A BURNING LOVE THAT IS BURIED

Deep beneath the surface of the conscious mind, lies buried, a burning love for the Divine’s embrace and the memory of His (& Hers) Love for us. I won’t get into the various theories about levels of the mind, but we need to penetrate that deep layer in our subconscious, which is at the collective level, beneath even, the archetypes (ruling idea energies identified by Swiss Psychiatrist Carl Jung) that we share in common. That level is the level of miracle-mindedness as is emphasized in the Complete and Annotated Edition of A Course in Miracles, early on.

Why would the deepest layer of the mind contain the real ‘gold’ of wholeness, oneness, and the memory of communion and union with the Divine? Because, we dissociated, or blocked out the memory of perfect oneness and union with Perfect, Infinite Love. Long ago, when we made the decision that if we could not receive special favor from the Father/Mother Source and be elevated above our fellow Sons and Daughters of our Supernal Parents, that we would reject the purity and holiness of non-discriminating love, we ‘rejected’ our Creator and tried to project outward into nothingness, a world where we thought we could try to be our own father. This is when the ego was created. Then through more projection and the illusion of fracturing what we had known as ‘reality’, a big bang of consciousness occurred. And thence started into motion, the making of worlds, not just our own. We thought we had accomplished a great feat by causing a rift in our minds, a split where we could ‘make’ (not create, for true creation only takes place in Heaven) a new reality. But we immediately felt guilt over trying to separate from the Divine out of a fear of being punished for this supposed crime of trying to become our own god. This guilt is what fueled the dissociation, where we tried to forget our true nature and the blissful reality of being in communion with the Divine.

That is just a brief description of what the act of separation (which never really happened) looked like and how we came to bury our memory of both our burning love for God and His for us. Out of His Love for us, at the moment when the ‘big bang’ occurred and the making of an alternate reality was set in motion, He had a plan, which A Course In Miracles calls the Atonement, or the correction process. It was then that He planted the memory of Him, His Love, and our oneness with Him in our minds. That memory, that Voice, that Advocate, that Comforter was the Holy Spirit, the answer to the dissociation and forgetting due to the massive block created by guilt in our split minds.

God never left us, and we in truth never left God. We just blocked out His memory in our minds. And this led to massive suffering and denial on our part. But still we yearned for a father figure to be in union with and to serve. We chose the ‘ego’ as our father, but the ego could never fill the space in our minds and hearts reserved only for the Divine Father. And so we search, we yearn, we strive, we go on the defensive, and we attack ourselves and others, trying to find what we think we lost. Our true Treasure. We compete out of hate for others, for what we in our split minds, think only we are entitled to. That special favor from God, the thought that started the whole process of separation in motion.

Now we need miracles to correct the thought process that induced our massive denial of that intense and burning love we really long for (and fear) and that is the true motive behind all our actions, many times, however, masked by attack, blame, and hate. Why would we do this to ourselves? It’s a mystery. But it only took one ‘tiny tick of time’. And so we seem to be in exile, trying to journey back to the place we never left, our Home in Heaven. That journey can be sped up by accepting the Atonement, the correction for our misperceptions and errors, by practicing forgiveness, releasing guilt, and choosing love over fear.

Sometimes all we need to do, is to still our minds, pause, and take a step back to receive the guidance we need to change how we see things. If we took the time to go to peace, and to truly listen for God’s Voice (The Holy Spirit in our minds), we would begin to break through the barriers that stand in the way to the remembrance of that Primal Love which we buried in our subconscious, the very love that we are afraid of. It is time to knock down the walls and remove the masks to this precious gift.

 

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CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 55 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 21-25)

DAY 55
Today I will review the following affirmations, spending two minutes reflecting on each one.

 

DAY 21
With alignment to Infinite Willpower given to me by God Mind, I am determined to see objectively, from my Inner Witnessing Presence Awareness in a different, more clear perspective, seeing through the One Reality of Love in Radical Right Perception and Christ-Atman-Buddha-Krishna Mind Vision. I want to be liberated in this life through moksha. To break free from the cycle of birth and death. To let go of my grievances, my anger, to see not through my klesha-afflictions, but through the One Love that unites us all.

 

All that I seem to see are images of disease, disaster, and death, Jeshua (Jesus) says. God Presence did not intend this for His/Her Sons and Daughters. The fact that I see these things proves that I misunderstand the Divine Source and therefore don’t correctly realize who His Son is. That of which I see indicates to me, I do not realize who I really am. I have the volition through Infinite Willpower to see only the truth of my being, not avidya-illusions.

