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The Reality of Who, What, and Where
You Are

A Discourse

Bryan Rice

The  of Who, What, and Where You Are

In this adapted and updated transcript of a discourse first broadcasted on Christ Realization Radio by Project New Humanity in 2018, reflect on the nature of your Real Presence, Essence, and Being while considering teachings of A Course In Miracles about what reality is and where you think you are. According to A Course in Miracles, your Real Identity is Christ and you are One with God. That is who you are. Other traditions might call your True Nature, The Atman, The Self, The God-Self, The Higher Self, The Buddha Nature, or the Inner Guru. Explore ideas surrounding what is reality versus what is considered to be illusion and mere appearances seeming to exist as form. You are here for a short time, are as some say, subject ourselves to being stuck in cycles of death and rebirth, but have never truly left your True Home in the Paradise State of Awareness known as Heaven.

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Bryan: Joy to you friends. This is Bryan Rice. Coming to you on the resurrected radio network as you heard at the beginning of the show here on Christ Realization Radio. It’s taken shape in many forms. It’s been in existence since 2010 under different names with many different hosts and programming. All inspiring, all seeking to do the same thing, to speak from. What is the universal curriculum, rather the eternal, Reality of God. Sanataan Dharma. Transcending any one tradition. Many of the programs I’ve hosted in the past on Turning Points and Transformations, have had to do with topics such as yoga, yoga philosophy, kundalini yoga, A Course in Miracles, The Second Coming of Christ by Paramahansa Yogananda. While, those have been in programs such as the “Christ Within” or “Samadhi of the Christ”. This program, Turning Points and Transformations is unique unto itself for it seeks to draw from wisdom for many traditions and speak about things that are relevant to you and to your plan and path of awakening to truth. So we’re not limited to one text, one scripture, but I to use A Course in Miracles quite a bit because I think it is a path to God-Realization, Self-Realization, or would I call Christ-Realization.

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Bryan: It’s a philosophical treatise (a form of spiritual psychotherapy), not a dogma, nor a fixed set of beliefs that you’re supposed to adhere to. Rather it gives practical, mystical insights that you can apply to your life, centering around the idea of forgiveness and transcending fear through love. The reality of love is all there is, really. It’s the only thing that is true as is stated in the introduction of A Course in Miracles. God is love and can have no opposite. Fear is called the opposite, but fear is not real. Today’s

program will go into the idea that there is nothing else at all in essence or creation or truth that can be opposed to Love. Nothing. And the title of today’s show is “The Reality of Who, What and Where You Are.” Well, what are you Who are you You are Christ. Some people would call it the self, the true self, the higher self, the Atman in eastern traditions and Hindu traditions. Where are you in the real world beyond the physical. What warrants such a discussion about reality? Well, we manufacture something that we call reality through perception, through that primal act of having attempted to separate from the love, the wholeness and oneness and completed aspect of God. We sought to reject our oneness because we thought there could be something else. The something else that we seek for is our own private individual experience, which we often try to call it creation or manifestation. I was going to say self-manifestation or self- actualization.

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Bryan: What I want to spend a great deal of time talking about on this network here and now in 2018 and beyond is reestablishing the connection with that Christ nature, and when I say Christ, I’m not speaking simply of a person, not the person known as Jeshua or Jesus. I’m talking about a “Presence”, an Intelligence, an Essence, a reflected light nature and anointing, the Real Presence and life force of who you are is the Christ. You are that. You are a son or daughter of God. You were created in perfect oneness in Heaven. You reside in Heaven. You always have. But seem to be experiencing cycles of birth and rebirth or birth and death, reincarnation, coming back to this place we call a world, which we try to name as reality when in fact it is, but an illusion. That’s according to A Course in Miracles. You don’t have to believe that to listen to the programming on this network. I’m only here to try and get you to ask questions. To search, to continue to find nuggets of wisdom that you can take on your journey. It’s not in any way meant to confine anybody.

Bryan: This network is not meant to confine anybody to one tradition. As I was saying earlier, you could also say, much of what we are about on this network is divine realization or theosis, divinization, knowing that you are divine. That is your true nature. So, there’s two voices you can listen to. If we stick with the philosophy of A Course in Miracles, and again, let’s not get attached to terms. There is the Holy Spirit and there is the ego. Again. Holy Spirit can be called Higher Self, True Self, Inner Wisdom, Universal Inspiration, Higher Mind, again, True Self. While the ego can be called the false self or our beastial nature, where we seek to be independent of God, the Divine, the Divine Presence that is. So, if there’s still a question in your mind of who you are, it is not the self you have made. It is the Self which was created by the Divine, residing in… now always and forever in that edenic state of Paradise. Oneness, a state of awareness where all is one, all is in union. Where we are in communion with God. Your personality, the self you think you are the false self, the small mind. The ego thought system is something that you have

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made. In A Course in Miracles, it speaks about creation versus making and we’re really meant to be co-creators with God, with the Divine, with the Allness. Bryan: But, in order to try to assert our independence and to try to become more than God and try to usurp the power of God, we make things. We make self-concepts, ideas about ourselves, self definitions, and then we call that who we are. Those images that we make. Our self definitions come from lack, fear, scarcity, and guilt. I’m not here to make you feel guilty on Turning Points and Transformations on this network and in other programs. I’m hopefully here to give you permission to be liberated from guilt. And this is coming from somebody who was extremely, extremely scrupulous in my twenties. I kept my priests in business. I was in the confessional confessing “sin” or sins. Or things that I thought I did that would leave some sort of mark on my soul trying to obtain and attain, and receive, absolution or freedom from self imposed torment from affliction all created by my ego. And we all do that.

