DESIRE: UNDERSTANDING THE NATURE OF PRAYER

Desire is the basic life energy that motivates everything we think, do, and feel. Regardless of how you view desire, either as something meant to bring you what you want or as the source of all striving which leads ultimately to suffering, we can’t ignore its power and significance.

Desire energy is what created us as Pure Spirit in the Fullness of Heaven. The Divine is Holy Desire. The desire to extend Love. Real and True Love. If we were begotten by Love, which came from desire, that too must be a part of our make up and inherent nature.

I am of the belief that we must harness desire, no matter what metaphysics or ontology you might subscribe to. I say that because it is such a powerful source. In the view of A Course In Miracles, a non-dualistic teaching said to have come from Jeshua (Jesus) himself, the Collective Son/Daughter of God, the Sonship desired to experience something “special”, something more than God, whether you view the Divine as Father or not, it doesn’t really matter (although I believe The Course ultimately points towards a personal God instead of just some energy or essence). The text of that now widely disseminated teaching, says we attempted to usurp the power of God. We, in one insane moment, as a collective whole thought we could experience something better than Oneness with the Father (the term The Course uses to denote God). As a result, a separate state (seemed) to emerge, thus causing a split, in the One Mind we shared with God, leaving us with not only a collective, but personal ego.

Getting back to desire, it is, I believe, at the root of everything as I mentioned above. For the purpose of this short article, I want to now turn to desire as the driving force behind prayer.

All prayer is desire in motion. Even animals pray, expressing a desire to find food or a place to sleep. They are driven by desire. They can’t escape the drive of desire. Neither can we. Though I am not going to take sides on what we should or shouldn’t pray for in our lives, we need to understand that in some way, every prayer we offer up is an expression of the desire energy that, again, is at the core of who we are. Though desire and love are related, desire can be expressed as fear and all the emotions that stem from fear as well. When we turn to a “Higher Power” to seek guidance, and even when we pray to receive “things”, we are doing it directly out of the Desire Energy that courses through us.

Prayer in my belief, the way I have come to understand it through various mystical teachings, should first be an expression of Love, Devotion, or Communion with our  Source. We need to “return” to our Source of Oneness (though in reality I believe that we never truly separated from the Father, we just appear to be in exile here on earth) when we offer up what is in our hearts. If we just pray for things, what the supplement The Song of Prayer that was channeled and received after the publishing of A Course in Miracles, calls “idols”, we are at a low rung on the “ladder of prayer” that leads us back to a state of communion and union with God. If we seek communion and union first, to express the “Song” that is sung between us and God, all things ‘shall be added unto us’. Jeshua once taught in his sermon on the Mount that if we seek first the Kingdom of Heaven, all things shall be added unto us. The things we really need to get along in this world (not just the things we want) will come in the form of “echoes”, a secondary reply to prayer we offer up.

It is all about alignment. If we are in alignment with the Father (Or Mother, if you prefer), we will be taken care of and all our ‘true desires’, those that are expressions of love, not fear of being either abandoned or rejected, by the Divine Lover, will be heard, and we will receive just what we are asking for whether it is something real or something illusory. If we pray or desire something illusory we are desiring nothing and will receive exactly that – and thereby experience emptiness, that we will long to fill with more “things” or “idols”.  I just wanted to provoke thought by writing this, not cause the reader to feel guilt or remorse. It is my belief, that we should aim high, ‘go for the gold’, seek our treasure which is eternal, and align ourselves with the Divine Presence if we are to be truly happy. This will satisfy our deepest yearning and “true desires”.

Just know that thoughts do manifest in some form. And we do get what we ask for in some way. That is the nature of desire at work. We were created in the image and likeness of God and have the ability to turn our thoughts into form. We need to respect the power of desire, and like I said earlier, harness it, direct it wisely, and for Love. That is the only way we will find lasting peace and joy. Prayer is not just about offering praise and adoration, for God does not have an ego. It is about joining. Returning to the Heart of the Divine Presence. Our Source of endless love and our ‘true sustenance’.  Therefore, use your desire to join, first with the Divine, then with others, out of love, and everything you truly need will be provided for Love does not abandon or deny Itself.