 

DAY 22
The images and thoughts of which I interpret to mean something with a negatively charged vibration are really an assault on the little self I call ‘me’. When I identify with an individual, separate, different from others self, I perceive and interpret the world to be an attack on my egoic false-self. I am not an individual self. I am part of One Whole Unified Field of Love and Light. When I believe I am an individual self instead of the Son/Daughter of God, the True Self Christ and Atman, I am assaulting myself with unconscious fragments and slivers of false thought. When I deny assault in my individual mind, I use the egoic film projector to create and interpret that very assault as coming from an outside world, disowning it. My response is to enshroud myself in a bubble of protection from that world and attack and assault it, my brothers and sisters in spirit, and all of which I seem to perceive. I get caught in the vicious cycle of the egoic-ahamkar manifestation of drama comprised of conflict, where I seem to see assault and attack and then feel the intense need to counter attack. This will continue to happen until I liberate my mind through Jnana Yogic discrimination. Using the buddhi-intellect, I deny the manas-sense-mind from taking control of what I interpret to be a hostile reality, that in truth is an illusion. I must and can escape from my ingrained perceptual hoax, the carnal, savage movie I out-picture as a world filmstrip, with attached sound, tainted light beams, moving images, a script, sets, props, tragedies and comedies at the expense of truth, and actors and actresses, who I think are making independent choices, when in reality I am making them up from the one ahamkar-ego that is appearing as a multiplicity of egos.

 

The world I perceive is not a representation of vibratory loving thoughts. As Jeshua Jesus says, “It is a picture of attack on everything by everything. It is anything but a reflection of the Love of God and the Love of His Son.” I must affirm that it is my own thoughts of threat that paint this picture of life as I know it in this world. I must know that my loving and peaceful thought waves that will liberate me from such a perception of the world, and give me the bliss-peace-shimmering-light Divine Presence wants me to have.
Today I will change my thoughts to change the world I see.

 

DAY 23
I can dream a new dream, see a new world order by surrendering my assaulting thoughts that my individual egoic-ahamkar mind projects outward into the sea of nothingness-void, by letting the Radical Right Minded Projector shine Light and Love rather than the despair of fear. Free breeds anger. Anger produces assault and attack thoughts. The only release from fear comes by transforming my chitta-mind stuff, the vritti-fluctuations of the mind. By making my mind still and empty. By changing what I project. By extending only Loving thoughts. By welcoming in the neutral mind and caring for the aura and radiant bodies that are at my core, from the existence of the nine other bodies outside the physical. I must go beyond the physical sheath, the anna maya kosha out to the intellectual sheath or the buddhi mind, the mano maya kosha, and out even further to the Bliss sheath, the ananda maya kosha. Bliss will eradicate the fear that produces assault and attack thoughts. Perceiving with the physical ego-body’s eyes will always breed assault and defensiveness stemming from fear of danger.

 

Though I can be a change agent in the world, there is no real point in trying to manipulate outer appearances of form. At the level of causation and ideational thought, I must create in alignment with God Mind, a different experience while in the illusory world. Changing at the level of cause will change the effect on the movie screen of the matrix ego-womb mind. The world I seem to perceive is an assault on myself. But the illusory external unreality cannot really harm me in all honesty. The movie dream my split mind projects is not True Seeing. This is not sight, but hallucination. Image making is not the same as resting in Pure Being or Samadhi Oneness with Divine God Mind. My false-self superimposes images of assault and they seem to assault me back. Radical Right Perception must be welcomed by my Higher Mind, the Christ Mind-Atman Self. Mirages do not last and cannot have Infinite effects. Communion and Yoga-Union with God will be the Everlasting Will that extends rather than projects.

 

Aligning with Radical Right Perception and even going beyond perception at all levels to Gnosis-Knowledge or Divine Realization and Divine Contact will bring about true liberation from karma or the law of cause and effect that seems to bind me to all the physical bodies I have inhabited in life time after life time. I am tired of dying and coming back to the world I hallucinate in conjunction with the one fractured collective ego. Some people call the liberation I seek, salvation, but liberation has a different connotation.

