We all strive. We all search. We all yearn. We hunger for meaning in our lives. This search can take many forms and can be expressed in many different ways, all seemingly unique to each person and their body-mind complex. What is it that we want? What is it that we think we need? After many decades of searching myself for those things I just listed, I believe it is purpose.
We want to know who we truly are and what our purpose is here in the world. Our purpose is to love, to forgive, and to offer miracles of healing and transformation. As A Course In Miracles teaches, we chose to come here to reject God and try to become our own creator. We had a major authority problem, and didn’t like that there was a will for us in our creation in the realm of Heaven, for that is where all true “creation” takes place. Everything here in this world or in other worlds is just a substitute, and takes place through the act of “making”, which can’t be equated with True Creation as it occurs in Heaven, whether through the Divine which ‘The Course’ calls “Father” or by His Sonship (consisting of the entirety of extended beings of formless light who share one common identity, known as Christ).
Christ means something very different in A Course In Miracles than it does in traditional Christianity. Though it has been translated to mean the “Anointed One”, it is in ‘The Course’s’ view, a collective identity which we all share. We all, in it’s teachings are that one Son (sorry to use masculine terminology, but that is what A Course in Miracles does – and it certainly doesn’t make it absolute, but it uses “Son” to connote something beyond gender and individuality. And the “Christ” was never meant to be a title that was reserved only for the man Jeshua (Jesus), either, it says, though he too was that same “Christ”.
If our True Identity is “Christ”, the one Self that we all share, what does that mean for our purpose? ‘The Course’ doesn’t use the specific word purpose, rather it says we all have a ‘special function’ or calling we were designed to carry out in God’s plan for liberation (salvation) from guilt and suffering in ourselves and also in helping to free others. Finding out what that function is takes discernment, but it usually involves what we are good at, what we are passionate about, and what can serve the highest good for our “brothers” (and sisters). Searching for our special function, discerning what it is, is a process and can be aided through prayer, spiritual practice, meditation, and through holy relationships and joining with others in a common goal.
Discernment is something we do not want to rush. We need to seek guidance. That means gathering information, asking the Divine to illumine our minds, and having an active prayer life. It helps to work with someone who has been on the spiritual path longer than we have who can be a holy listener and a sounding board for what we are attempting to process and filter through our human brains. But there are ways that we can actively seek guidance on our own and to receive answers. It is all about how we frame the questions. That will be an ongoing topic covered on these posts.
Today, I just wanted to introduce the ideas of what our identity is and what it means to discern our special function. But guidance can come in many forms and it is usually happens differently for everyone. Some receive inner guidance through an inner voice, while others may receive it in the form of imagery, or an inner ‘knowing’ or ‘feeling state’. Again though, we will talk more about how to ask and receive guidance in the future.
For now, just know who you really are. Jeshua (Jesus) was not the only begotten Son of God and we, like him are the Sons and Daughters of the Divine, an identity which we all share. Take comfort in knowing that (or at least considering the possibility). Peace and joy to you.
Today I will review the following affirmations:
The thoughts of assault, attack, and intent to harm and cause pain and suffering are assaulting and attacking my state of shimmering bliss-peace, Santosha-Contentment, and sense of security. If I can be assaulted, attacked, in pain, and harmed then I am not in a state of security and am prone to danger and fear. It is my individual mind, the egoic-ahamkar, small and false-self that believes I can be assaulted, attacked, harmed, or even killed, due to the fact that this mind believes I have attacked and harmed my small self. In reality this cannot happen, because my True Christed Self cannot be harmed or be subject to dangerous forms of behavior and thinking and the Christed Self is all that is Real in the Divine Allness’ Primal Creation. This concept that I believe I can be attacked and harmed and that I am inflicting emotional and psychological, and even the possibility of physical pain upon myself is a Law of Mind that I need to understand and turn the tables on it. To see that cause and effect are this law and that what I think causes what I will appear and seem to experience while in this world drama that unfolds daily, and moment by moment as I choose separation instead of Yoga-Union or Communion with The Father-Mother.
