I can truly discriminate truth from falsehood. The real from the unreal.

 

Though I resist seeing in an alternative way, I now desire and vow from this moment and day forward to seeking freedom from past mental tape recordings of my individual, separate mind that distort my ability to objectively see truly. I allow Inner Wisdom, the Inner Guide, the Inner Guru, the Cosmic Vibratory Holy Spirit Memory of Divinity to give me illumined vision so that I can see the flickering light of Truth and Love everywhere. By doing this, peace will come and joy will follow. Love is All, Divine Mind is All. Divine Mind allows me to create through Christ Vision instead of make images through biased perception. The Radical, the Right, the True, and the Holy are forever Real and there to bee seen with crystal clarity. I release all limited perceptions of what I glance at, and see not through the definitions I have formed in the past, but through a Beginner’s Mind. Christ Mind in Divine God Mind. This opens me up to brand new, Radically Right Sight.

 

I open my mind that was once closed. I am no longer bound by the shackles of past labeling. I quiet my mind from the whirls and eddies of sound vibrations that try toHoly assert pre-programmed judgments about things I encounter in this world dream. All stories I have written about things I have encountered in the past will from this point forward be re-written through objective noticing, and simply observing, free from assigning meaning from the egoic-ahamkar mind that compartmentalizes everything.
I attain Radical Right perception today by wiping clean the individual mind’s preconceived notions of what everything means and see instead the purpose of whatever I gaze upon with Christ and Atman Mind. I allow the Good, the Holy, and the Beautiful to shine forth and illumine my mind this day.

I affirm:

 

The superimposed hallucination, which I call the world, acts as a veil covering the full recognition of the vastness and fullness of true reality, and contains within it the fear-based self-concept I have put belief in. My individual ego-ahamkar false self tries to cement it there and it allows this distorted image of myself to continue to manifest. My perception of the “mind film” projected world in this moment prevents Satya-truth from being in my conscious, witnessing awareness. I pray that the doorway that remains hidden behind the projection of this world reveals itself and I bring the key with me to unlock it. My True Christ and Atman Self can look past the manifested world I think is authentic, to the truly real world that emanates only the essence and presence of the magnetic Love waves of the Divine.

 

DAY 29
The Supreme, Transcendent and Immanent, Indestructible, Brahman God Mind is omnipresent and in everything that I see with my Spiritual Christ Sight. The vision afforded me by the reflected Son and Daughter nature of the Divine, Cosmic Father-Mother Source allows me to see beyond images appearing as form that I superimpose through avidya-illusion and shadow-dance projecting, to the One Light and Love that uplifts me into Higher Awareness.

 

The True Self, the Christ, the Atman, the Awakened One, fed by the nectar of shakti life-essence sees Brahman God Mind everywhere, while the body’s physical eyes see only shadows of the Light that lies beyond them. What I want to see, I will see. When I want to perceive through fear, I will see avidya-illusions of terror. Fear everywhere, fearing everything, and fearing everyone. When I want to see only Love, I will see Brahman God Mind everywhere blessing all things through the vision of Love. I want only Transmissions of Light, Bliss, and Peace and I will see and experience these when I open my anahata heart and ajna chakras to receive the magnetism and shakti that awakens the fiery desire energy of kundalini within my astral, metaphysical body and spine. Kundalini, the evolutionary energy within me, travels upward, Godward, within, in my True Self Nature, illuminating the highways of travel through this lifetime. It shines a light upon the darkness and hypnotic maya that the egoic-ahamkar mind has tried to create as a rebellion against Brahman God Mind. Forms appear as dense. But through Radical Right Perception, I can see beyond them to Love that made me. The Love that is omnipresent and omnipotent.

 

Surely Brahman God Mind is not in a tree, but the life force that animates the form of the tree came from a creative source in me and in everyone who perceives a given tree. That life force that animates form came from Brahman God Mind because we are co-creators with that very Divine and Primal Origin. God Mind does not create trees, but the life-essence within me, being of God Mind, is the same as that Spiritual Desire Energy. Since my essence is in God Mind and God Mind’s essence is in me, that of which I have created has some of that very life-essence that makes a given form possible. Shakti emanates from the One Creative Center from which all Real Energy and Spirit Life came from. All emanations of Brahman Father-Mother are radiated outward from the Primal Center, in the circumference of everywhere as One Unified Quantum Field of Potential and Spirit.

 

My creations are not God’s creations when made with a separate will by my individual separate mind. But the love that animates mass, known as the adamantine particles, comes from the common origin of Ultimate Love. The Wholeness of God Mind is a Hologram. And all parts are contained within the whole and the whole is contained in all parts.