 

 

 

 

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 52 (REVIEW # 1: 6-10)

DAY 52

REVIEW DAY 6-10
Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation. If any one of the five affirmations appeals to you more than another, you may spend more time centering on that one.

The following ideas will be reviewed today:

 

DAY 6
What upsets and seems to threaten the state of Perfect Primordial Calmness, is not really present. It is not there, here, or anywhere. What I see then is a distorted subconscious, subjective mind fragment that is intruding upon Radical Right Perception of True Reality consisting of Eternal Spirit, Energy, and Cosmic Causal Thought. What I see is just a mirage in the desert my private mind made, a massive hallucination and egoic mind projection out onto the movie screen, the world of multiplicity, called prakriti. The emotionally charged distortions are part of a reactive process, a programmed response to what my ego thinks is going to cause pain, suffering, and annihilation of it.

 

What is truly Real cannot cause me to have nightmares. Nor can it have any power over me to cause me to be in turmoil or suffering of any kind. The Truly Real brings only Shanti-Peace. In the moments of absent-mindedness, when I am in some kind of self-made turmoil or suffering, it is because I have substituted Reality with avidya-illusions that I concocted. Those avidya-illusions have caused me suffering and anxiety because I have tried to make them real, and thus regard True Reality as illusory and without the essence of Ananda-Bliss which belongs to it. Not a single thing in the fullness of Father-Mother’s creation is affected by this delusion I have made. I need to accept and be in Divine-Realization that I come to be upset by something that doesn’t exist.

 

DAY 7
Out of all the possible things to perceive, I see only a privatized, fragmented past. I have flashbacks that scramble and confuse my orientation to True Reality.

 

Mental visions and interpretations of the past in the form of memories, flash backs, emotional and visceral highly charged associations/experiences cloud Radical Right Perception and Divine Realization from revealing True Reality of Communion with God Mind through Christ Mind to me. In seeing only the past projected out onto the screen of my life, I experience the split-mind. It is because of these factors that the immediacy of the present moment in the form of God Revealed Holy Instants outside of space-time, dissolves the past from having any major importance in my attempts to see True Reality. However the past experienced mind-fragments, dissociations, forgetfulness, time spent out of alignment with God Mind severely impacts the quality of seeing and the ability to see that I have always been in perfect Primordial First Right Relationship or in Christ Mind Yoga-Union with the Divine Dreamer.

 

Nothing that I see means anything because I superimpose past mental structures and thought out onto other people, onto the Unified God Allness, and onto events and happenings.

 

In seeing projections, mind fluctuations, and thoughts of the past almost everywhere I look, I alone have given/ascribed all the meaning that my subjective mind has determined any given encounter should have.

 

I don’t comprehend what I think I am seeing now, because of the interference of past programmed thinking, that I have projected onto all things. What I see and encounter now in most instances isn’t True Witnessed Reality undistorted. My thoughts about the world and my place in it do not mean anything because events in the psychologically constructed time function are neutral and devoid of any meaning. Because of this I am never truly disturbed.

 

All emotional uprisings the inner tidal waves of reactivity that surface within my body-mind-vehicle-chariot housing my unscathed soul, stem from the idea that the phantasms I project impede clear-seeing, creating inner havoc instead of inner peace.

No matter where in this dream world I look, what I think I see, I try to sabotage, judge, or punish with my private thoughts and I have the audacity to claim that this is what true seeing is. I use the past to persecute almost everyone through my thoughts and the use of words or actions that stem from those thoughts, thus making them into my rivals and foes. If I could but forgive first myself and honestly embrace the remembrance of my True Christed Self, I would be a vessel of healing, sending out magnetic vibrations consisting of blessings, consecrating everyone and everything my eyes gaze upon. If this could be so, there would be absolutely no remembered hurts, pain stored in the body-mind, or resentments that my egoic-ahamkar tries convincing me happened in the past. And so I choose again. Looking out with a loving heart-mind matrix on everything that I was blinded from previous to this Holy Instant of Now, where a miracle healed my perception and gave me clear-seeing clairvoyance.