I am beginning to realize and grow in the awareness that I always threaten to harm myself first. Again, holding thoughts of harm and intent to inflict pain of any kind towards myself and others in all instances entails that I believe I am in fact capable of being harmed or subject to pain and suffering, and that thoughts that stem from this belief are meant to weaken me. If I believe I am capable of being harmed and subject to pain and suffering, I am inducing a form of harm upon my false self, that is the only self that could experience such devastation. I am the Christ. The Son of God. I really cannot be harmed. I only think I can be and am in turn an individual body and brain that is suffering. When I do this or believe this in any way, a falsely imagined picture of myself tries to take the place of my Christed Nature that is in Samadhi-Oneness with God forever.
I must realize that it is the thoughts that I have in my split, separate mind that make me feel I can be subject to pain, the klesha-afflictions, and suffering of any kind. By changing and reversing my thoughts through contemplation and affirmation, I can prevent this from happening on a more regular basis and hopefully, always.
I can’t know who I am if I perceive myself as under a constant threat of intent to be harmed. As Jeshua Jesus says I should own the idea that “pain, illness, loss, age and death seem to threaten me” and that “all my hopes and wishes and plans appear to be at the mercy of a world I cannot control.” I interpret this to mean that I am safe, secure, and through my Divine inborn nature, I am totally provided for and am valued and treasured to the highest possible degree. Therefore, no self-created avidya illusions that I may seem to manifest can imprison me or strip me of my perfect protection from any perceived forms of danger or threat of any kind. He further instructs that I have attempted to surrender and give up the Divine inborn nature that is my treasure because I try to own and possess the world I my manas-sense-mind sees. I need not worry for God Presence has kept my inborn treasure protected and preserved for me. It is my truthful, authentic vritti-thought fluctuations in the mind that will show me what this valuable gift is.
My highest priority and prime goal is to see with Christed Vision, that of the Atman Self at one with Brahman-Father-Mother, the Indestructable God Mind Sight. I want to see beyond the densification of matter and individual bodies that are the product of multiplicity, beyond subjectivity and relativity and all the images of projected mayaic delusion, to the one light beam of Love coming from the Divine Source who makes all seeing possible. This is what I truly want – peace and Bliss Eternal. Santosha-Contentment is what I desire. Wholeness is my pursuit. I will clean the lens of the Witnessing Christed Third Eye of Intuition with objectivity to see innocence in all my brothers and thereby in myself. I will create instead of make. I will awake from sleep. Dissolve the power that hypnosis has had over my body’s attempt to see.
The Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God in my mind, the Holy Spirit Aum Vibration brings many blessings. It allows me to perceive with Radical Right Perception in the truest, most clear possible way. Today, I will tame and undo the ego-beast of animality and selfishness to see with the eye of Wisdom. I will dream a new dream. See a new world. Perceive the Primordial Creation of the One Divine Oversoul-Spirit or God Mind. Write a new script. Allow Divinity to Direct a different motion picture that isn’t driven by conflict, drama, and pain.
It is time to stop hiding behind the ego-body’s blindness that limits me from seeing the Divine everywhere, in my brothers and sisters and behind the veil of physicality. The Worlds of Light, coming from the causal-ideational and astral-energetic planes are there to be perceived. Through Witnessing Presence, I will bear in mind that the world my egoic-ahamkar mind has made will perish and is only temporary. It will disappear when I forgive and align with the Love of Supreme Spirit. The illusions of superimposed image forms will fall away when I turn off the film projector of the fragmented individual mind.
Christ Vision is the key to unlock the prison door that encloses me in a body. It is the other way I have been seeking throughout this exile in a material world. I turn within and remember what I truly want to see. I will extend only Love as I begin to see and witness and notice. I will observe through objectivity rather than be swayed to and fro by the whirlpool fluctuations of thought and emotions that seem to rise and fall, clouding my True Awareness of Oneness. Vision makes no real demands. It can only bless with Bliss.