Bryan: Christianity in it’s mainstream focuses a great deal upon these sins or infractions. Sin means missing the mark. A Course in Miracles calls it absence of love – but sin is NOT real. We just make mistakes. We make errors. We choose illusions, things that are not true. We choose against our Christ nature, our Atman nature, our Higher Self nature, our True Self nature, we choose against it. Where we feel insecure again, lacking. It’s that scarcity principle where we think we need something to be complete. When in reality we are already whole. At the top of every show, the question is asked of you, will today be the day you have your breakthrough in consciousness? Well, we’re not going to go into the mechanics of consciousness or perception or of the ego mind, how it was made, what it is, because the ego loves that. The ego loves to talk about itself. What we need to do in order to have a breakthrough in consciousness or in awareness is the better word… in awareness is to challenge what we have made, which are known as appearances. That’s a word used in the Course. Forms. The changeable or the changing.

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Bryan: You are, changeless. You’re the changeless Son and Daughter of God, the Almighty, the Son and Daughter of the Divine Allness and that Divine Allness is beyond all gender and beyond all form. So, if we are one with our Source and are beyond all form, we too are formless… and that makes the form unreal. Well, the formless the formlessness of spirit, of potential, the actuality of who we are, the Christ, which A Course in Miracles says, is the one Son of God who we all are. . .

Bryan: Why do we manufacture our reality? Well, you can’t call it reality… Why do we manufacture a substitute for reality, rather? Because we were afraid. And this is happening now as it did a long time ago or appeared to happen a long time ago. That’s the good news. The good news is that really didn’t happen. The separation from God

really didn’t happen. The creation of the world, this universe, this earth, this place, this dwelling place that we appear to be in did not really happen. It’s an illusion. Time and space are an illusion. The real world, {the world of happiness and joy made by the Holy Spirit which is the goal of the spiritual journey, the state of mind which immediately precedes the awakening to Heaven, according to Course teacher Robert Perry’s Glossary of Terms} is where you are. Where you still inhabit is Heaven. And that isn’t necessarily a place. Heaven is a state of awareness, of perfect oneness, a state of awareness of perfect oneness, and we won’t go into the metaphysics of A Course in Miracles or other non-dualistic teachings necessarily, but we need to learn to distinguish between who we really are versus who we really aren’t. What we really are versus what we really aren’t. Are not rather. And where we are really, in reality, versus where we think we are.

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Bryan: We weren’t content with being Christ. So in a certain sense you can say we like the biblical or the understanding of the fallen angel of Lucifer in Christianity who chose not to serve God and became what now is given so much attention as a demon or a devil, something diabolical, something evil. We’re all in a sense like fallen angels. We turned our back on God and Helen Shuchman, the scribe. Well, the one who took down A Course in Miracles from the voice which she said was Jeshua, Jesus. . . in her original handwritten notes talked about that, that what we’ve come to experience has been like a fall from – that fall from grace. The separation has been like us being a fallen angel, but we’re not a fallen angel. We’re still the pure, radiant, eternal loved, unchanging, undefiled, perfect Son and Daughter of God. In every moment we can give birth like mother Mary in Heaven did too. Jeshua, the awakened brother who calls us to a journey of awakening in A Course in Miracles (and other works such as The Way of Mastery). A journey that he completed, a journey that he says we can take as well and should take and will take because that is the will of God. That is what we want to do. Really in reality, that is our will too. So, we’re not in the substitute reality known as the universe, earth, time and space. We’re in that Edenic state of oneness, singing a beautiful hymn with the chorus of angels and light beings. He has One Whole

One Continuous Whole, One Ever-Expansive, Never Ending, Whole, Infinite Beyond Measure.

Bryan: What are you? The Christ, the True Self. You are pure inner wisdom and so we should let inner wisdom guide us. Each person has the teacher within them. When we appeared to separate from God, and I say “we” because it was the collective ego and then we did it each time and do it each time we choose to come back to earth through birth where there’s a script written {by the Holy Spirit after we choose to come back}. The ego writes its own version through dreaming, projecting, and image making, of what we think should occur in life, in the illusion of life, rather here on earth, or if there are other beings from other terrains, let’s just leave it at that. Other planets

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maybe. Who, who are we to rule that out? And who are we to rule out other aspects of what we call reality, other realms, dimensions, the Christian Kabbalah, the Kabbalah of Judaism speaks of various universes being manifested through the act of creation. Now, I don’t have the complete and whole understanding of it, of that teaching. Those teachings, and I’m not an expert in that by any means, but why couldn’t we have created other universes, other galaxies. We created other planets {or some mind did} Some spiritual teachers and astrophysicists have spoken of island universes out there. Again, from A Course perspective, these would be alternative realities where form, may be manifest or a life – it’s called in scientific – in a scientific paradigm, from that point of view, in a biological sense, something that can be studied that’s dense, that’s matterward, matter bound, bound by was not created by God, but by the ego.