 

Under the spell of maya-hypnosis, I do not see that I am the filmmaker, seeming to direct this motion-picture film drama of apparent happenings. My Christ Mind can change what is playing in the theater of shadows and replace the disturbing, violent, horror film, the product of fear and hate and must replace it with a different film which was made by Divinity Allness, Supreme Spirit, Brahman-Father-Mother, the moment the separation seemed to occur (although it did not), when the Memory of my Divine Origin was placed in my mind, Kundalini Desire Energy or the Rising Potential of Holy Spirit.

 

By surrendering assaulting thoughts, I am liberated. Without thoughts having the intent to harm, I would not perceive a world filled with assault and threats of danger. Today, I allow forgiveness to bring love back into my mind field, so as to only see a world of peace and safety and joy. I choose these things instead of what I now perceive.

 

DAY 24
My individual, egoic-ahamkar misuses the faculties of perception to receive messages that do not reflect what is of optimum wellness and truly right and good for me. Self and Christ-Realization is the only goal I should have. Due to strongly identifying with an individual, isolated self appearing to be in this world exile experience in the unpredictable wilderness, I seem to be under a spell of delusion that prevents me from perceiving outcomes to expectations that will bring me Supreme Santosha-Contentment. Alone and apart from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of Divinity Origin, the Holy Desire-Energy-Spirit in my mind, I have no real guide to making the best choices that would bring about Supreme Santosha-Contentment and my overall good. What I have perceived with my individual egoic-ahamkar have been misconstrued and untrue and therefore what I have chosen to do in almost all circumstances has depended upon my interpretations and perceptions. So, I must embrace acceptance that I apart from God Mind do not recognize what is Radically Right for me to do. To do what is Radically Right and good should be my only expectation at all times, because I am prone to hypnotic confusion about what is the best outcome for my True Self, Christ and Atman Self. Recognizing that on my own, I will be unclear about what is of optimum wellness for me, opens me to being taught by the Inner Guru, Inner Wisdom, Universal Inspiration, and the Intuitive Guide Within. Asleep at the wheel of this earth-bound experience will only block learning. Today, I take a step towards expanding my mind about what is Radically Right for me to do while in this body vehicle, seeming to interact with outer objects, people, and experiences.

 

How can I recognize what is of true, optimum wellness for me when I do not know who I am? What I think is truly right and good for me really keep me in bondage to delusions. I affirm and commit to listening to the guide Divine Presence gave to me in my mind the second separation seemed to occur. I realize I cannot perceive optimum wellness and what is truly right and good for me on my own.

 

Today, I must be brutally honest with myself so as not to fall victim to contradictory outcomes, by accepting that my individual, isolated self knows nothing on its own. This is an important step in the process of unraveling the mind from the web of maya I am stuck in. I want to awaken in this lifetime.

 

 

DAY 25
I am not aware in this moment in time and space, what anything I seem to see with the body’s eyes are for. Purpose and meaning are the same. But my individual mind has confused and tried to replace the purpose of Christ Mind and the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God with a delusory thought system. I have many mistaken ideas when I choose to associate with the ego thought system. Since I do not know what any given thing I perceive is for, it by default has no meaning for me. It is time to let go of the meaning the egoic-ahamkar thought system has assigned to everything I seem to encounter in this world dream. Everything in this world is supposed to be for my own best interests, according to the ego. But this is not the case. By design these things are supposed to fulfill me. That is what all things are supposed to be for under the thought system of the egoic-ahamkar. That is the purpose they are supposed to serve. The individual mind tells me that. Under this premise, my goals are in turn supposed to be unified. But this simply doesn’t happen when under the spell of illusion, subjectivity, and relativity. Everything becomes a blur and a distortion made to keep me asleep.
When I perceive with the individual, separative, subjective mind, I am unaware of what things are for and this mind gives meaning with its interpretation system. The aspirations and goals that originate in the individual mind that is separate from God Mind, are not in my own best interests, because I am in Reality not the individual egoic-ahamkar mind. My false association with the ego’s dream causes me to be incapable of knowing what anything means and what anything is for. Once I accept and acknowledge this, I will stop reinforcing my individual mind’s aspirations for the world dream I seem to experience and pull back from the projected images of these unconscious wishes. When I turn off the ego film projector by aligning with God and Christ Mind there will be a blank screen filled with golden-white light that the darkness of the images and wishes were hiding. Since I am only part of One Unified Mind, the wishes and desires of the individual mind really are concerned with nothing at all. By holding these wishes and desires as special, my individual mind has no goals, in the scope of what is True and Real, and therefore, I can’t know what anything is for.