 

I affirm:

I remove the veils from true seeing, so that the individual “mind film” projected movie I have manifested from the limited, small self I think I am. Behind these veils, Satya-truth exists untainted and undistorted. On the other side of each curtain I have closed across the window of my true Christed Sight, concealing the transfigured magnetism of love, that very love power illuminates my path of awakening with its radiant, great rays. I Realize now that the ahamkar- ego based psychosis and its agenda cannot keep me from being in Samadhi-Oneness with the Will of the Divine Father-Mother Syzgy. The Father-Mother is and will always be omnipresent and within all things throughout the expansiveness of eternity. My brothers, sisters, and I who are One with the Supernal Parents, in this holy instant of now, see beyond all projected macabre images of the individual, separative mind and acknowledge the Satya-truth that transcends all of those phantasms.

 

DAY 30
Divinity Mind is in all things I see because Divinity Mind is in my mind. Though I seem to have experiences generated from a split, separate, ego mind, the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God, the Holy Spirit Creative Aum Vibration was placed in my mind the moment the separation from Divinity Allness seemed to occur (though in reality it did not), giving me the Illumination, Inspiration, Realization, and Revelation that I am still in at-one-ment with my Source. Therefore, I have a light to guide my seeing. To bring me Radical Right Perception or Clairvoyant-Clear Seeing.

 

Today, I can and will focus upon what is Real, the Truth that brings Bliss Unending and Santosha-Contentment. I will look upon a world forgiven and upon every person I see, meet, and greet, with the Eyes of Christ. Of True Self. The Atman. At one with Infinite Brahman Spirit, God Mind, that illuminates my mind. This Divine Source, is something my individual egoic-ahamkar mind tends to ignore and so I see the dance of shadows play out before my body’s eyes. This is only a veil. But it is glorious to know that I do get glimpses of the light that shines behind this curtain as there are holes in it and it is transparent in places. The light that comes through are the flashes of insight or satori that I get directly from the Mind of Divinity that goes by many names.

 

Today, I experience a shift in my awareness. A Divine Realization put there by the Memory of God in my mind. I am the One Creation of the Divine Father-Mother. The Christ. There is only Christ. True Self. The Atman. And I am that. As are all the people and life forms I seem to see on the stage of the world, the miniature model and set built by the collective ego scriptwriter. Though my set design seems to overshadow and hide the Original, Ever-Existing, All-Encompassing Divine design of True Paradise Creation, found in the potential of Energy, Thought, and Light outside the space-time continuum, I can remove this blinder set that I have built as a fence, by opening myself to Divine Realization and Self-Realization in Christ. I am Christ. In Paradise forever, with Paradise Everywhere. The dramas, tragedies, comedies, human romances, and horror shows that seem to play out on the stage my ego-ahamkar calls life, are really temporary delusions. And I can begin to see that they are only delusions by seeing through Spiritual Sight. Through the eyes of the Astral and Causal Bodies beyond the dense physical body eyes that I have used as a replacement for seeing only Oneness.

 

I never left the Mind of God and God never left my Mind. As mentioned above, the Memory of God was put in my mind to bring about a Remembrance of the One Truth that is True Always. I am One in God and therefore, seeing through Christ Vision, True Sight, I see that God Mind is everywhere in everything I look upon, because once again, behind the forms, are the energy potential and life essence that is Pure Beingness.

 

I will apply today’s idea often, ignoring concepts of ‘near’ and ‘far’ for these are avidya-illusions in the grand illusion, and see through the One Lens of the Christed Third Eye, the Presence of the Witnessing Observer. I will notice and gaze upon the One Light, that surrounds all form. I let the One God experienced in many ways, to Reveal Him and Her Self in all things, but not as all things, for my God Transcends all things that appear to be outside of me. I let Paradise Return. Oneness come. Bliss come. As I concentrate through dharana and meditate through dyana, I will see the One Singularity Everywhere.

 

I affirm:

Through sanity and even-mindedness, through Gnosis-Knowledge, I Realize that I am not fragmented and cut off from the Entirety of the Allness that exists in everything that has “Life”. I never lost the Gnosis-Knowledge, the Divine Realization of my unchangeable identity even though I have dissociated from it. The Divine Mind has preserved that true essence of Who I am in Its Emanation of Unending Thoughts. I am contained within the Macrocosmic Wholeness of those Thoughts and energetic pulsations and will always be, forever, in Yoga-Union with the Divine Mind of the Father-Mother.

UNMEDIATED GRACE AND TONGUES OF FIRE: SPIRIT/GNOSIS FREELY GIVEN

If you are tired of hearing me talk about gnosticism, I apologize, but as I distance myself from it, I see some of the fruits of it. That is what I was trying to hint at in my last blog. No, I don’t believe that a lesser spiritual entity, something lesser than God, The most High God who I can accept as a Holy Androgyne of Father-Mother (after all, we were made in the image of God, male/female), created the universe, shaped it, gave it form, tried to breath life into it, then trapped light particles into what became known as the first man, Adam. I don’t give evil that much credit. I do believe as most Christians do, that there is a Satanic Diabolical Intelligence, or being, that influences creation negatively, but, in the end God will always overpower and defeat His Fallen Angel. Evil is clever, but not Ineffable. Satan and his minions are flawed and corrupt while God is all powerful and Imperishable.