Bryan: Now, just a personal note, it’s taken me over 15 years to actually get through the text of A Course in Miracles. Why do I say that? Why do I share that? Why do I think that’s important? Well, I was only ready for certain aspects of The Course to be transmitted to me by Holy Spirit, by Higher Self, by Higher Mind, by Inner wisdom, by the Inner Teacher. . . by the Christ mind. Awakening can’t be forced upon us. It comes from above. And it comes from within. . .

Bryan: But getting back to reality in substitute realities in why we did it in the first place. When we forgot or disassociated from who we are, who we are, the Christ, the Son of God, the Son and Daughter of God, the Course uses masculine terminology. And I’m not too fond of that, but it’s purpose in my opinion – and my opinion doesn’t really matter at all really. . . But its purpose is to say that we are all the same. We’re not male and female. We’re not these individual bodies appearing as men in women with different skin colors coming from different heritages and races. All these differences that we see in the world, all this multiplicity, all this – all these forms, all these appearances, as I said before, are not real.

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Bryan: It goes back to, we are the Christ. We’re the Self. We are the Atman. And when we forgot that and we thought that there was something beyond God that we could have and something beyond Christ that we could be. We gave into what was called the “tiny mad idea.” So from madness came this alternative experience. Let’s call it experience. Let’s not use the word reality. Let’s not give the ego it’s gratification or the satisfaction. (Pause) I take a moment. I pause and I asked Jeshua, Jesus to come to be present here with all of us as an older brother, as an enlightened being, as an equal, an equal, but as the awakener. . . to take control of this show. Jeshua, what do you want to be said and shared and talked about from this point forward?

Bryan: I believe what he wants us to do is focus on what the simple

fact that nothing that appeared to happen, that we thought we did or anything that we thought we did to God or to other people and to ourselves, never really occurred.

Bryan: Now you might say, if you’re somebody listening to this and never having been exposed to A Course in Miracles or to anything nondual in nature, you might say, well, how can you say that this experience here in this world seems to be so real? You know, what about the bills that have to be paid? What about the insurance bill that has to be paid? The taxes that have to be paid? What about the need to buy clothes? That’s all very real, isn’t it? Well, we’re told not to worry about those things. Though we have to to survive in this world, to live in this world. It’s a necessary part, but it’s not the entire picture. It’s not the entirety. It’s not the be all end all. It’s not all that is. It’s not what we should give our full attention to. We should be in alignment, alignment with reality, first and foremost, know where we are, know who we are, know what we are, and then everything else will fall into place if we know that, that we are Christ and we are seeing through the eyes of Christ which The Course calls Christ Vision. . . and if we see our brother the way God sees us and our brother or sister, if you want to use that term, which I like to, just to keep it from sounding one sided or biased, so God sees you a certain way, always has always will. And we’re to see our brother and sister, the person who really is our savior

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The person who we think is our enemy is our savior, the person to which we project guilt onto is really one who’s meant to do deliver us and to give us salvation or liberation. Salvation is a word that’s overused even though it’s used in the Course

In this, this podcast, this show is coming from Course teachings, but again, I don’t want to limit the scope of what is known as the “universal curriculum,” which is not limited to the over a thousand page revelation known as A Course in Miracles, in all the various books that it exists. And those words themselves, are mere symbols, and they just tried to help us undo false thinking, erroneous perception, the substitute reality. Take the veil off from in front of roll it up, take it out of the way from the substitute reality so that reality itself can be shown to us the reality of oneness, of changelessness, of purity, of undifferentiated oneness, the eternal existence.

Bryan: We make laws with the ego mind, the limited mind, the small mind, the fractured mind, the false self, the self grasping nature, the ego illusion. . . So, we make illusions to make us feel better about ourselves. To hide and try to compensate for the guilt we feel – this immense unconscious guilt we feel about having so we thought, rejected God, and created a different existence. Again, an alternative reality. People today are now really into virtual reality, creating these alternative realities that you seem to be able to live in. A dream within a dream. It’s a word I haven’t used very much in the show, but this is a dream. You are dreaming even you’ll hearing me now you are dreaming this, but in the dream can come a light that can be

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turned on. You can have an “a-ha” moment. Illumination can occur. Gnosis or Divine Realization can occur and you can realize who and what you really are and where you really are, which is were you never left, the heavenly dwelling place. The Edenic state of bliss. We want to awaken from the dream. We want to undo illusions. Recognize through true perception or even beyond that through knowledge where gnosis, what is real and what isn’t. And you hear the word idolatry used in religious circles going back to ancient times. The word idols is used in the Course. There are things we really, really, really thought we wanted, but we never really did. Where are we have sought completion because we have felt incomplete, fractured, broken. We’ve wanted to heal from our brokenness, from our suffering, from our pain, from our afflictions. We’ve wanted to wake up so bad . . . at the same time, we’ve tried so hard to erase that guilt that we feel for having chosen this place where we are, or we seem to be rather. Not where we are, but where are we seem to be known as this world, that we tried to substitute for eternity.

