This episode of Turning Points and Transformations was a discourse and a sharing of insights inspired by a Course Bryan took called “910: Living in the World While Waking Up”. He covered talked about the function of time as our ego’s like to use it, how the past can imprison and condition us, he suggests ways to release the past, and to become more awakened to the Presence of Love in the Now, thus writing for ourselves a better future. He drew from a variety of resources and spiritual teachers to compliment some of his insights gained through life’s struggles and personal victories. Love’s Presence in the Now is how to have sacred communion and union with the Divine.  

The End of Doubt

It has been a long time since I put a post on here. Maybe it is because I felt that I did not or could not give a voice to what I have been experiencing in my interior and exterior life. Without getting too personal, I have spent time facing my darkest fears. And I have shined light on many dark and hidden places. But the good news, is that I have emerged a more peaceful, aware, and accepting person. Isn’t that what we are all called to, after all?

We all, if we were honest, get attached to self-definitions, to self-concepts and ideas we have constructed in our dualistic minds, about who we think we are. In a world, where like never before in this universe’s history, where we are all concerned about the possibility of “identity theft”, many of us, if we would really admit it, are confused at the deepest level of our unconscious minds, unsure of who we are and what we are supposed to be doing – knowing our calling, rather.

We all look for answers in times of uncertainty and doubt. I think back to more than twenty years ago and remember believing “I had it all figured out”, knowing exactly where I was headed. Well, with total certainty, I can say that that 22-year-old had no clue about living in this world and what it meant to be “living his purpose”.

In twenty years of evolving, soul-searching, changing, struggling, and going back a ways, facing despair and a spiritual emergency at one point, the whole journey has been about “finding” myself. Who am I?

A child of the Divine. Safe at home. In the embrace of the Almighty Lover, the only Source (and that can be seen as taking on so many different images – though we can never create an image of the very thing that is beyond comprehension). All the fear, the insecurity, the escape from responsibility, and pushing people who mattered out of my inner circle, so to speak – it was all done in an effort to be, what I already was (and had)! I feel like I have arrived. Been through what I call the “rebirthing matrix”.

No title, nor degree, or certification, or credentials could name me. I, like you am a beloved of the Divine. Today, I can say with confidence and assurance, that I accept that. And it feels so serene and calm. I survived life’s storms (though there are sure to be more). I have found my rock, on which I have built the temple of my soul, so I can share more fully, love more compassionately, and dream a collective, new, more beautiful world into being – just by doing my part. By being self-aware. Forget all the mystical experiences and abilities I have acquired. Those were only important in getting me to this moment. The NOW!

Now I have a responsibility. To continue to walk the path, not just through what many people mistakenly call, “faith” (when they really mean belief), but rather as a great biblical scholar and guardian of the Pre-Christian Teachings of Yeshua (Jesus) has pointed out in his written and oral ministry, I need to be “faithful” and to “persevere”. I would add, I need to be true to the calling I have heard in my heart. To become a mystic activist, getting involved in helping to bring liberation and peace to this world. Some believe there is only one ‘messiah’. Some are still waiting for that person to come. I am boldly going to echo what many of my mentors have told me – you, me, and all of us, are the chosen of God, called to LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY and to forgive always, seeing the dignity and worth of every incarnate soul. So, I am challenging you – to put an end to your doubts about who you think or thought you are or were…. WE ALL NEED TO STAND UP TO RECEIVE THE DISPENSATION, to be ANOINTED, as Light-Bearers, whether you want to call it the Christ, the Krishna, the Buddha, the True Self, the Atman. . . there is no right word to describe what we all must have the courage to become. Know, you are called, as am I, to help liberate and though I hate using this word – to ‘save’, NO, to “LOVE” (not convert to any belief system either) this world and all of creation, by awakening to the truth that we can live here and make a difference. So, let us put self-interest aside, and restore HOPE where there is none. PEACE where there is chaos. JOY to those who are disheartened.

