REMEMBERING A TRUE TEACHER OF LOVE

The picture above was a snapshot from a beautiful day, one that I treasure in my heart, especially so, now, after learning of the passing of my mentor and Ordaining Bishop +Lee Allen Petersen. This picture was from a round-table discussion on our spiritual journeys at a retreat in Mustang Island, on the coast of Texas that took place hours before I received the laying on of hands from Bishop Lee.

I was only thirty years-old when I came into contact with this loving man and emanation of the Christ Presence. It was not by accident that I was led to Bishop Lee and the members of the Order of the Friends of Jeshua (Jesus). I was ordained at the age of 32 and was told that the office of priest was “an awesome office, one where I would not only serve at the altar, but out in all humanity as well”. He said this to me on May 27th, 2011. Now, today, turning 41, on January 25th, 2020, I wanted to honor and remember him, as he recently lost his battle with lung cancer.

The Bishop Lee that I came to know, was one of love, light, and laughter. He touched so many lives and served humanity in the true spirit of Divine Love. He inspired many and he inspired me to grow and evolve throughout the years as I sought to grow and mature as a young priest, seeking the realize the fullness of my vocation.

Normally, I would write a poem or something from my heart, but I instead wanted to share a link to a radio show that he co-hosted with my dear friend and Bishop who con-celebrated at my ordination, Rev. Dr. Linda Marie Nelson and Fr. Michael Sherbert, where you too, get a chance to hear the teachings of this wonderful Christ-filled soul, who is now at peace in eternity. Bishop Lee, you are free now to experience the fruits of your life-long ministry in Heaven. I just want to thank you for touching my life, Bishop Lee, and for challenging me to live more from the heart, what I now consider the pathway to God. You were a light in this world. Be at peace and know that you are missed and loved. I know you are having a fantastic time where you reside now. Here is the link!

Renewal & Rebirth

It has been awhile since I last posted. There were good reasons for that. I was in the process of moving over the course of many months. I have been doing a lot of reflecting and have acquired a renewed appreciation for my sacramental roots.

My wife and I (more so her), had to leave behind a big part of our past in the moving process. She lived in the house I shared with her for fifteen-years, for forty-four out of her almost forty-five years. Though we both had to say good-byes and do a lot of releasing in order to move forward, she had to do much more, having grown up in that two-story colonial that just became too big for the both of us to maintain.

In going through the Course Companions program for the Circle of Atonement last year, having started in 2018 reading the Complete and Annoted Edition of the Text of A Course in Miracles, I had the opportunity to experience original content given to Helen Shuchman, scribe of “The Course”. It was eye-opening and it expanded my understanding of Jeshua’s message for our times. Reading the original notes she received through the inner voice that led to her dictation, I came to think about what I was holding onto in the past that needed letting go, something I thought I had done through the use of artistic expression, creative writing, poetry, painting, making 3D sculptures, shadow work, and more.

Through the packing and moving process, I saw my wife experience many degrees of emotions and insights as she had to make choices about what to keep and what to let go of. We down-sized by a thousand square feet into a log cabin set in the country, the exact set up we had been looking for. Now, months after the move is complete and having spent the holidays in our new home for the first time, I notice that my wife is seems more free. Free of guilt, free of grief, free of being surrounded by both wonderful and painful memories that she could not escape in our old house. I pray that she continues to enjoy this new sanctuary as we make it our own.

“Only loving thoughts are true”, teaches A Course in Miracles. That is something we are to keep in mind as we look back at the past and this past year too. If that is true, tragedy and loss can be viewed in a new light. We take with us, all the loving thoughts and memories of the people we were in relationship with that may no longer be with us or in our physical life anymore. It is hard to let go, but what we can do, is integrate memories into our innermost being and turn to them when we want to experience a certain sentiment, especially when we love or hold something or someone dear to us.

When my other half and I joined in Holy Matrimony and made a life-long commitment, we shared in a common goal. This was the beginning of our holy relationship, something that “The Course” speaks a great deal about. Part of the journey in the holy relationship is going through a period of discomfort, I have learned through those I have called my teachers and guides. I think now, after the trials and tribulations that we have faced together, we are moving into a new phase of our relationship, one of renewal, healing, reconciliation, remembrance of our true identity, and a life rooted in love.

As one of my spiritual directors said long ago, moving can be cathartic. Man was it hard and wow, did it take a lot of hard work and effort. But as we continue to settle in our “Quiet Sanctuary” in the woods away from noise and traffic, maybe we can hear the voice of the Divine more clearly now.

We both have much to be thankful for. Change is inevitable, but not always a bad thing. I am happy with the decisions we made to begin a new chapter in our lives. Now, moving into a new decade, it is time to take on a new perspective, both individually, in our relationships, and collectively as a human race. May we all do so, living from the heart. Best wishes to all.