Bryan: Now, miracles allow us to change the way we view how we live in this world and they help us to wake up. Miracles, if you remember from the fifty miracles principles, are spoken of as interpersonal. They’re not just something to do to make yourself super human. There’s something that involves communication with or interaction with other human beings, other souls out there, spirits, other minds which The Course calls our brother. Again, our brother is our savior. So you are not different from your brother. You are your brother. Your brother is the bringer of salvation because your brother mirrors to you who you are, the perfect son and daughter of God, the Christ. If you see your brother as guiltless. If you see your brother or sister as innocent, you will be able to see the innocence in you. You will be able to start healing the unconscious guilt that you feel. You’ll start being able to unpackage the subconscious, deep repressed feelings, emotions and thoughts that we carry with us which take the form of guilt and then we would live out things such as lack as I mentioned earlier in the show, scarcity thinking we’re not worthy of abundance or love or grace. Where all the good things that come from the Father, beyond any gender. God is not anthropomorphic. God does not have a form. God is not a person. Neither are you. You’re not an individual

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That’s something that’s hard to digest, hard to get used to an idea that’s somewhat foreign to us because we’ve grown up in a culture, in a world that prides itself upon being unique and one of a kind. That’s an illusion.

Bryan: We came here to be special. The Course speaks of specialness. Because we weren’t content with changeless love. Changeless love didn’t satisfy us, so we tried to find completion outside of ourselves. Hence we projected a world outside that we appear to be in, having experiences in, making choices. It’s really all a big hallucination. What you see out there as a reflection of your thoughts and keep in mind that you are a thought in the Mind of God. If that’s

the case and ideas leave not their source, like the Course says, then there’s no way we can be the product of our hallucinations, of our projections, of the image making that we take part in. So, really, discernment is an ongoing process. We have to ask, is this from the ego or the Holy Spirit to discern what is real versus what is unreal. Am I seeing through the eyes of Christ through Christ Vision or am I speaking or acting in accordance with the voice for God, the Holy Spirit or Universal Inspiration? Or am I speaking from a very small and cutoff, separated self. . .

Bryan: Sacred Heart of Jeshua. Jesus. Bless us all in this moment as we ponder these things, ponder these thoughts. It’s really encouraging and damn great news. . . excuse my choice of words, but I’m just trying to get your attention. It is great news. Now what we seem to manufacture never really happened. Never really occurred. It’s a figment of our imagination. It is a grand hallucination. It’s a script being played out that we wrote {This is a misnomer as I have come to understand. We try to write scripts of how we want our day to go, but the Holy Spirit really wrote the script that will enable us to wake up. It’s more appropriate to say that our ego invests in a personal story, rather, a dream.} Where we tried to be special. . . we’re trying to be separate, where we tried to be different where we tried to be individuals. Where we try to be unique. Where we tried to be more than God. Where we tried to create on our own, which the Course really would call “making,” which is not the same as co-creating with God {we create in Heaven}. Co-creation takes place in eternity. We’re called to extend love because we are love. We’re called to be love because we are love. And everything that we see and encounter with other people and in our own lives, in our own decision making and our own thought process is either love or a call for love, but oftentimes we tend to be experiencing life or what we think is life, through the lens of fear as we mentioned earlier in the show

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Fear again in the opening of the Course is said to be the opposite of love, but what is all encompassing can have no opposite, so God really doesn’t have an opposite

So anything that comes from fear or from terror or from panic or from anxiety or worry or stress or anger or indifference or depression or sadness is from the ego. Because the eternal blesses our nature. Peace is our nature. Joy is our nature. Joy is our essence. Joy is who we are. We’ve always been joy and it’s joy to which we seek to return. . . and we seek that by becoming one with the Christ. . . one in being one in truth, walking with and walking, holding the hand and being guided by the Christ, the Christ Mind, which is the Holy Spirit

Which was God’s answer for the separation, for that primal error in judgment that happened immediately after we separated or tried to separate ourselves from God that’s called the Atonement, and many of you already know that in Jeshua, Jesus is in charge of the Atonement, at least according to the curriculum of A Course in Miracles, and the Atonement, was established by not his crucifixion but by his resurrection. So, when we appeared to transition in this life. .

from this life rather here on earth or wherever we may dwell

or seemed to dwell, again, it’s all a matter of how you use your words. And words again are but symbols they cannot describe love. We can only seek to try to remove the blockage to the awareness of God’s presence. God cannot be explained. Love cannot be taught.