 

DAY 8
What I habitually see or perceive is something that is not really present right now. It is a mirage in the desert wilderness of the storehouse or matrix from which I was begotten to create in. I chose this misperception about the invention of time as something that is real instead of taking part in the Divine Dreaming-Cosmic-Play of Creation-forces like I was meant to throughout eternity.

 

What I see are mind fragments and emotions attached to memories experienced biologically in the limbic system of the ego created body’s brain, that I chose to project outwards into the space-time continuum matrix, where manifested forms begins to appear through quantum phenomena of consciousness.

 

The apparitions or ghosts I project onto the Reality Light-Continuum called the Unified Field of God Essence, are not real. They are hallucinations of my ego mind, that aspect I experience when I forget Edenic Bliss as a constant Reality, the only Reality. When I fall into hypnotic trances of maya, relativity, subjectivity, I get tangled in a web of lies that I believe are true. Past points of reference cloud my seeing, because I am obsessed by them. Mental restlessness is the result of my preoccupation with the past. The resulting mental fluctuations called ‘vrittis’, or whirlpools of energetic pulsations in the form of feeling are the agents of massive perceptual distortion.

 

Why do I insist on seeing only my individual, false-self’s thoughts? Why do I want to see what I think happened in a distant past, but really did not in truth and actuality. No wonder I cannot interpret what I think I see as it really is, untainted. I take this moment to remind myself that I attach myself to what I call the haunting memories of the past to block the Ananda-Bliss and Shanti-Peace of the Now from rising up as a new dawn in my mind. I need to accept that my false-self has been trying to use the construct of time as a weapon against the Divine Source of All-That-Is. Beginning now, I surrender what I have called the past for all these years, and let it be healed, then dissolved into dust then nothingness. I now realize, that in doing this, I am not losing anything, rather I am liberated from the karmic burden I have been carrying for far too long.

 

DAY 9
I have created many obstacles and blocks to clear seeing in this moment through the wrong use of brain faculties and the self-constructed personality that fails to see the True Reality in its naked beauty, wonder, fullness of Radiant Perfection, the Allness made Manifest. The lens and window to Inner Seeing is obstructed by haunting thought imprints that I haven’t surrendered, released, nor been self-delivered from the subconsciously entrenched phantoms of past neurotic-skeletons-in-the-closet guilt. Guilt, bias, and pre-conceived judgment-notions along with patterns of reactivity stemming from ingrained neural grooves, cloud my ability to be present Here and Now.

 

If I fail to see True Reality in its naked beauty, wonder, fullness of Radiant Perfection, the Allness made Manifest in the formlessness of Light, Endless Love, Ananda-Bliss, Shanti-Peace, and Pure Potentiality, I must admit that I do not see anything at all. My only function is to see what is right Now. I accept that there is not a choice to interpret what I thought occurred in moments past or in that of the present, but rather, the only choice there is is whether to see Truth or to see what is false, or avidya-illusions. That of which I have chosen to interpret in my brain-mind faculties has “sacrificed” Christed Vision. And so right now, in this Holy Instant, in conscious Yoga-Union and Communion with God Mind, I choose differently, so that I can see only the good, the holy, and the beautiful.

 

DAY 10
The pulsations of quantum energy and information, the building blocks of thought, heard in the brain-mind field, that take on many degrees of intensity and whirl at all kinds of speeds, colors, affects, moods, and qualities of dark, light, and admixed energies are devoid of meaning due to the fact that they are neutral. My mind is a blank slate that experiences fluctuations of chitta-mind stuff or vritti-feeling, but it still is a fact that I have a mind aligned with stillness, with the zero point of total neutrality in the Holy Instant of now. I am awareness not identified with thought nor with what arises in the mind, pretending to be significant, dramatic, spectacular, and intensely distracting and disturbing. Thoughts do not control me, nor the substance behind them. Within the perfect stillness I am immune to misery making and liberated from suffering. Affirming this reality and mind science I form the basis for Radical Right Awareness, attention to the Primordial State of Oneness, and open to the flow of Bliss-Peace nectar of Heaven within perfect silence.

