DESIRE: UNDERSTANDING THE NATURE OF PRAYER

Desire is the basic life energy that motivates everything we think, do, and feel. Regardless of how you view desire, either as something meant to bring you what you want or as the source of all striving which leads ultimately to suffering, we can’t ignore its power and significance.

Desire energy is what created us as Pure Spirit in the Fullness of Heaven. The Divine is Holy Desire. The desire to extend Love. Real and True Love. If we were begotten by Love, which came from desire, that too must be a part of our make up and inherent nature.

I am of the belief that we must harness desire, no matter what metaphysics or ontology you might subscribe to. I say that because it is such a powerful source. In the view of A Course In Miracles, a non-dualistic teaching said to have come from Jeshua (Jesus) himself, the Collective Son/Daughter of God, the Sonship desired to experience something “special”, something more than God, whether you view the Divine as Father or not, it doesn’t really matter (although I believe The Course ultimately points towards a personal God instead of just some energy or essence). The text of that now widely disseminated teaching, says we attempted to usurp the power of God. We, in one insane moment, as a collective whole thought we could experience something better than Oneness with the Father (the term The Course uses to denote God). As a result, a separate state (seemed) to emerge, thus causing a split, in the One Mind we shared with God, leaving us with not only a collective, but personal ego.

Getting back to desire, it is, I believe, at the root of everything as I mentioned above. For the purpose of this short article, I want to now turn to desire as the driving force behind prayer.

All prayer is desire in motion. Even animals pray, expressing a desire to find food or a place to sleep. They are driven by desire. They can’t escape the drive of desire. Neither can we. Though I am not going to take sides on what we should or shouldn’t pray for in our lives, we need to understand that in some way, every prayer we offer up is an expression of the desire energy that, again, is at the core of who we are. Though desire and love are related, desire can be expressed as fear and all the emotions that stem from fear as well. When we turn to a “Higher Power” to seek guidance, and even when we pray to receive “things”, we are doing it directly out of the Desire Energy that courses through us.

Prayer in my belief, the way I have come to understand it through various mystical teachings, should first be an expression of Love, Devotion, or Communion with our  Source. We need to “return” to our Source of Oneness (though in reality I believe that we never truly separated from the Father, we just appear to be in exile here on earth) when we offer up what is in our hearts. If we just pray for things, what the supplement The Song of Prayer that was channeled and received after the publishing of A Course in Miracles, calls “idols”, we are at a low rung on the “ladder of prayer” that leads us back to a state of communion and union with God. If we seek communion and union first, to express the “Song” that is sung between us and God, all things ‘shall be added unto us’. Jeshua once taught in his sermon on the Mount that if we seek first the Kingdom of Heaven, all things shall be added unto us. The things we really need to get along in this world (not just the things we want) will come in the form of “echoes”, a secondary reply to prayer we offer up.

It is all about alignment. If we are in alignment with the Father (Or Mother, if you prefer), we will be taken care of and all our ‘true desires’, those that are expressions of love, not fear of being either abandoned or rejected, by the Divine Lover, will be heard, and we will receive just what we are asking for whether it is something real or something illusory. If we pray or desire something illusory we are desiring nothing and will receive exactly that – and thereby experience emptiness, that we will long to fill with more “things” or “idols”.  I just wanted to provoke thought by writing this, not cause the reader to feel guilt or remorse. It is my belief, that we should aim high, ‘go for the gold’, seek our treasure which is eternal, and align ourselves with the Divine Presence if we are to be truly happy. This will satisfy our deepest yearning and “true desires”.

Just know that thoughts do manifest in some form. And we do get what we ask for in some way. That is the nature of desire at work. We were created in the image and likeness of God and have the ability to turn our thoughts into form. We need to respect the power of desire, and like I said earlier, harness it, direct it wisely, and for Love. That is the only way we will find lasting peace and joy. Prayer is not just about offering praise and adoration, for God does not have an ego. It is about joining. Returning to the Heart of the Divine Presence. Our Source of endless love and our ‘true sustenance’.  Therefore, use your desire to join, first with the Divine, then with others, out of love, and everything you truly need will be provided for Love does not abandon or deny Itself.

 

 

 

 

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CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 44

DAY 44

 

Through Gnosis-Knowing and Divine Realization, contact with the Light of Father-Mother God, the Immortal Indwelling, is possible. This contact and awareness is the powerful Light Source that allows me to see the True Reality of Love right now.

 

 

Darkness tries to impede seeing. I cannot manufacture the Light of God Presence that shines bright in me now. I need but realize His/Her Real Presence. The Christ is that Light. Through Radical Right Sight, I realize that miracles are made possible by connecting with the Radiance within my mind. If I isolate my self through wrong-minded thinking, I will not see the Light of Christ that I am at my center.