I acknowledge and affirm that what my manas-sense mind’s eyes see is a mirror image of the identity I have assumed for myself. Through Realization, Christ Vision is the only thing that I truly need to embrace. I know now, through gnosis that the projected world I see with my ego-body’s eyes is a witness to the fear based self-image that I have manufactured and that keeps me in the dungeon of hell . I need to release this concept of who I think I am, and be willing to Realize who I truly am – the Christed Son/Daughter of the Divine Allness. Christ Vision and Radical Right Perception will be birthed in my mind as my separative egoic self-image is transformed by the grace of pure, untainted truth. Through such clarity of sight, I will gaze out upon the world, while looking inward to my True Self with love and the desire to share only love with my transformed perception.
My highest priority and prime goal is to see with Christed Vision, that of the Atman Self at one with Brahman-Father-Mother, the Indestructable God Mind Sight of Radical Right Perception. I want to see beyond the densification of matter and individual bodies that are the product of multiplicity, beyond subjectivity and relativity and all the images of projected mayaic delusion, to the one light beam of Love coming from the Divine Source who makes all seeing possible. Today, I will let go of all meaning I have assigned from the past about any given object or person, releasing preconceived notions and stories I have assumed in the caverns of my split mind that labels and categorizes all that I perceive, seeing with a Beginner’s Mind. Today I commit to seeing, observing, noticing, and witnessing in a wholly different way. Programmed reactivity and judgments must fall away when something comes into my field of vision. True and Radical Right Perception in the Holy Instant of Now is my pursuit. I want to be free of all slanted, jaded, and biased viewpoints that blind me from seeing clearly and truly. I will allow my buddhi-intellect mind to dissolve the world of the manas-sense mind conditioning so I can truly discriminate truth from falsehood. The real from the unreal.
Though I resist seeing in an alternative way, I now desire and vow from this moment and day forward to seeking freedom from past mental tape recordings of my individual, separate mind that distort my ability to objectively see truly. I allow Inner Wisdom, the Inner Guide, the Inner Guru, the Cosmic Vibratory Holy Spirit Memory of Divinity to give me illumined vision so that I can see the flickering light of Truth and Love everywhere. By doing this, peace will come and joy will follow. Love is All, Divine Mind is All. Divine Mind allows me to create through Christ Vision instead of make images through biased perception. The Radical, the Right, the True, and the Holy are forever Real and there to bee seen with crystal clarity. I release all limited perceptions of what I glance at, and see not through the definitions I have formed in the past, but through a Beginner’s Mind. Christ Mind in Divine God Mind. This opens me up to brand new, Radically Right Sight.
I open my mind that was once closed. I am no longer bound by the shackles of past labeling. I quiet my mind from the whirls and eddies of sound vibrations that try toHoly assert pre-programmed judgments about things I encounter in this world dream. All stories I have written about things I have encountered in the past will from this point forward be re-written through objective noticing, and simply observing, free from assigning meaning from the egoic-ahamkar mind that compartmentalizes everything.
I attain Radical Right perception today by wiping clean the individual mind’s preconceived notions of what everything means and see instead the purpose of whatever I gaze upon with Christ and Atman Mind. I allow the Good, the Holy, and the Beautiful to shine forth and illumine my mind this day.
The superimposed hallucination, which I call the world, acts as a veil covering the full recognition of the vastness and fullness of true reality, and contains within it the fear-based self-concept I have put belief in. My individual ego-ahamkar false self tries to cement it there and it allows this distorted image of myself to continue to manifest. My perception of the “mind film” projected world in this moment prevents Satya-truth from being in my conscious, witnessing awareness. I pray that the doorway that remains hidden behind the projection of this world reveals itself and I bring the key with me to unlock it. My True Christ and Atman Self can look past the manifested world I think is authentic, to the truly real world that emanates only the essence and presence of the magnetic Love waves of the Divine.