 

I am only aware of privatized, individual thoughts though I have no privatized, isolated thoughts. My only Real Thoughts are ones I have in alignment with my Source. Perfect Peace and Oneness allows me to think only with the Blissful Thoughts of Divine Mind and the identity I share with all brothers and sisters in the Christ Mind. My individual thought forms and their vibrational frequencies mean nothing because they are not real in comparison to the Causal-Ideational Thoughts I think with my Supernal Parents. Subjective whirlpools of thought current and fluctuations within my individual, private, split mind are not real because they do not come from the Primordial Formless Light of Divinity.

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 51 (REVIEW # 1 : DAYS 1-5)

DAY 51

REVIEW DAY 1-5

 

Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation. If any one of the five affirmations appeals to you more than another, you may spend more time centering on that one.

 

DAY 1

’None of the things that my eyes and visual cortex see means what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), has told me it does. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort the fact that everything is neutral and has no meaning just because it is in an apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections and their impressions from the objects around me. This is my first step in allowing things to be as they are, thought and energy that has materialized.’

 

I don’t truly see anything that comes into my field of viewing, thus there is an absence of vision. Nothing is out there. The absence of all things material can and do not mean anything. I must embrace this in order to obtain True Perception, Christ Vision, so I can see. All of which I believe I see inhibits true sight from occurring. I will release all blocks to seeing by accepting that what I think I see is devoid of meaning. I do this so that I will be able to see truth, only truth, and be present to that of which is instead of seeking meaning in illusions and figments of my projected fantasies coming from the small ego-ahamkar mind that try to convince me of their reality, when in truth they are made up and come from oblivion.

 

DAY 2
‘I have projected all subjective-relative (mayic filtered) perceived meaning onto everything that my eyes and visual cortex see. The physical world in itself doesn’t mean anything, certainly not what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), have told me it does. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort the fact that everything is neutral and has no meaning just because it is in an apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections and their impressions from the objects around me that come from the blind sense mind (manas) and individualized ego (ahamkar). This is my second conscious step in allowing things to be as they are, thought and energy that has materialized due to my quantum interaction with that of which I observe. Finally, I begin the distortion correction process through detachment from all assigned meaning to things in the world I see. ’

 

Why do I judge what I think I see? I judge and interpret and call this seeing when it is not. Nor is it the Christed Vision coming from the Identity which I share with all of the Divine’s Sons and Daughters. If it is not True Vision, it must be a phantasm, an avidya-illusion, a false reality. This is due to the fact that my judgmental assertions and interpretations come from fear, lack, misperception, and blindness that distorts True Sight with regards to what is actually real. Today, I commit to seeing the distortions that come from judging, because in all actuality, I want to see things as they are, as the Divine Father-Mother intended them to be. I have tried to attack myself by judging and labeling and have only caused harm by doing so. In no way, whatsoever, do I want to look out trough the eyes of judgment on what is totally neutral and inherently pure, holy, and innocent.

 

DAY 3
I do not comprehend any of the things that my eyes and visual cortex see nor what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), has told me these things are. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort my understanding and full knowledge of what surrounds me in their apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections, their impressions, and the strong obsessive fixations that drive me to project meaning onto these things, where there is none. This delusive need leads me into a web of confusion about what I think I see and its relevance to my life motion picture that I am creating at a given moment, either through my God-like Universal Intelligence or instinctual demonic egoic-subconscious beast mind polarity.

 

There is no way I can understand what my eyes think they see, when I have projected the shadow and dense cloud of judgment onto everything they perceive. When I do this, I am using my eyes and ego-ahamkar to project miscreations of thought waves, coming from vritti-fluctuations in my brain. There is no way I can understand what is filtered through my eyes to the visual cortex in my brain, due to the fact that it can’t be comprehended, for what I look upon is not real. I will not waste my time trying to comprehend it. Through volition and the conscious use of will power, I release my judgments and unchain my mind from them so I can look upon what has been made manifest, know what it is, and thereby love it. Willingness is the key to unlock the prison of my split mind so only love emanates from me. Seeing without veils cast in front of my eyes, I clear the cob webs in the cellar of my mind and make a better choice. One for Love and Realization of Truth.