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Bryan: It can be shown to us, again, through revelation, experiences of God contact, union and communion with God, spiritual experiences of that oneness of which we already are a part of. And we have those experiences from time to time to help renew and encourage us along the journey to keep on moving ahead, keep on the path of awakening to returning. To returning to the Heart of God. {“Return to the Heart of God”} Just completed that book by Robert Perry from the Circle of Atonement, an outreach. Wonderful Book. I give it five stars. I will go back and read that multiple times and use that as a study resource because he outlines the whole fall {separation in Course terms} – seeming fall from grace, the state from which we came and our fall from it {though it never happened}, and then that trip back towards Heaven that we seem to have to walk because we live in a realm of perception, and perception is not reality. If I haven’t said that already, perception is not reality. It’s an interpretation. We all have our own interpretation of what life is. The ego tells us these things. Life is love. Love is all there is. Love is all there is! So be not afraid.

Bryan: I just owned up to this in a course I’m taking. I thought it would be great to keep a catalog of all the times that the word fear was used in the pages of the Text and Workbook, Manual for Teachers and in the supplements of of the Course and I tried to keep up with them all, quote them all and I was going to, I guess somehow make a flash card for all the quotes to see just how many times the word fear is used, but what I was doing was looking through the lens of fear. I was trying to master my fears instead of seek mastery through love. Because most of the time when the word fear is used in the Course, it’s used to describe that separated condition. The state of alienation we seem to experience. So to add to the title of this show, I had said who, what and where you are. “The Reality of Who, What and Where You Are”. I could add and “where you’re going”, but you’re not going anywhere because you haven’t went anywhere. That again is good news. You haven’t went anywhere. You’re still in the bosom, still in the embrace, still in the Father’s house. And in the Father’s house, there are many mansions as the Bible speaks of. Jeshua was said to have said that. Many dwelling places. . . don’t get attached to the word mansions and what it connotes such as forms because again, in the reality of who we are, we are form less. We have no shape. We’re part of an endless light continuum. A truth continuum that just keeps going and expanding outwards. It’s a “Fullness”

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In gnostic teachings, it’s called the Pleroma and it’s a really cool thing to try and imagine as we’re called to extend and join with other people on our journey, people that we encounter in this world. And we’re called to have holy encounters. Yes, remember that. Don’t forget that. But we are

emanations of God. Creations and emanations can be used interchangeably. We radiate out from the Heart of God, the Mind of God, and we want to be at the end of the spectrum that’s so far away from God in what’s closest to the experience known as density or being matter-bound. Why are we so content with that and why do we call those appearances in that matter-bound world, in this matter-bound world, reality. When it’s not.

Bryan: Well, we needed someone to tell us that that’s not reality. We needed a radical shake up of our paradigm and worldview – and of our point of view, from which we view ourselves, God and our purpose. Our purpose is union. Our purpose is love. Our purpose is to forgive. This undoes the whole illusion. Forgiveness undoes illusions. Practice it as a means towards God-Realization, towards realizing God in your life, towards realizing the Christ in your life, the Self, the True Self of who you are, the essence of your presence.

Bryan: We talked a lot about guilt and how we feel guilty at the root of our being. And the root of our guilt is causing us to project. We project guilt on to others. We project the guilt that we feel – and the punishment that we feel we’re deserving of, for having made the choice to reject God and try to create a world where we could be hiding and separate from God. I lost my train of thought, but what I really want to do in wrapping up here is say, forgive. Forgive yourself and forgive your brother for what never happened. There is no past as the Workbook says. There is only the eternal moment of now which is called the the holy instant, and when we you live in that moment outside of time and space, we are living in reality. So the holy instant is a gateway to reality. And teachings on the holy instant is a show worthy of itself, worthy of its own focus, rather.

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Bryan: So friends, I thank you for having been present and just going with the flow here. Wherever it has seemed to take us. You are love. You are Christ. You are home. You never left. You have nothing to feel guilty about. You don’t need to punish yourselves or other people because you think you are unworthy of of that love. You are worthy. You are worthy. You’ve never done anything to change how God feels about you. I should add that God does not condemn, never has never will, so God has no need to forgive us. Forget about that whole image of a wrathful God who seeks vengeance. Won’t happen, will never happen. God doesn’t enter our dream, an experience, our madness, the only justice there is, that we experience and can experience and should experience is the justice of expressed through miracles.

Bryan: Friends, thank you for joining me and Turning Points and Transformations. Please come back for our next episode. Wishing you peace, joy, and bliss.

Bryan: Just one final thought to leave you with. Please check out my

website, bryanrice.org. That’s b-r-y-a-n-r-i-c-e dot “org”, where you can find information on how to buy and how to get your hands on some of my music that has encompassed my journey. That has been a reflection of my journey, as well as meditations and affirmations set to music that are uplifting and meant to empower you. Also, check out the grass roots movement I have founded at projectnewhumanity.org. Follow my blog and take advantage of many enlightening services and healing ceremonies. Thank you. May the divine bless you, uplift you and keep you. Om, shanti, peace. Amen.

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CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 57 (REVIEW # 1: DAYS 31-35)

DAY 57

 

Today I will review the following affirmations:

 

DAY 31

I am not at the mercy of a world I seem to see outside of me that appears to threaten me with danger, trying to inflict pain, suffering, and psychological and biological torture upon my True Self, Christ and Atman Self, which in reality cannot be harmed. All assaults and threats of harm come from my individual split ego mind. They originate from no outside place. The world I have made is not a perpetrator and punishing force. My individual mind is the cause of my subjectively experienced mental agony that I seem to experience in a physical body.  