In Love, out of Love. Thank you for your time.


Silencing a Thousand Barking Dogs – Episode 16 Brain Anatomy of Duality Discourse 4 – The Deep Limbic System


This is a rebroadcast of a 2011 episode by Bryan. He continues to explore for the listener, his premise that unlike God Consciousness, that of a human brain is dualistic, hence the title “Brain Anatomy of Duality.”


He continues to draw from research from Dr. Daniel Amen and cites this researcher’s discoveries using the science of SPECT Imaging, information found within his book “Change Your Brain, Change Your Life.”


Bryan begins by talking about what Amen says about the Deep Limbic System and how love and affective disorders are related to it. The Limbic system contains the Thalamic Structure and the Hypothalamus. The Limbic system as a whole contains multiple parts and Bryan focuses in this episode on just the Deep Limbic System and what neuro-psychiatry has to say about it.


Bryan, once again relates the scientific findings to the symbolic nature of dog-like thought and behavior patterns.


The Deep Limbic System sets the emotional tone of the mind. It filters external events through internal states which is known as “emotional coloring”. It is what gives “flavor” and “zest” to what we process. The DLS also tags certain events as internally important. It also stores highly charged emotional memories, it modulates motivation, controls appetite and also sleep cycles. An important function of the DLS is that it promotes bonding as seen with mammals, such as dogs, wolf-packs, and other animals, both domesticated and wild. In the DLS you process sense and smell and modulates libido or sexual drive for procreation.


The Limbic System lies near the center of the brain and its size is that of a walnut. The functions contained within are critical to human behavior and survival. From an evolutionary standpoint, this is part of the mammalian brain that enabled animals to express emotions. The Deep Limbic System adds the “emotional spice” (coloring) and passion to carry out planning and actions related to the Pre-Frontal Cortex part of the brain. The DLS sets the emotional tone. For example, when the DLS is less active there is usually a more positive hopeful state of mind in a person. On the flip side, when it is heated up, it can have a negative impact.


Dr. Amen says that when the DLS is inflamed emotional “shading” takes place. Emotional shading is the filter in which you interpret the events of a given day.


Amen says that hormones can effect emotional states that are controlled by the DLS. Highly charged emotional memories (positive and negative) are stored in this area of the brain as well and can affect your ability to think in the present. Sleep, appetite, and social bondedness are affected by damage done to this area of the brain. Such damage can seriously impair a person from healthy social connectedness. Bryan shares his understanding based on personal experiences about how he healed his ability to bond as talks about the push-pull relationships we may find ourselves in. Overactivity in the DLS can lead to decreased libido and many people who become celibate in religious vocations do so for the wrong reasons or without fully healing this area in their life. He talks about repressed desires for sexual functioning and certain behaviors that may result.


Some problems in the DLS are clinical depression, mood disorders, negativity, decreased motivations, decreased sexual responses, the tendency to self-isolate, and crippling anxiety and fear.


Once again Bryan uses the symbolism of dog-behaviors rooted in barking as characteristic ways of understanding these issues.


Some of the anatomy of the DLS includes the Hypothalamus and the Basal Ganglia. Barking dogs such as heightened fear, anxiety, and lack of attention span are the results of an over-activity in the Basal Ganglia. Under activity in this area can affect pleasure control “loops” says Dr. Amen.


Bryan says that we cannot ignore the role that brain and body states play in our thinking. He speaks about addictive love patterns and how it relates to the Basal Ganglia. Heightened Basal Ganglia activity as shown in Amen’s SPECT imaging can cause panic and anxiety loops. Bryan calls this the descent into a living hell.


Bryan goes through one of Dr. Amen’s Basal Ganglia checklists to allow the listener to self-score (not as a replacement for medical attention, but merely for self-awareness) how prone they are to having challenges with this part of the Deep Limbic System.