The Supreme, Transcendent and Immanent, Indestructible, Brahman God Mind is omnipresent and in everything that I see with my Spiritual Christ Sight. The vision afforded me by the reflected Son and Daughter nature of the Divine, Cosmic Father-Mother Source allows me to see beyond images appearing as form that I superimpose through avidya-illusion and shadow-dance projecting, to the One Light and Love that uplifts me into Higher Awareness.
The True Self, the Christ, the Atman, the Awakened One, fed by the nectar of shakti life-essence sees Brahman God Mind everywhere, while the body’s physical eyes see only shadows of the Light that lies beyond them. What I want to see, I will see. When I want to perceive through fear, I will see avidya-illusions of terror. Fear everywhere, fearing everything, and fearing everyone. When I want to see only Love, I will see Brahman God Mind everywhere blessing all things through the vision of Love. I want only Transmissions of Light, Bliss, and Peace and I will see and experience these when I open my anahata heart and ajna chakras to receive the magnetism and shakti that awakens the fiery desire energy of kundalini within my astral, metaphysical body and spine. Kundalini, the evolutionary energy within me, travels upward, Godward, within, in my True Self Nature, illuminating the highways of travel through this lifetime. It shines a light upon the darkness and hypnotic maya that the egoic-ahamkar mind has tried to create as a rebellion against Brahman God Mind. Forms appear as dense. But through Radical Right Perception, I can see beyond them to Love that made me. The Love that is omnipresent and omnipotent.
Surely Brahman God Mind is not in a tree, but the life force that animates the form of the tree came from a creative source in me and in everyone who perceives a given tree. That life force that animates form came from Brahman God Mind because we are co-creators with that very Divine and Primal Origin. God Mind does not create trees, but the life-essence within me, being of God Mind, is the same as that Spiritual Desire Energy. Since my essence is in God Mind and God Mind’s essence is in me, that of which I have created has some of that very life-essence that makes a given form possible. Shakti emanates from the One Creative Center from which all Real Energy and Spirit Life came from. All emanations of Brahman Father-Mother are radiated outward from the Primal Center, in the circumference of everywhere as One Unified Quantum Field of Potential and Spirit.
My creations are not God’s creations when made with a separate will by my individual separate mind. But the love that animates mass, known as the adamantine particles, comes from the common origin of Ultimate Love. The Wholeness of God Mind is a Hologram. And all parts are contained within the whole and the whole is contained in all parts.
I remove the veils from true seeing, so that the individual “mind film” projected movie I have manifested from the limited, small self I think I am. Behind these veils, Satya-truth exists untainted and undistorted. On the other side of each curtain I have closed across the window of my true Christed Sight, concealing the transfigured magnetism of love, that very love power illuminates my path of awakening with its radiant, great rays. I Realize now that the ahamkar- ego based psychosis and its agenda cannot keep me from being in Samadhi-Oneness with the Will of the Divine Father-Mother Syzgy. The Father-Mother is and will always be omnipresent and within all things throughout the expansiveness of eternity. My brothers, sisters, and I who are One with the Supernal Parents, in this holy instant of now, see beyond all projected macabre images of the individual, separative mind and acknowledge the Satya-truth that transcends all of those phantasms.
Divinity Mind is in all things I see because Divinity Mind is in my mind. Though I seem to have experiences generated from a split, separate, ego mind, the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God, the Holy Spirit Creative Aum Vibration was placed in my mind the moment the separation from Divinity Allness seemed to occur (though in reality it did not), giving me the Illumination, Inspiration, Realization, and Revelation that I am still in at-one-ment with my Source. Therefore, I have a light to guide my seeing. To bring me Radical Right Perception or Clairvoyant-Clear Seeing.