 

When thinking in terms of superficiality, my egoic-ahamkar mind understands purpose, but True Purpose cannot be comprehended with superficial vibrations. The magnetism of thought at this level is weak and foggy at best. Today, I realize that the purpose of everything and everyone I think of and see is to convince me that my avidya-illusions about myself are in effect real and true. I have a false belief that the world is for telling me these things that are not really true. The purpose I have given the film dream movie of a world led to a terror-inducing picture of it. Today, I commit to opening and expanding my mind to the world’s real purpose which is to teach me to wake up and be only Love for All in All.

 

In order to awaken, to grow in understanding, and to evolve, I must surrender and let go of the individual goals that come from the ego mind. Individual goals mean nothing. As mentioned in the previous day’s contemplation, Self and Christ-Realization, Divine Realization of who I really am is the only goal and will I really should and do have. Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 42

DAY 42
My deep abiding faith, belief, and power to Love comes from the Presence of God within. Christ Vision is the Father-Mother’s gift to my True Self and brings blessings of Joy and Peace.

 
Today’s idea is significant. It establishes a cause and effect relationship between what I perceive myself to be and have and what I can and will see. All power comes from the Infinite Dynamo of Energy and the Will of God, works through me, giving me sight. Helping me to see that wholeness is in all things. I of myself do nothing.

 

As my strength, I receive all that is necessary to extend Love and join with others. I have the power and ability to create beauty through wonder. This strength, power, and ability is freely streamed to me wherever I am or seem to be. Synchronous moments of being in a certain time and place in the space-time continuum with certain happenings and teachable moments are the result of Divine Presence’s gifts to me. I align with Real Christ Presence.

 

There is never a moment I am without the strength and God Power of Divine Presence-Divine Mind. I am always protected from all harm and cannot be threatened. If I am feeling vulnerable, I am refraining from seeing innocence and need to dissolve the karma created by image making and insane beliefs coming from my sick mind. If beliefs and karma could not be undone by God Power, I would be stuck in the mental asylum of the world filled with tamasic-darkening inertia, or hell-like, dense vibrations that lead to suffering and the perception of endless pain. I can make a beautiful film script and project a life of Love through Christ Vision because this gift is downloaded from the Infinite Spirit of God Presence and the Eternal, Immortal Mind.

 

I am not bound to the illusion of hell, nor to the images of hell that the Sonship and I have created of a place that does not exist, where suffering is ongoing and never ending, in the false notion of an underworld and afterlife that is terror-ridden and where neurotic guilt leads to unnerving suffering and agony, both mental and spiritual. This cannot be. Let me have True Vision of the Christ-Atman True Self, now. This Vision is inherent in my innermost being. It is my inheritance. I can and will see differently, because I am One in Yoga-Union with the Mind of God. Through the yoga of mental discrimination, I will see that I am either creating a subjective-relative blind state, dreaming of a devil ego-ahamkar through illusion or Seeing Truly that there can in reality be no duality, no suffering, and no pain. Only Bliss, Peace, and Joy are the gifts of clairvoyant clear-intuitive seeing.

 

I can and will escape the hell I made through trying to be independent and an individual, isolated mind, rebelling against Paradise Oneness. On my own, I can do nothing. With God Mind, God Presence, all things are possible and all misperceptions are corrected.

 

Two three-to-five-minute contemplative sittings are recommended for today, one of which should be soon after I wake and another done in stillness before I retire for sleep for the night.

 

I will begin my chanting by repeating the today’s maxim slowly, keeping the eyes open. Then I will close the doors of my body’s perceptual faculties and repeat the mantra affirmation even slower. I will empty my mind field of all thought vibrations except those which relate to the central affirmation for today.

 

I may contemplate the following:

 

“Christ Vision is possible because the Presence of God extends and emanates to me with Power and Truth now.”

 

Or

 

“The gifts of Divine God Presence has to be mine for the reason that my Source shares them with me. We are One. I am the Will of God Presence and have everything my Source does.”

 

I will step back and let thoughts simply flow. I will not strain to find thoughts that are pertinent, rather instead focus on saying these mantras slowly. Today, I affirm once again:

 

“My deep abiding faith, belief, and power to Love comes from the Presence of God within. Christ Vision is the Father-Mother’s gift to my True Self and brings blessings of Joy and Peace.”

 

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)