Silencing A Thousand Barking Dogs – Episode 15: Brain Anatomy of Duality Discourse 4 – Dogs that Distract and the Pre-Frontal Cortex



The Pre-Frontal Cortex is the executive part of the brain – the supervisor. It controls attention span, perseverance, impulse control, self-monitoring, critical thinking, learning from experience, organization, and it governs interaction with the limbic system, regulating emotions. Found underneath the forehead. Bryan continues to talk about Dr. Daniel Amen’s research on brain anatomy.


PFC guides directs and focus behavior. It helps us govern dogs of distraction, Bryan says, and is the watcher who filters sensory input from the outside world. It gives you the capacity to make goals, to plan, and to bring structure to your life. Critical thinking and organization are vital functions of the Pre-Frontal Cortex.


Emotional trauma and pain can stunt the development of this part of the brain. Bryan states that he had an over-active limbic system during adolescence, something that is typical in the developmental process, before the Pre-Frontal Cortex can begin to keep it in check. 7:38


The development of the Pre-Frontal lobes are integral according to the field of brain science. Bryan relates his experiences in the performing arts as having given him an outlet. He talks about multiple intelligence, meditation as a means to re-wire the brain, and illustrates examples of patterns of behavior found in people who do not learn from their mistakes.


You don’t have to continue to live with the brain you were born with or that was conditioned by social means. Bryan also talks about some examples of what happens when the Pre-Frontal Cortex is damaged or when someone has a stroke, for instance. The emotions felt in the Pre-Frontal cortex are more evolved than those that come from the Limbic system.


Animal and “dog-like” behavior such as reactivity, readiness to attack, acting from ingrained instincts or fears, and lack of domestication is typical of someone living out of an over-active Limbic System.


Short term-memory challenges, distractibility, attention span, hyper-activity, poor time management, procrastination, mis-perceptions, and disorganized patterns of behavior are prevalent in those who have stunted development in the Pre-Frontal Cortex.


Those with brain damage and severe trauma may never reach the capacities that someone with a healthy brain may have. Attention Deficit Disorder and Schizophrenia are examples of disorders related to poor regulatory functions that the Pre-Frontal Cortex is responsible for. Psychotic disorders are also typical for those who have troubles with this part of the brain.


The way dogs perceive and act are symbolic for those who don’t have a developed Pre-Frontal Cortex.

Silencing A Thousand Barking Dogs Episode 13 – When The Dog Bites: You Can’t Let Sleeping Dogs Lay – Rescuing and Healing Abused and Stray and Dog Pain Patterns



Is demon possession and mental illness connected? Is “possession” a supernatural phenomenon where we are taken over by malevolent energy or is there a less Medieval and and less ancient way of explaining what it means to be “taken over” by an energy, a mental state such as psychosis or pathology of other kinds? In this short episode, Bryan explores commentary and teachings of Eckhart Tolle as supported by Franciscan priest Richard Rohr.


Tolle speaks of the “pain-body” to explain violent and temperamental “phantoms” that are rooted in pain-patterns we store in our bodies from the past. Bryan talks about ways to identify the surfacing of the pain body as it awakens from its dormant state. Richard Rohr says that Tolle’s concept of the pain body is a perfect example to describe what Christianity and other ancient religions have attributed to the phenomenon of demonic energy.


The pain-body is the “dark-shadow cast by the ego” and is afraid of the light of you consciousness. The pain-body is afraid of being “found out”. We need to bring our pain into the light of consciousness so we do not let it possess us like an “insubstantial phantom”.


There is a way out of pain from the past. The first step is becoming aware by exposing our strong reactivity and buried emotional traumas. Bringing it to consciousness, we free ourselves from the “anti-life” that causes us to lose control. “Sleeping dogs” can be traumas or disowned pain patterns in the unconscious, Bryan says. Like the fearful dog who mistrusts others, may be chained and neglected, we all have our triggers and can become explosive.


This episode explores a subject worth pondering, for we all repress pain that leads to “dis-ease” of many kinds.