 

I am not at the mercy of an outside world that can be remade and undone. Today, I will choose freedom over the shackles I have placed upon my self. I will repeat the idea for today throughout the day as well to take steps toward full releasement from bondage and self-inflicted hell and psychological-emotional fluctuations that seem to abuse me. I take back my projected dream film of attempted violence against my Christed Nature. I am not held hostage in this world. The stairway up and out of Eden’s Basement, the hell I made has a light shining upon it showing me the way out of my self-constructed dungeon. I come out of darkness and hiding, and break my chains of sickness, pain, aging, entropy, decay, and all forms of affliction, now, here in this moment. The light of truth is here to liberate me from my mistaken perceptions about where I think I am and why I think I am here.

 

DAY 32

The world I have come to know and recognize as being out there is my own projection. God Mind had nothing to do with it’s manifestation. I am beginning to grasp the Law of Karma, of cause and effect, that what I reap, I will sow. I can’t be at the mercy of the world that appears to be outside of me, because it is a manifestation of my own subconscious, subterranean thought vibrations that are dense and tamasic (darkening). I must want to escape in the world I perceive, to hide from the Father-Mother, to experience the delusion of duality, of opposites, or extremes, because I keep seeming to have experiences there instead of in Paradise Oneness where I still reside, though I am unaware of the True Presence of being there. The world is the effect of my ego-rebellion against the Father-Mother Awareness. It is an individual, self-created hell that seems to be filled with pain, suffering, dissatisfaction, destruction, sickness, and disappointment. These things, these struggles of what I call everyday life can be transcended through Divine Realization of my Christed Nature. To see that I am the Atman Self at One with the Infinite Manifestation of Spirit or Brahman, the Father-Mother Beingness.

 

I am responsible for what I see, hear, and experience out in this wilderness desert where mirages of the split mind come to play out dramas, comedies, tragedies, transient romances, and horror films in my head. All I have to do is to take ownership of the thoughts I project from my mind. If I made the wilderness desert, then I can leave it and dissolve it, because that is the only thing to do in a desert. To remake it into a garden of peace and healing. I Realize that I had a psychotic break from reality, where through an identity crisis, I convinced myself that I was no longer a Christed Son/Daughter of the Divine Lover whose embrace I long to feel again. How wrong I was. How enraged and deluded I let my mind become. As the one Christ Self, with all of the Divine’s creations, I am in a boundless state forever. The Child of the Father-Mother is changeless and perfect and is not the phantasm I have made him/her to be. That Child, who we all are is safe at Home in the Garden State of Being and is not where I decided to hold him/her hostage.  This Collective Child is liberated and unshackled.

 

DAY 33

I will now perceive the projected world dream, the maya motion picture of dancing illusions, in a radically different manner. I will gaze upon it with Love and with the Vision of the True Self-Christ and Atman Self and see only God behind the image of all things. Oh, Immortal God, oh Dao, oh Brahman Supreme, Father-Mother Allness help me see with spiritual sight.

 

When I look upon the outside dream, collective and personal, the dream of hell, as the Toltecs call it, I have the tendency to shut God out of the movie. I don’t see him with the body’s eyes. So, this day, I vow to look with Christ Vision and to see from a perspective coming from the Cosmic Vibratory Memory of God, the Holy Spirit, Fiery Desire Energy in my mind, adding new frames to the filmstrip being projected outward onto the screen of Infinite Light. There is another way to watch the movie as it unfolds and is projected onto the screen of time and space. I have been watching it half asleep and have viewed it through a drug-induced haze where my thoughts about it were not real. I have seen this movie as a slaughterhouse for the Collective and Christed Child of God. And so I Realize and Know now, that this outside dream movie is a setting where this Child escapes the hell it believed in. I detach myself from the dream movie, step back, pause, and see it not as a confining place of inevitable death, but somewhere the Christed Self of God discovers what has always been true, that he/she is liberated and is not bound in any way against his/her will.  

 

DAY 34

It is my choice whether I see shanti (peace) in a state of calmness or through chaos, distress, restlessness, or any form of perceived mental or physical agony, and so I choose shanti-peace instead.

 

When I see through the eyes of love, and am in shanti-peace, seeing the projected dream world not as a place where I am doomed to suffer, get sick, and die, but as an environment in space and time in which to be liberated, I Realize that, like a mirror, it reflects Divine Right Order instead of chaos and catastrophe. I Know in my heart and mind that shanti-peace, not a gore-infested battlefield, dwells in the dream movie. Through Radical Right Perception, Christ Vision, I will see that shanti-peace dwells in the heart-mind matrixes of all those who share this collective dream world with me.

 

DAY 35

My mind is a part in the one holographic whole Mind of the Father-Mother, Brahman, the Dao, The Supreme Immortal, Undying, Unified Field of Divine Allness. My mind is whole and in Oneness with this Divine Mind.