Today, I can and will focus upon what is Real, the Truth that brings Bliss Unending and Santosha-Contentment. I will look upon a world forgiven and upon every person I see, meet, and greet, with the Eyes of Christ. Of True Self. The Atman. At one with Infinite Brahman Spirit, God Mind, that illuminates my mind. This Divine Source, is something my individual egoic-ahamkar mind tends to ignore and so I see the dance of shadows play out before my body’s eyes. This is only a veil. But it is glorious to know that I do get glimpses of the light that shines behind this curtain as there are holes in it and it is transparent in places. The light that comes through are the flashes of insight or satori that I get directly from the Mind of Divinity that goes by many names.
Today, I experience a shift in my awareness. A Divine Realization put there by the Memory of God in my mind. I am the One Creation of the Divine Father-Mother. The Christ. There is only Christ. True Self. The Atman. And I am that. As are all the people and life forms I seem to see on the stage of the world, the miniature model and set built by the collective ego scriptwriter. Though my set design seems to overshadow and hide the Original, Ever-Existing, All-Encompassing Divine design of True Paradise Creation, found in the potential of Energy, Thought, and Light outside the space-time continuum, I can remove this blinder set that I have built as a fence, by opening myself to Divine Realization and Self-Realization in Christ. I am Christ. In Paradise forever, with Paradise Everywhere. The dramas, tragedies, comedies, human romances, and horror shows that seem to play out on the stage my ego-ahamkar calls life, are really temporary delusions. And I can begin to see that they are only delusions by seeing through Spiritual Sight. Through the eyes of the Astral and Causal Bodies beyond the dense physical body eyes that I have used as a replacement for seeing only Oneness.
I never left the Mind of God and God never left my Mind. As mentioned above, the Memory of God was put in my mind to bring about a Remembrance of the One Truth that is True Always. I am One in God and therefore, seeing through Christ Vision, True Sight, I see that God Mind is everywhere in everything I look upon, because once again, behind the forms, are the energy potential and life essence that is Pure Beingness.
I will apply today’s idea often, ignoring concepts of ‘near’ and ‘far’ for these are avidya-illusions in the grand illusion, and see through the One Lens of the Christed Third Eye, the Presence of the Witnessing Observer. I will notice and gaze upon the One Light, that surrounds all form. I let the One God experienced in many ways, to Reveal Him and Her Self in all things, but not as all things, for my God Transcends all things that appear to be outside of me. I let Paradise Return. Oneness come. Bliss come. As I concentrate through dharana and meditate through dyana, I will see the One Singularity Everywhere.
Through sanity and even-mindedness, through Gnosis-Knowledge, I Realize that I am not fragmented and cut off from the Entirety of the Allness that exists in everything that has “Life”. I never lost the Gnosis-Knowledge, the Divine Realization of my unchangeable identity even though I have dissociated from it. The Divine Mind has preserved that true essence of Who I am in Its Emanation of Unending Thoughts. I am contained within the Macrocosmic Wholeness of those Thoughts and energetic pulsations and will always be, forever, in Yoga-Union with the Divine Mind of the Father-Mother.
I will now perceive the projected world dream, the maya motion picture of dancing illusions, in a radically different manner. I will gaze upon it with Love and with the Vision of the True Self-Christ and Atman Self and see only God behind the image of all things. Oh, Immortal God, oh Dao, oh Brahman Supreme, Father-Mother Allness help me see with spiritual sight.
When I look upon the outside dream, collective and personal, the dream of hell, as the Toltecs calls it, I have the tendency to shut God out of the movie. I don’t see him with the body’s eyes. So, this day, morning and evening, for five minutes at a time, I vow to look with Christ Vision and to see from a perspective coming from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God, the Holy Spirit Mother, Fiery Kundalini Desire Energy in my mind, adding new frames to the filmstrip being projected outward onto the screen of Infinite Light.