 

DAY 4
The thoughts I think with my separative, split, and fearful mind do not mean what the ego (ahamkar) tells me they do. Neither do the objects that surround me that I see with my eyes and visual cortex.

When I attempt to think and miscreate without being in communion with the Father-Mother, my thoughts that become forms are devoid of meaning. The thoughts with which I identify and call “mine” are phantasms and hallucinations. My True and Untainted Thoughts are those that are being extended with and from the Divine, Causal-Ideational Mind. The reason that I am not currently in a state of Realization, knowing that this is true is because my privatized thought waves have attempted to replace the mutually extended Thoughts I share with my Supernal Parents, the Primal Cause of everything Real and True. I use my will power once again, and the spirit of openness to truly see that my privatized thoughts mean nothing at all, and so I release and dissolve them, removing any perceived power I thought they had over me or anyone else. Holy Spirit Mother, I seek discernment and guidance now. I surrender my private thoughts and ask you to undo them, for I no longer want them to replace our mutual Thoughts. My privatized thoughts have no meaning at all, but using Thought for the purpose of creation or the act of extension happens with ease through my communion and awareness of my oneness with Divinity. This is my only goal today and everyday.

 

 

DAY 5
When I am upset, it is because my subconscious, subjective mind fragments misinterpret reality and are intruding upon Radical Right Perception, thus creating rifts and whirlpools of brain activity leading to massive hallucinations and projections out onto the world. The emotionally charged distortions are part of the reactive process gone haywire in the flow of my astral, spinal currents, spiraling down into misery of my own making.

 

I am never upset, nor agitated, anxious, or angry for the perceived reasons I think I should and can be disturbed because I am constantly applying effort to defend and protect my privatized thought waves. Why do I try so hard to give them justification through what my ego-ahamkar calls truth? When I take a step back, I can see that I demonize all things so I can try to validate my rage and thereby defend my use of mental, emotional, or physical violence. I pray for Realization, so that I can see the degree to which I have distorted the purpose of everything I have perceived through my ego-ahamkar by defining what I think those things are for. The only reason I have put so much time and energy into defending my distorted, dark emotions that stem from fear is because I ultimately wanted to keep my private false-self in bondage and chained to hallucinations. I consciously release my reactivity and all the misery I have miscreated from the depths of my subconscious mind-field. Mother Kundalini, Holy Spirit Fire, rise up, so that I may ascend out of the dungeon of psychological, emotional, neurological, and biological disturbance into the Bliss of acceptance, found in Pure Spirit and Light.

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 50

DAY 50
Divine Love, God’s Infinite, Unending, Undying, Everlasting Life and Love, is my spiritual umbilical cord, reaching from the One True Paradise Within, the Kingdom/Queendom of Heaven. This gold and silver cord carries my life force energy that supplies me with all the strength I need to give, extend, and return Love to my Source and all of manifest creation. My aura and astral energy body are empowered by the Infinite causal mind and body of thought and ideation, and from the astral mind and body comes the life essence that sustains my temporary body vehicle and its sense-mind interpreters of materialized form, trying to make sense out of an existence of multiplicity made by subjectivity and mayaic-delusion.

 
Though I have put my trust in what Jeshua (Jesus) calls “insane and trivial symbols” for protection and the maintenance of health and well being such as the prana of this world which is money, or in magic potions such as pharmacological pills, clothing that is supposed to protect me from the earth elements, having individual significance, the need to be accepted and adored, looking for pain relief in substances and sense pleasures, and in surrounding myself with certain people who I think will make me feel important, God Presence is my only sustenance.

 

The things on this list, which could go on endlessly, are what I use to replace Love Divine. I use these distractions to identify with the dense, physical body and with “special” love based on conditions I make. They try to glorify the ego-ahamkar false-self image. These substitutes will not sustain me, nor help me remember the Paradise Oneness, I in truth never left.