 

For there to be Radical Right Sight, I need to accept that Christ Light can flash across my mind in my third eye, the gateway to intuitive seeing and gnosis-knowing. That light is not outside of me. The ability to see is not found outside of me. The Christ is within. The Christ is who I was created to be. Christ Vision is always possible when I am in contact with the Light of Father-Mother God, the Supernal Parent-Source. The Love and Light that makes seeing possible will bring about the realization of my True Self as being in Communion with the Supernal Parent.

 

Today, I dedicate myself to quieting my mind and trying to reach within to my center, the Blessed Holy Spirit and Christ Mind. I am still trying to discipline my mind and till the soil to plant new seeds for Radical Right Sight. I am a Cosmic Mass unfolding at the altar of peace, joy, and happiness. With confidence, I invite other minds to join me at the Feast of Self-Remembering. Partaking of the Bread of Infinite Sustenance and the Ambrosial Wine-Light alive in the metaphysical spine. I allow Kundalini Christed Desire-Energy to awaken and rise on the altar of my metaphysical spine, the highway to Self and God-Realization.

 

I transform the density I think I am by offering it up freely to be blessed by the Light of the Supernal Parent Source within the crown chakra. The light descends through the other main energy vortexes and illumines every nadi, nerve channel and plexi, that creates a Supreme Feeling of Oneness with the All while inhabiting a body. This transfiguration allows me to see my True Nature as a Son/Daughter of God, whom I am in Union and Communion with the One God Mind appearing to be many.
I will contemplate today’s mantra with Love, recite it, chant it, live and breathe it at least three times, for a duration of three to five minutes, and longer only if no struggle or strain is induced in centering on this prayer for today.

 

Today, I leave behind old worn out and false thinking. I now believe and see differently than I did before. It is time to step outside and witness the folly of the egoic-ahamkar, by observing its meaningless, fearful ways. I will remind myself that I can and will escape darkness through the openness to Inner Transfiguration and recognition of the Christ Light Presence placed upon my inner altar. It’s Radiance is Knowable and capable of restoring me from my blindness caused by illusions. Therefore, I relax, and release the seeds of karma stored within my chakras, the seeds that are linked to darkness. I let the Christ Light shine away and magnetically bless all tamasic-darkening dense vibrations that limit my seeing. I choose wisely, in favor of the Transfiguration of the Inner Christ, the reflected nature of Father-Mother, Brahman Immortal. I see with metaphysical eyes, transcending sensory body-based seeing.

 

 

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 41

DAY 41

 

The Father-Mother, Divine Guiding Light, Universal Spirit leads me and accompanies me on this journey, this exile, through the wilderness of the world, every step of the way, as I seek the Inner Promised Land of sweetness, milk and honey wholeness.

 

 

My intuitive fiery guide has never left me, even after I attempted to rebel and remove myself from the loving embrace of God Divine, the moment I tried to usurp His/Her power by choosing to be my own God apart and separate from that One Source of Inspiration.

 

 

I have no reason to feel lonely anymore. In truth, I have not been abandoned though I tried to abandon Father-Mother. This discernment and mental discrimination about what is truly real will allow me to triumph over all feelings of isolation, alienation, and abandonment. I have been depressed because of my decision to separate. It is the effect of that terrible choice. With depression comes all anxious, worrisome, helpless, miserable, fearful thoughts and all forms of perceived suffering. It is time to dissolve this accumulated karma, so I don’t have to continue to reap the negative effects of what I have sown.

 

 

In trying to be separate, I have concocted many supposed remedies for what I believe to be the insanity of the world I see. However, one thing I have not done is to call into question the reality of the perceived problem of there being a mental asylum ‘out there’ that I am subject to. There is no need to cure insanity and mental affliction, the effects of egoic-ahamkar separation because the perceived problem is not real. Today’s mental exercise has the ability to end all folly permanently. It is folly, though appearing to be quite concerning.

 

 

Within the nucleus of who I really am is the perfection of Oneness eager to shine forth as Great Rays of Truth out into the world I see through the manas-sense-mind eyes. This perfection and light will be the healing agent of all mental agony, perceived pain, the battle with fear, and any perception of loss. This truth-reality will align my mind with Reality, showing me that the suffering is not real and I cannot be harmed in any way as I am in Samadhi-Oneness, in God Communion and Yoga-Union with the Infinite.

 

 

My perfect wholeness is never taken from me, because its Divine Origin, the Source from which it came, is with me always, in all ways, everywhere I go. Endless Joy is my real experience making suffering impossible. My mind is still and at peace, because no matter where I appear to be, even stuck in the space-time continuum filled with forms and fearful images, Divinity is near and within, wherever I appear to be.