Today, I let a shift take place in my perception and imaging of both my inner and outer worlds. I can allow God Mind and Jeshua Jesus to guide my Real Mind to survey the world and show me a different dream. A Happy Dream. A Loving Dream. A dream where I Love my brothers and sisters in spirit through miracle-mindedness and see only Love in them, eradicating all projected, unconscious guilt coming from my false self cellar where cob webs dwell. I align myself with the attic of the mansion of God with its many rooms in which I am called to dwell and awake in. Forgiveness is the Lamp that lights my Realization and Radical Right Sight.
Today, I will notice, observe, and simply witness things in the world without casting judgment upon what I see. Inner teacher guide me. Through objectivity and contemplation, in many frequent shorter sittings, I will allow sparks of God Light to shine and shimmer, illuminating the path before me, on which I will travel home to Paradise Oneness, that I, in reality never left. Let this day be a Homecoming as the prodigal Son or Daughter, being fully embraced by Father-Mother God’s Love. As the Christ Awareness holds His hand on my shoulder, I look upon a world of light that shines away all darkness. Today, I realize that I can perceive God Mind in all things, beyond the image of all things and bodies. Realization, that I am in Reality, still at One with God brings comfort. I will stop listening to the lies of the little, individual mind whose outlook is distorted and the product of a hazy, almost intoxicated-like hallucination. Holy Spirit, sober my seeing. Kundalini rise and empower me. Bring me the joy of Gnosis, Divine Realization, Revelation, and Knowledge about my Source. Through my third eye ajna chakra, let me see intuitively what is really present in the Unified Field of Love, standing in the circumference of the Radiant Rays Emanating outward from The One Real Allness Center of True Creation. Aum. Peace. Shanti. Amen.
(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)
I am not at the mercy of a world I seem to see outside of me that appears to threaten me with danger, trying to inflict pain, suffering, and psychological and biological torture upon my True Self, Christ and Atman Self, which in reality cannot be harmed. All assaults and threats of harm come from my individual split ego mind. They originate from no outside place. The world I have made is not a perpetrator and punishing force. My individual mind is the cause of my subjectively experienced mental agony that I seem to experience in a physical body.
I think I am guilty and going to a place called hell, gehenna, the underworld, even though such a place doesn’t exist, but I instead choose to return to the awareness of the Paradise Heaven within, that I never left in truth, now, instead of remaining a victim of my own attacking thoughts and emotions. Though my individual egoic-ahamkar mind tries to steal my Santosha-Contentment and Bliss, I am really capable of being free from self- destructive, pain inflicting thoughts. I use the poison of guilt to try and diminish my sense of peace, bliss, and communion in God Mind. In any given moment, I choose pain or Love. But pain is self-inflicted, not coming from an outside world. Therefore, I need to get to the root of the problem and change my thought fluctuations in order to change my perceptions and the life I experience as a result.
What guide will I choose today? The memory of God in my mind or the separate, individual egoic-ahamkar tendencies? I choose the upward magnetic pull of God Mind within rather than being pulled downward into the density of negative vibrations of assault and threats of harm to my beingness, which in truth could never be threatened.
Do I want pain or do I want Unending Love? It is always my choice. I choose what I seem to experience, feel, and even suffer. But today, I choose Love for my True Self over assault from my false self. I embrace ahimsa (non-harming) towards myself and others. When I am not at peace, it is not the outside projected world threatening me with my own demise. My egoic-ahamkar has invented the chaos that I choose in moments of insanity.
Today, I will choose freedom over the shackles I have placed upon my self. For two three to five minute contemplative sittings, once in the morning and once in the evening, I will repeat the idea for today two or three times. Following this, I will close my eyes and apply the idea to my inner environment. The goal is to be released from both worlds, as the inner manufactures the outer. I will repeat the idea for today throughout the day as well to take steps toward full releasement from bondage and self-inflicted hell and psychological-emotional fluctuations that seem to abuse me. I take back my projected dream film of attempted violence against my Christed Nature.
(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)