 

Avidya-illusions do not deserve my faith. Only the unchangeable, Infinite Love of Divinity should receive my full attention and desire. I will stop ruminating on illusions and false remedies that bring empty promises to pain, suffering, sadness, fear, and guilt. Only the individual mind can be sick. And it is my mind identified with Infinity that releases me from the idolatry of believing in gods of sickness, mental agony, and all forms of lack.

 

I am eternally safe in the Love of God Presence. No danger exists and I am not subject to any threats to my true peace and bliss. I need but choose my Source for strength and health and lasting calmness.

 

I will commit to two ten minute sittings today, where my prayers and dharana-concentration are centered on the affirmation for today. I will recite it, focus on it, let any thoughts that challenge my belief in today’s affirmation to enter my thought stream, and then allow the recognition of truth to dawn upon my mind that is linked to God Mind. I will not be robbed of peace and the awareness of mental rest. Restlessness is a sure sign of madness and investment in avidya-illusions that will not bring me wholeness, wellness, nor mindfulness.

 

(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)

CHRIST REALIZATION YOGA – DAY 49

DAY 49

If I but listen, and I be but still, quiet, and in a state of conscious mental rest, I will hear God Presence’s Voice and guidance which speaks to me throughout my entire day, every day, all the time as a manifestation of the One Reality of Cosmic Yoga-Union.

 

Today the static, loud, white noise, and ego chatter will subside, if I but let it and I will hear the One Voice for God the Holy Spirit Intelligent Vibratory Power, the Voice that never stops speaking to me. God’s Voice is an endless stream of Awareness and Love that gives me the gifts of peace, joy, and calmness, if I but listen, if I but stop the monkey mind from distracting me.

 

The Love of God Presence, of Brahman Immortal, of Father-Mother God is in constant contact with me, communicating the ultimate Reality of happiness, joy, ananda-bliss, and peace that is available, always. My ego-ahamkar attempts to the extent of threatening suffering and death that will be the consequences of not listening to it. The ego-mind tries to convince me that it is more important to pay attention to, a voice that in truth makes empty promises and speaks to me of a world governed by separation and confusion. What I seek is Yoga-Union with Divinity and my brothers and sisters, Perfect Awareness of Samadhi-Oneness.

 

In calmness, stillness, and absence from all forms of restlessness, I hear the the Holy Spirit, Divinity’s Voice within. This voice speaks calmly and never forcefully against my individual mind’s will. This other more destructive thought system that I tend to listen to is, as Jeshua (Jesus) describes it “frantic and distraught” and “without reality of any kind”. Today, I commit to calmness which brings true freedom, kaivalya-liberation, and to being completely unshackled in my ability to hear only Love.

 

I will center on today’s mantra prayer four different times for five minutes at a time. My goal is to hear and Realize that God Presence is reminding me of who He/She is and validating my True Self, Christ and Atman Self. I confidently embrace this thought of wholeness and wellness, and affirm that I am uniting with Divinity’s Will. The Divine desires more than anything, that I hear His/Her Voice, for it was given to me to be deciphered and heard.

 

I will go into deep silence and stillness. I will find the zero point of Infinity, completely opening my mind. I release all the haunting ghost images and afflicted thoughts that conceal my real thoughts and hinder my phone line to God Mind. I bypass the insane world, go beyond and transcend my riotous and frantic vritti-fluctuation of thought waves. I further affirm, that this world is not my home. By listening and opening to Divine Mind, I am seeking to reconnect to my True Home in Heavenly Oneness. This place welcomes me always, empowering me with the Current and Life Force of God flowing through me.

 

I will recite today’s mantra frequently, with eyes open when necessary, but closing them whenever possible. I will remember that by turning inward away from the external world perceived by the manas-blind-sense-mind, that I am praying for God Presence to speak directly to me. I tune out the flock of thoughts that crowd my individual mind and try to block me from hearing from the Holy Spirit who is speaking for God Presence in every moment of every day, all the time, outside of time. The voice for God will reveal the Light of God, the Altar of God Essence, and connect me with Christ Mind.