Though evil lurks in the shadows and shows itself through things appealing to the eyes and senses, trying to gain our allegiance, we are also pursued ten fold more aggressively by God through His/Her love, grace, outpouring of light and spirit, and His/Her tactics to bring us into full Union with His/Her Fullness, what gnostics call The Pleroma. The experience that I think mainstream Christians need to adopt for the sake of full Self-Realization in God, is the experience of gnosis, or knowledge – self-knowledge and knowledge of God. The source of such experiences are Light, therefore the meaning of Illumination and Enlightenment are known. I believe that this should be an intergal part of not only spiritual formation, but an essential element of salvation (no, I’m not saying these should be the primary means, like gnosticism does; again I think that we need to judge a tree by its fruits and find a cohesion through comparitive religion, something that Jesus did do too) and well-being.

The direction of this blog depends on mentioning what I have to this point.  As a Christian and Catholic, I think we’ve inherited a bankrupt system of sin, punishment, rewards, and what A Course In Miracles calls “special love” and “special hate”. A big problem the whole of Judeo-Christian and Islamic faith systems need to examine are perhaps unconscious beliefs of being “special”, “chosen”, or “the elect” of God. Granted scribes of Holy Books may not have had the contemporary word for the Ego, the type of beliefs I just listed are qualities of an inflated ego. I’m not only pointing my fingers at these faith systems. In a past blog, I pointed out that experiences of gnosis can lead to inflation too.

Understanding that God passionately pursues us, and wants us to “know” him intimately, in our hearts and in our entire beings, is key to the point I want to make today, one that we should fruitfully and freely adopt from gnostic theology and soteriology. Gnostics teach that the experience of gnosis or what others may call “Christ consciousness”, is an unmediated experience of grace. The idea is that priestcraft or episcopasy (bishops) should not ever stand in the way of a personal experience of God’s love, rather gnosis is not dependent upon an intermediary. As a seminarian, I need to maintain my identity as a member of the laity, from this day onwards, on the day of my ordination to the priesthood, and every day thereafter. My studies in gnosticism have humbled me. I’m not going to advocate that everyone abandon their faith practices, take up gnosticism or a perverted ascetic form of it, and become a recluse. Please don’t misunderstand what I am trying to advocate for. As a Catholic, I have integrated Buddhist interests, and ideas from spiritual teachers such as Eckhart Tolle, Gary R. Renard, Deepak Chopra, and Wayne Dyer. This doesn’t make me any less Christian. Perhaps the teachings of other spiritually advanced mentors, carry some of the yeast to make the Bread of Life rise to its potential.

SO, UNMEDIATED GRACE. PERSONAL EXPERIENCES OF GOD. EVENTS SIMILAR TO PENTECOST WHEN TONGUES OF FIRE AND THE HOLY SPIRIT POURED ITSELF OUT FREELY ON ON THE APOSTLES, without expectation or foreknowledge (other than that Yeshua the Messiah send he would send an Advocate) – this is something to savor and encourage. I need to talk out of both sides of my mouth for a minute. Adopting this belief, where you may “close the door, and meet the Father in your inner room”, don’t excuse you from being an active member of The Body of Christ. As Father Richard Rohr taught in a series about the Apostle Paul, the life of the Church is participation. He emphasized this over and over, but DID say that what we can learn from Paul’s life as well, is finding deep meaning and love in personal revelations of God to his Children.

So, if the Holy Fire descends upon you, you don’t necessarily need to talk in tongues or prophecy. You are allowed to cherish the experience and remain in God’s love. Eventually, though, like the Apostles who saw Jesus transfigured, you do have to come down off that mountain top experience and go back into the valleys and get your hands dirty, or incarnate again. I wouldn’t be responsible if I didn’t say to the everyday enlightened gnostic: “remain in that love, KNOW HIM/HER, but please, devote yourself to sharing what you learn/experience with a world desperately in need of Light workers.” Yes, you are one too.

I just want to say, in closing, that I have integrated a practice into my life that has been fruitful, intensely loving, and full of that Holy Fire. Awhile back, even before I began to study gnosticism, I felt moved by the Holy Spirit to celebrate The Eucharist or Holy Communion. No, I haven’t been formally ordained or received the laying on of hands and thereby receiving apostolic succession, but like on Pentecost, the spirit comes and it does transform the elements of bread and wine into the Spiritual Food, I like so many people savor. This isn’t a replacement for experiencing traditional sacraments ministered by a priest or a deacon. I do value clergy very highly. In a recent internet search, I found a site belonging to The Gnostic Order of Christ. They advocated for and had a Eucharistic liturgy for people who could not get to a priest.  They consider it valid and powerful. I do too. So, why become a priest? Standing in for Christ and being Christ for others is a necessary vocation. People need a shepard, and Christ calls them into service to Him and The Holy Androgyne. I am meant to do more than administer sacraments. I want to be a spiritual director, a healer, and a vehicle to inspire peace, love, justice, surrender, transformation, transcendence of the violence that keeps cultures intact, and to be a “deathwalker”, as shamans call it, helping souls transition to the realm of eternity. Wishing you peace and resolve.