The images and thoughts of which I interpret to mean something with a negatively charged vibration are really an assault on the little self I call ‘me’. When I identify with an individual, separate, different from others self, I perceive and interpret the world to be an attack on my egoic (ahamkar) false-self. I am not an individual self. I am part of One Whole Unified Field of Love and Light.
When I believe I am an individual personality self instead of the Son/Daughter of God, the True Self Christ and Atman, I am assaulting myself with unconscious fragments and slivers of false thought. When I deny assault in my individual mind, I use the egoic film projector to create and interpret that very assault as coming from an outside world, disowning it. My response is to enshroud myself in a bubble of protection from that world and attack and assault it, my brothers and sisters in spirit, and all of which I seem to perceive. I get caught in the vicious cycle of the egoic-ahamkar manifestation of drama comprised of conflict, where I seem to see assault and attack and then feel the intense need to counter attack. This will continue to happen until I liberate my mind through Jnana Yogic discrimination. Using the buddhi-intellect, I deny the manas-sense-mind from taking control of what I interpret to be a hostile reality, that in truth is an illusion. I must and can escape from my ingrained perceptual hoax, the carnal, savage movie I out-picture as a world filmstrip, with attached sound, tainted light beams, moving images, a script, sets, props, tragedies and comedies at the expense of truth, and actors and actresses, who I think are making independent choices, when in reality I am making them up from the one ahamkar-ego that is appearing as a multiplicity of egos.
The dance of illusions known as maya, the hypnosis, is something I seemed to make, trying to hide from and rebel against the very God Mind I thought was out to seek vengeance on me, trying to convince myself that I am unlovable and the Divine, Supreme, Indestructible Spirit Mind, Brahman, Father-Mother is out to punish me for something I thought I did, which never happened. What I fear I want to assault and kill. What I fear is a call for Love. What I fear does not exist. Only Love makes up the fabric of what is Truly Real. I am unaware of what I do at many times while on this earth stage living out a script that has an ending, when in Reality, the True Self, Christ Self, could never end. It is eternal and immortal. I cannot perish. Not ever.
Today I will change my thoughts to change the world I see. For a minimum of five times this day, I will gaze at the world I have surrounded myself with for a minute. Moving my eyes from one object to other ones, or from one physical, dense body to another, I will verbally say:
“What I see has an ending and will perish, so it has no reality. I am just perceiving a form of thought assault on myself.”
Following each practice period, I should contemplate whether or not this is what I want to perceive. I must be convicted in knowing the answer to this, that no, I would not.
(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)