 

 

I must not believe this Truth, because it is hidden in the subconscious depths, behind the pits of despair and beneath the density of tamasic-darkening inertia, the matterward pull and afflicted thoughts which obscure me from seeing through Christed Vision. Today is about treading through the darkness, and shining a light out into the clouds that deter me from seeing and knowing that Divinity goes with me everywhere all of the time.

 

 

Today, I commit to one long practice period, first thing in the morning, when I arise, sitting in contemplation for three to five minutes closing the curtains of my body’s eyes from everything that appears to be external to my mind. First, I will repeat the idea slowly and make no concerted effort to think of anything at all. My goal is to simply turn away from the outside world, and close the door to my inner room, the Upper Room where Higher Awareness resides. I will pierce the veil to my inner tabernacle, penetrating the depths of my True Mind, ignoring thoughts that may try to invade and distract me.

 

 

At times throughout the day, I will repeat the mantra for today. But the true goal, is to go deep within and detach myself from all the troubling thoughts that are attached to the world I see. I will leave the appearances of forms, instead seeking the Ineffable Reality of All that Is, as it is, in the Heavenly Cosmos I never left now.

 

 

I can attain God Communion now and in every Holy Instant. It is natural to do so. The way to Bliss, Joy, and santosha-contentment will show itself, and I will become consciously aware of being One, in Samadhi with God Divine, by surrendering my entire attention to the inner layers of my being.

 

 

Throughout the day, I will chant today’s mantra often, with slow repetitions, closing my eyes whenever possible and I will contemplate what the word vibrations mean and how they feel in my metaphysical energy body. I will allow Kundalini Desire Energy to rise and expand my awareness of the wholeness and sanctity that complete me. It is time that I begin to laugh at all my fearful insinuations, and remember the Father-Mother, Divine Guiding Light, Universal Spirit leads me and accompanies me on this journey, this exile, through the wilderness of the world, every step of the way, as I seek the Inner Promised Land of sweetness, milk and honey wholeness.

 

 

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 33

DAY 33

I will now perceive the projected world dream, the maya motion picture of dancing illusions, in a radically different manner. I will gaze upon it with Love and with the Vision of the True Self-Christ and Atman Self and see only God behind the image of all things. Oh, Immortal God, oh Dao, oh Brahman Supreme, Father-Mother Allness help me see with spiritual sight.

 
When I look upon the outside dream, collective and personal, the dream of hell, as the Toltecs calls it, I have the tendency to shut God out of the movie. I don’t see him with the body’s eyes. So, this day, morning and evening, for five minutes at a time, I vow to look with Christ Vision and to see from a perspective coming from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God, the Holy Spirit Mother, Fiery Kundalini Desire Energy in my mind, adding new frames to the filmstrip being projected outward onto the screen of Infinite Light.

 

Today, I let a shift take place in my perception and imaging of both my inner and outer worlds. I can allow God Mind and Jeshua Jesus to guide my Real Mind to survey the world and show me a different dream. A Happy Dream. A Loving Dream. A dream where I Love my brothers and sisters in spirit through miracle-mindedness and see only Love in them, eradicating all projected, unconscious guilt coming from my false self cellar where cob webs dwell. I align myself with the attic of the mansion of God with its many rooms in which I am called to dwell and awake in. Forgiveness is the Lamp that lights my Realization and Radical Right Sight.

 

 

Today, I will notice, observe, and simply witness things in the world without casting judgment upon what I see. Inner teacher guide me. Through objectivity and contemplation, in many frequent shorter sittings, I will allow sparks of God Light to shine and shimmer, illuminating the path before me, on which I will travel home to Paradise Oneness, that I, in reality never left. Let this day be a Homecoming as the prodigal Son or Daughter, being fully embraced by Father-Mother God’s Love. As the Christ Awareness holds His hand on my shoulder, I look upon a world of light that shines away all darkness. Today, I realize that I can perceive God Mind in all things, beyond the image of all things and bodies. Realization, that I am in Reality, still at One with God brings comfort. I will stop listening to the lies of the little, individual mind whose outlook is distorted and the product of a hazy, almost intoxicated-like hallucination. Holy Spirit, sober my seeing. Kundalini rise and empower me. Bring me the joy of Gnosis, Divine Realization, Revelation, and Knowledge about my Source. Through my third eye ajna chakra, let me see intuitively what is really present in the Unified Field of Love, standing in the circumference of the Radiant Rays Emanating outward from The One Real Allness Center of True Creation. Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.

 

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)