 

Shanti-peace must be born within my inner-most being. Understanding and Realizing this, I am now able to extend the shanti-peace I fee to my brothers and sisters in spirit, while I further awaken in this dream movie. The dream movie I am watching and am seeming to participate in has now been illuminated by the radiant nature of my forgiveness, and is shining my mercy back at me. Through an illumined perspective, I am starting to see how my delusional perceptions about who I thought I was, kept me confined hidden in the dark cornerstone of my egoic-ahamkar false-self temple, that was destroyed to be rebuilt. This temple is my altar to the Divine Mind, where I meet and accept the invitation to Union and Communion with my Source. I now can affirm and place credence in the reality of a shared wholeness among all living beings, forgetting not to include myself. We are all one, undivided, and are part of the holographic Mind of the First Cause of all that exists in truth and reality.    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Shadow Figures: Seeing the Past in the Present/Taking Back Projections

Do you ever catch yourself responding to someone in your life in a way that you responded to someone from your past that you feel and think hurt you or deprived you of love and appreciation in some way? We all do, right? Why is that?

 

We tend to bury our pain and feelings of rejection experienced in the past or in childhood (this tends to receive a lot of flack). Then, we make people in the present pay for those buried emotions and even the grievances that form as a result of them. Shadow figures are talked about in Chapter 13 of A Course in Miracles, but not so openly in Course “Circles” or outside of psychological contexts. But this topic should be a more prominent source of discussion in my opinion.

 

I know that, in hindsight, I have seen myself being punitive or reactive towards people in my life in the present in situations where I really am responding to someone or something that person from the past said or did that I interpreted as harmful or hurtful. Again, we do this sort of thing all the time and are mostly unconscious of this behavior.

 

We may respond to our spouse or partner in a reactive way when we are really “telling off” a past lover, friend, or even parent. We need to become more conscious of when and how we project these images onto people in our life now. Much could be said about this topic, for it is a common problem. But really, how do we avoid making our friends, acquaintances, and loved ones “pay” for what we perceived as hurts or having been wronged in some way in the past?

 

We need to see everyone as guiltless. And we need to release the past. That includes recognizing grievances and pain we have stored in our minds and bodies. If we see everyone as innocent and as a Son or Daughter of the Divine, we see past “errors” or “attacks” we perceived had the ability to hurt us in some way. What we need to do is adopt a way of seeing and believing that we are invulnerable and cannot be hurt, not by people or occurrences from the past, not now, and not in the future either. The solution is simple, but seems often an insurmountable feat to try to accomplish.

 

We need to forgive. Everything. Always. That starts with recognition of how we keep allow ourselves to be imprisoned by people from our past, and see just how much we let that carry over into the present. It certainly isn’t going to be easy. And it doesn’t happen overnight. Sometimes we are going to blow up on someone we love, here and now, and it may take doing that to realize we are still chained to the past. Love and forgiveness. Practice it. Do it. Keep doing it. Free yourself and others. Do it now. And ask the honest questions before you feel like saying something volatile. Such as, what am I really feeling and am I extending love or acting out of fear of reliving the past in some way? Recognize. Release. Realize. Let go. Surrender to the now. And extend love consistently. You can’t go wrong. And finally, take back your projections you have superimposed onto people in the present, whether you know them well, or just have a casual encounter with them on the street or at work. It’s worth it to become more aware of how we respond to others. It is just one key to unlock the door to contentment and happiness as well as peace and acceptance too.

A BURNING LOVE THAT IS BURIED

Deep beneath the surface of the conscious mind, lies buried, a burning love for the Divine’s embrace and the memory of His (& Hers) Love for us. I won’t get into the various theories about levels of the mind, but we need to penetrate that deep layer in our subconscious, which is at the collective level, beneath even, the archetypes (ruling idea energies identified by Swiss Psychiatrist Carl Jung) that we share in common. That level is the level of miracle-mindedness as is emphasized in the Complete and Annotated Edition of A Course in Miracles, early on.

Why would the deepest layer of the mind contain the real ‘gold’ of wholeness, oneness, and the memory of communion and union with the Divine? Because, we dissociated, or blocked out the memory of perfect oneness and union with Perfect, Infinite Love. Long ago, when we made the decision that if we could not receive special favor from the Father/Mother Source and be elevated above our fellow Sons and Daughters of our Supernal Parents, that we would reject the purity and holiness of non-discriminating love, we ‘rejected’ our Creator and tried to project outward into nothingness, a world where we thought we could try to be our own father. This is when the ego was created. Then through more projection and the illusion of fracturing what we had known as ‘reality’, a big bang of consciousness occurred. And thence started into motion, the making of worlds, not just our own. We thought we had accomplished a great feat by causing a rift in our minds, a split where we could ‘make’ (not create, for true creation only takes place in Heaven) a new reality. But we immediately felt guilt over trying to separate from the Divine out of a fear of being punished for this supposed crime of trying to become our own god. This guilt is what fueled the dissociation, where we tried to forget our true nature and the blissful reality of being in communion with the Divine.

That is just a brief description of what the act of separation (which never really happened) looked like and how we came to bury our memory of both our burning love for God and His for us. Out of His Love for us, at the moment when the ‘big bang’ occurred and the making of an alternate reality was set in motion, He had a plan, which A Course In Miracles calls the Atonement, or the correction process. It was then that He planted the memory of Him, His Love, and our oneness with Him in our minds. That memory, that Voice, that Advocate, that Comforter was the Holy Spirit, the answer to the dissociation and forgetting due to the massive block created by guilt in our split minds.

God never left us, and we in truth never left God. We just blocked out His memory in our minds. And this led to massive suffering and denial on our part. But still we yearned for a father figure to be in union with and to serve. We chose the ‘ego’ as our father, but the ego could never fill the space in our minds and hearts reserved only for the Divine Father. And so we search, we yearn, we strive, we go on the defensive, and we attack ourselves and others, trying to find what we think we lost. Our true Treasure. We compete out of hate for others, for what we in our split minds, think only we are entitled to. That special favor from God, the thought that started the whole process of separation in motion.

Now we need miracles to correct the thought process that induced our massive denial of that intense and burning love we really long for (and fear) and that is the true motive behind all our actions, many times, however, masked by attack, blame, and hate. Why would we do this to ourselves? It’s a mystery. But it only took one ‘tiny tick of time’. And so we seem to be in exile, trying to journey back to the place we never left, our Home in Heaven. That journey can be sped up by accepting the Atonement, the correction for our misperceptions and errors, by practicing forgiveness, releasing guilt, and choosing love over fear.

Sometimes all we need to do, is to still our minds, pause, and take a step back to receive the guidance we need to change how we see things. If we took the time to go to peace, and to truly listen for God’s Voice (The Holy Spirit in our minds), we would begin to break through the barriers that stand in the way to the remembrance of that Primal Love which we buried in our subconscious, the very love that we are afraid of. It is time to knock down the walls and remove the masks to this precious gift.

 

FINDING YOUR IDENTITY, KNOWING YOUR ‘SPECIAL FUNCTION’

We all strive. We all search. We all yearn. We hunger for meaning in our lives. This search can take many forms and can be expressed in many different ways, all seemingly unique to each person and their body-mind complex. What is it that we want? What is it that we think we need? After many decades of searching myself for those things I just listed, I believe it is purpose. 

 

We want to know who we truly are and what our purpose is here in the world. Our purpose is to love, to forgive, and to offer miracles of healing and transformation. As A Course In Miracles teaches, we chose to come here to reject God and try to become our own creator. We had a major authority problem, and didn’t like that there was a will for us in our creation in the realm of Heaven, for that is where all true “creation” takes place. Everything here in this world or in other worlds is just a substitute, and takes place through the act of “making”, which can’t be equated with True Creation as it occurs in Heaven, whether through the Divine which ‘The Course’ calls “Father” or by His Sonship (consisting of the entirety of extended beings of formless light who share one common identity, known as Christ).

 

Christ means something very different in A Course In Miracles than it does in traditional Christianity. Though it has been translated to mean the “Anointed One”, it is in ‘The Course’s’ view, a collective identity which we all share. We all, in it’s teachings are that one Son (sorry to use masculine terminology, but that is what A Course in Miracles does – and it certainly doesn’t make it absolute, but it uses “Son” to connote something beyond gender and individuality. And the “Christ” was never meant to be a title that was reserved only for the man Jeshua (Jesus), either, it says, though he too was that same “Christ”.

If our True Identity is “Christ”, the one Self that we all share, what does that mean for our purpose? ‘The Course’ doesn’t use the specific word purpose, rather it says we all have a ‘special function’ or calling we were designed to carry out in God’s plan for liberation (salvation) from guilt and suffering in ourselves and also in helping to free others. Finding out what that function is takes discernment, but it usually involves what we are good at, what we are passionate about, and what can serve the highest good for our “brothers” (and sisters).  Searching for our special function, discerning what it is, is a process and can be aided through prayer, spiritual practice, meditation, and through holy relationships and joining with others in a common goal.
Discernment is something we do not want to rush. We need to seek guidance. That means gathering information, asking the Divine to illumine our minds, and having an active prayer life. It helps to work with someone who has been on the spiritual path longer than we have who can be a holy listener and a sounding board for what we are attempting to process and filter through our human brains. But there are ways that we can actively seek guidance on our own and to receive answers. It is all about how we frame the questions. That will be an ongoing topic covered on these posts.

 
Today, I just wanted to introduce the ideas of what our identity is and what it means to discern our special function. But guidance can come in many forms and it is usually happens differently for everyone. Some receive inner guidance through an inner voice, while others may receive it in the form of imagery, or an inner ‘knowing’ or ‘feeling state’. Again though, we will talk more about how to ask and receive guidance in the future.

 

For now, just know who you really are. Jeshua (Jesus) was not the only begotten Son of God and we, like him are the Sons and Daughters of the Divine, an identity which we all share. Take comfort in knowing that (or at least considering the possibility). Peace and joy to you.